I was supposed to head off to sleep, but I guess I was in the mood to blog.

I just had a long conference conversation with 2 of my best friends. It's good to know that I'm blessed with their friendships. I'm lucky to have friends like Aileen and Ronnell. I can't remember the last time I was on the phone that long with either one of them. For once, I wasn't "too busy for my friends." It was refreshing to know that even though we're going our own ways, we still manage to stay in contact. I've known Aileen for 6 years and Ronnell for 15 years. That only proves that time doesn't fade shit.

Christmas has really taken a toll on me...in a good way. Despite my depleted bank account, the satisfaction of getting presents for the ones that I love was well worth becoming broke. I never expect anything in return. That's just damn selfish. Anyone who knows me well enough knows that I try to be as selfless as I possibly can. I've also come to understand that I have to be a taker in order to be a good giver. Just their gratitude gives me a feeling that I never get, and that's all I really need in return. The holidays is the opportunity for me to express how much the people in my life mean to me. It's just unfortunate that I'm not able to give presents to everyone.

It doesn't really matter that I don't have that "special someone" to share the holidays with. I have the security of knowing that I have my friends and family. I think that it's safe to say that I've walking in my own winter wonderland for the past couple of weeks.

The new layout is growing on me...