Have you ever felt out of place with the people you love to be with? At the risk of them reading it, I'm just going to type what I feel. (That's what this thing is for right?) It was weird not engaging in conversation with friends. It's not that I expect people to talk out of their ass when I'm with them. I guess magazines seemed like a good idea at the time. I'm not that much of a magazine buff so I was kind of caught in the middle of three people flipping through pages while I'm trying to leave the table without coming off rude. Don't get me wrong, I love their company but do they appreciate mine? I hope so. I kept thinking to myself, am I just the annoying guy who calls for no reason and wants to hang out? Am I the dork vegetating on their couch? Are they only letting me take them out just to humor me? I didn't feel any presence on my part. I'm not suggesting anything here. I'm sure they had no idea I felt this way. Realistically speaking, what could I have said to improve the situation on my part? Did they have a good time or did I waste their time? I don't know.


What did I learn today?
- I'm not an avid magazine patron
- not everyone would like my company
- my driving comes off as erratic (sp?)
- I might come off as annoying
- not all people hold hands the right way (don't ask)
- it sucks not being able to converse with friends
- just because I think it's a good place doesn't mean that it's good for the rest of the world
- something about erection angles (again...don't ask)
- go to the bathroom before you leave the tea bar

I had a good time. I guess the only thing that matters to me right now is that I enjoyed their company. heh.