I should be honest with myself. I haven't been blogging in a while for a reason. I've been kicking myself in the ass telling myself to get with the program and catch up with some of my classes. I'm very behind in two of my classes. I'd consider myself fortunate to even pass these classes. Anyway, I've been lacking the motivation to even get up in the morning. It has nothing to do with any personal issues. In fact, there aren't any. The fact is that I chose to put myself in this hole. Every morning I hate myself (school-wise) even more.

I came to school late today and I wanted to finish up my paper. It turns out that I brought the wrong disk and I don't even have the folder to go with it. I guess I'm going to have to finish the paper when I get home. I can't show up to my class witout the paper so I'm basically wasting my day here in the library. The only class that I will be able to go to is my Math class...which so happens to be my last class for the day.

My mom noticed that I wasn't really taking school too seriously at the moment. I felt kind of offended when she said something to me but then I thought about what she said. I realized that I'm putting myself through a lot. All I really need is some motivation to get to school. I'm so wreckless...all school really needs is a little bit of daily maintenance to avoid being overwhelmed by it. I wasn't able to do that right. Now where am I?

All I'm doing now is praying for myself. In fact, I pity myself. I always swear to myself that I'm not going to continue this pattern of behavior. I really ought to stop...