I've been neglecting this blog and the race lately. I've been involved in so much this past weekend and today is just my day to chill and relax.

The very end of June and this coming July looks to be a very active one for me. Let's see, what have I done...The luau passed last weekend. I finally went to magic for the first time in a couple of years last week. I'm actually going to Disneyland tomorrow and I'm going to Vegas next week and a week and a half later, I'm off to Canada. Whew! Just the thought of all of this traveling is tiring me out.

The only thing that would make this summer complete is a road trip up north. I'd love to see my family up there.

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I'm feeling uneasy and perplexed by something. Heh, I'm not at liberty to elaborate on that, but it's not like it's dragging me down. It's just there's a lot on my mind and there are a lot of things that I want from life and right now I don't really have the resources to get what I want. At times, I'm not even sure what I want. Last night during dinner Patricia was talking about how some people are so in to helping people that they don't know how to help themselves. Sometimes I feel that way.

One of my best friends was talking about the future, I think her explanation was pretty accurate...

The future is a complex thing. So uncertain, so cloudy yet so hopeful and appealing. It's so inviting but somehow you can never reach it. The future is inevitable. It can't be stopped. It moves without moving. It hangs in the distance playing with our expectations, our imagination and our dreams. Its an observer. Never quick to take action, never kind to give advice.

Well, that's my deep cognitive crap for the day...