I've had a lot on my mind but there was one thing that really wasn't making sense. There was so much I was thinking about and none of it concerned me. I think I finally realized that I have to look out for myself rather than trying to acheive what may never happen. Although my happiness waned a little bit, I think it was about time for me to just let things they way the are and hope things will fall into place. I've been happy for a while now, so why should I have to compromise that happiness over something that's not even in my control? Results don't happen off the bat. I think that if you have faith then things will make sense. I discovered that prayers are ALWAYS answered. It's not always a yes and it's not always a no. Sometimes it's not even the result I expected but it was the best possible outcome...

I was finally mature enough to put MY own foot down. I admit I'm doubting myself a little but I think that I'll be a better person and a better friend for it.

I can't really explain where all of this is coming from. I don't have the time to tell you. Just know that my life has dramatically changed this year. I've grown up for the better and really made a difference with the relationships around me. I can actually say that I'm happy...the happiest year I've lived so far.

I got what I wanted for Christmas this year...none of it was material. (Okay, the DVD player was nice...) I received what I've asked for. Peace. Love. Happiness. Friends. Health. Family.

I love you Gail and I hope that you have found the comfort you're looking for. I haven't really found mine...yet.

and Ivy...I admire your strength and perserverance. I'm glad that you still have time for Confirmation. If it wasn't for that I don't think that we'd ever be this close. Continue to grow in your faith in yourself and in God. Only good things will come out of it. Kuya loves you a lot.