I can't sleep...you're on my mind. I'm not sure what triggered this whole chain of thought but it's about time I let it out...

It's funny how much I've missed. I realize that I haven't really been talking to Daphne online lately. It's not that I don't want to talk to her. It's more like I NEED to talk to her. Call me selfish, but I don't want to talk to her online. I don't want to talk to her on the phone. I want to see her...go out with her...talk to her in person. That's what I need. Our one-on-one talks usually gets me on track. That's what I miss. Sure, I'm happy...but incomplete. That's what I want. A long conversation with her over food, coffee, boba...ANYTHING. I needed that before going back to school. I needed that before a lot of things. There is so much that I want to tell her...so many jokes to tell her...but not online or on the phone. Just in person; me and her. No one else...in our own little world. That's what I want need.

She lives over 400 miles away but I feel that our hearts and minds connect. It kills me to have this feeling inside. If I had the time & money I'd fly there and dissapear from my own life just to spend time with her.

I'm listening to this CD I made for someone and for some reason it got the brain going. I popped into her site and read...

people i miss.....
cyrille kaiklian, mark kaiklian, aiyah uy, rachel-lin-sheena vinluan and their bfs, mj belvis, donna ponferrada, juan angeles, rome atendido [rome dada], joe flores, pervis, oliver plant, tj, dexter aballa, archie, alvin, curtis alumno, renato herrera and melanie proctor [yeah i know..so close ...i feel guilty], rochelle, rodney helgado, rich and aloe [all the folks in 3rd year nursing or something like that], paul talosig, pamela madayag, sydeny leanne borja [i just saw her a week ago but still she's my goddaughter], jerel motos, ciara de los reyes, jay de los reyes, ryan casquite [the folks i only see every couple years at my mom's reunions], and i had to save the best for last....shaun tai.

Well, ate...I miss you. More than ever. More than you can possibly comprehend. The only way to change it is to see you again. It sucks that one of God's most special gifts to me isn't within arm's reach. I love you ate! I'll plan a weekend to escape...I promise.

I need it.

We need it.