If I didn't forget my Art History stuff, I wouldn't be stuck in the collaboratory with nothing to do. I'm waiting for my partner for drama and all the while I COULD be going home and studying for my art history exam. Whatever...I'm just going to have to play this by ear.

I thought that I was happy last night. I woke up to face my reality and remembered that I still have a lot of shit to take care of. Now that I know that Jay and I are on the same page, I know there's one less thing to worry about.

Tomorrow will be a really long day for me. I can feel it. I have to finish the presentation for drama and study for my art history exam. I gave myself some tasks that I believe should get my mind back on track. I'm ready to tackle tomorrow. At this point, I don't care what the outcome is...as long as I get through it.

My heart is still heavy, but I now know that I'm not the only one who is carrying it. Thank you to everyone who has expressed their concern. I also GREATLY appreciate everyone who didn't ask questions. All I needed was support...not unsolicited advice. That's precisely what I got. I also apologize for not being the best person in the world. I just need time...I just need patience.

I guess this was the push I needed to improve myself. Someone keeps telling me I'm so perfect...so ideal. I wish I could agree with them. I don't know what they see...but I'm going to improve for myself...for the sake of the people around me.

I promise I'll be a better person in a couple of days. That's all the space I need right now.

Continue the prayers...they're working.