It's killing me that I haven't been able to see my nephew. There was a slight snafu last night...and we ended up getting lost and being stuck in traffic. AHHH! Why me?!

I can't remember the last time I was this relaxed. Lately, there have been a lot of things that have been bogging me down...especially school. I didn't really do much this weekend, but I did spend a lot of time with my cousins...I haven't really been able to really just be bored with them...to take them out...to just be stupid. heh. I'm so glad that I made the decision to just leave. I'm ready to come back to my life and it's problems. I'm recharged to take on my challenges and just get back to what I was doing in the first place.

There have been some people that can't talk to me for some reason. I don't know what's going on. I'm not mad at anyone...If you think I am then you have to let me know.

I had this conversation with Kristine earlier and I was thinking that for some reason, I stick to what I believe. I can't give in to anyone...She reminded me that I can still be a worthy person without having to validate myself. I was reminded that I am still a role model whether I like it or not. I was reminded that even when people stray...I should still have the heart to still walk behind them. I was reminded that I have a lot of patience...more than I know.

The second year retreat is coming up. I personally could use a retreat, but it's not geared for me. heh. It's for the 2nd year. I can't wait to go though. I think I really need to just talk to God one-on-one...I need to be filled with the spirit. I need to be in a prayerful and loving environment. I need some answers. I need some strength. I need to call off work...

crap.