I had some good clean fun last night with the SDYMers. I haven't been able to spend chill/goofing off/conversation time with them lately. Randy cooked up some great food. Patricia brewed up some great tea. The rest of us enjoyed a long ass and somewhat immature game of Simpsons UNO! hahaha. It's nice being able to spend time with them and just enjoying each other's company. Too bad boyfriend couldn't come though. They were all hoping I'd take him. I'm glad they all want to get to know him. Stupid car...

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I was cleaning up and I stumbled upon a large novelty birthday card that was given to me on my 19th birthday. I remember that birthday too. It was one of the best ones. I had a surprise party on a retreat and Lei was a big part in handling it. I was reading through all the messages and they all made me smile...except for one. I read it over and it said, "Who knows...in a few years time I will be able to even spend your 21st with you. hahahaha. we could drink up together..." I thought to myself, a lot of people have changed over the past 2 years. I have certainly grown up a lot in the past 2 years. Unfortunately, some people made the concious choice to grow away from me.

Mark...2 years later:

I'm on the later part of college.
I'm still active in SDYM.
I'm a proud ninong and uncle.
My friends are farther apart but still close to me.
I'm jobless.
I'm out of the closet.
I have a loving boyfriend.
My parents and family know about me.
One person I love can't take it and I have to work around that.
I'm still learning a lot of things.
I've made a lot of downe friends.

Like I said before, I don't really make a big deal about my birthday. For the most part...nobody does and it's okay. That's the way I'm used to. I'm going to be 21 and a lot of doors are going to open for me. Some of those doors I'm going to need people to open for me. "I ain't too proud to beg."