I can't imagine my closest friends thinking that I don't care. This past month has been push and pull for me; not that I'm making an excuse. There hasn't really been a weekend for me to stop and smell the roses.

I got a friendly reminder that my old friends miss me. I also got the impression that they think I don't care. I couldn't believe it. Why would I not care about my friends all of a sudden? Why would I simply forget them and what they've done for me?

I, of all people, wouldn't take my friends for granted. I am really lucky to have friends like the ones I have. They accept me for who I am. So why would I simply dismiss them? The only thing that really hurt me is that some of my friends have come to the conclusion that I don't care about them, simply because I've been MIA.

To my bestest friend in the world:

We've been friends for about 8 years now. We've been through too much for me to just forget about you. I know you need your friends more than ever now. I'm sorry I've been on the run so much. I'm sorry I made you think I don't care. I've been praying for you like you asked me. I've been concerned about you since we last talked. I don't really understand why talking to me about your problems would be difficult, let alone thinking that I would be the last person who would care.

I love you. Don't doubt that. I'll keep you in my prayers. I'm sorry.