I miss him so much. I guess it's because I was able to spend a whole weekend with him. I don't know what it is, but I just miss him a lot. I can't call him since he's out and about with his friends...which is what he's supposed to be doing. One of the few reason that I can sleep at night is that he's doing just fine and making lots of friends. I have to be supportive and understanding. He needs that; especially that I'm not really around. I have to give him space and trust him, right? I have no reason to not do so.

Recently, I talked to a good friend about why his latest relationship failed. It wasn't his fault. His boyfriend didn't give him his space. He didn't let him grow in his new environment. It made me think about how hard it can be to let go sometimes. The hardest part is driving home from his campus or not getting to hug or kiss him goodbye...but obviously, that's the way it has to be. It would be wrong of me to be selfish and not allow him to do whatever he wants to do. He needs to get out there and really find out what life's all about. He's so happy living the dorm life...and what kind of boyfriend would I be to take away from such a positive exeperience?

I know my relationship hasn't been very long, but we learned that we have to compromise and sacrifice. I need to be patient and selfless. I need to understand and continue to support him.

I really love him a lot. He means the world to me. No one needs to know who he is if you don't know already. I've been getting questions as to who he is...but he asked me not to give out his name...and of course, I understand.

With each day that passes, I know that our relationship grows stronger...even a little bit. I would bend over backwards for him. After all, isn't that what a good boyfriend would be willing to do? Another thing is that we communicate well. Even if one doesn't want to talk about it...we make sure we talk it over before we part ways. There hasn't been a night where we went to sleep angry with each other. Sometimes he has to force my thoughts outta me...as I can be pretty stubborn sometimes. heh.

Thanks for making me laugh this past weekend beb. I needed to forget my troubles and get happy.

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this poem means so much to me. thanks mocha. you're awesome.

A Good Leader

He was my stepping-stone to you Lord
He led me to the stairway to grace
Because of him I have greater faith Lord
And for once I didn’t need to race

He taught me to live life as myself Lord
And walk on the street knowing you were at my side
He taught me to love you more than ever Lord
He strengthened my pride

He wasn’t only your follower Lord
But a leader to all
He pushed himself to help others Lord
And made sure our faith would never fall

Mark is a leader Lord
The greatest one I’ve ever met and personally known
Mark is my leader Lord
And now it has truly shown

He has devoted life to you Lord
So all I ask for you to do
Give him my hearts blessing Lord
Because he brought two people together, me and you!

MOCHAchee

With that, I can smile and say...

LIFE IS GOOD.