I admit it. I'm jealous. I know I'm not in front of the line. I know that I had my chance. I know I won't get that second chance. He won't love me anymore. He won't miss me anymore. Why does it seem totally okay for me while at the same time I get bugged by it? Why do I feel like I'm being sized up and looking like I'm not good enough for anyone else? Why don't I feel satisfactory? I think it's because I'm not quite ready to date yet. Why do I compare other guys to my ex? WHY THE FUCK AM I SO CONFUSED? On top of that, why am I having dreams about him?!

Everyone knows that it's natural to feel jealous when you know you're getting replaced.

Why can't I date some other guy? Do you know why?

Because he's NOT you.

I'm not saying I'm NOT okay. I am. Just confused and a little insecure. But no matter what, you KNOW that I'm here for you when you need me. Don't hesitate to call if you need to talk. I know things are a little frustrating for you...and there's no way I'd ditch you.

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I think my milkshake drives the boys away from my yard.