I always thought that most jokes had a hint of truth. I guess this time I was right. I played a joke with a guy that lasted all night and even at some points of the night, I was hoping that the joke would go too far. I was also wishing that it wasn't an act that we tried to front. My concern for my own image and my insecurities held me back. There was something I liked about him, but would it be in bad taste to test the waters considering we had just met? It was obvious to my other friends that I was attracted to him.

Oddly enough the circumstances ended up bringing him and his best friend to spend the night. NO...nothing happened, but there was a lot of talking going on.

Tonight the "other half" of the joke surfaced. I admitted that I was attracted to him and I was glad, and frankly, quite surprised that he was attracted to me. We talked about everything to make sure that we were on the same page.

You can never take words back. Once they are heard or read, they're out there.

I think I'm gonna take this one slowly. I don't expect anything to come out of this. I'm tired of relying on a hope. I'm tired of myself. I'm going to take this as a sign to change; a time to improve myself.

A guy caught my attention. Now let's see if he can catch everything else. heh.