I try to sleep early and BAM I wake up super early...WTF is that?! Oh well, at least I made myself a big breakfast. =)

I guess sometimes things don't work out the way we intend them too. We prepare for the worst possible scenario, yet most of the time it's never the worst case. I never wanted to dissapoint nor did I want hurt his feelings. No. I'm not talking about the ex. Anyway, I did like the time we spent together...but maybe it's not the right time for me to jump just yet. I think I'm going to look after my well-being first. I feel I need and deserve that. It would be unfair to give myself to someone, when I'm not even complete. It's hard to say no to a sweet guy, but I guess the timing was wrong on both ends. Neither of us can say that we didn't give "us" a try. Maybe something was off with the chemistry...I'd bet that it was probably me. The only thing that I can guarantee in the future is that we'll be friends. Oh and thanks for saying that there was nothing wrong with my milkshake...LOL. I'm sure that I'll eventually be ready for a relationship. The only person I need to focus on is myself. Gotta look out for number one...heh.

We promised that we'd be friends first. I mean, I don't have a lot of downe friends I can just go to and vegetate with. I like that. I think I need that. I feel like one of the guys for once. I don't have to feel "different" because the rest of my friends around me are straight. It's not that I don't appreciate the straight friends that I have, but let's face it... Sometimes I feel like the token queer of the group. Can't I be in the majority for once? I mean sure I joke around a lot and I can be light about my sexuality, but sometimes I don't want it to be broadcasted, you know? If you're wondering, I'm not talking about what happened yesterday or anytime specifically...I'm just being general.

(Hey, if you're reading this...I still owe you dinner and a movie. hahaha.)