I think it's time to get a job. I'm tired of having nothing to show for myself. I'm tired of begging. I'm tired of people fucking feeling sorry for me since I'm so broke. I'm especially tired of having to compete with a 12 year old for the computer. I seriously need my own laptop. I need to be able to work on things without having one person or the whole house breathing down my neck. Fuck. I have shit to do too. I'm not just chatting with people on line. I'm doing work and finally doing my OWN shit for a change instead of pleasing other people. Don't get me wrong I don't have a problem doing things for other people...but quite frankly, If I got paid for EVERYTHING that I've done, I wouldn't be griping about cash. "You're a starving student for a reason...you suck." I disagree. It's just I'm doing too many favors. For those I did things for or in the process: You're lucky. because you will be the last "clients" I'm going to accept for a while.

There are so many things that I want. There are so many things that I need. This semester is really just getting on my nerves. I was on the waiting list for 4 different class and only managed to land ONE. I'm not happy about that at all.

I'm on edge right now. I finally got the new layout up and running and let me enjoy it dammit. I'm just irritated in general.

I want to leave. I want to feel comfortable. I want stop stressing over so many things. It's literally fucking up my body.

blah. just BLAH.