Why do I do things in such an excessive way? haha. Charles tells me I worry too much. Jason and Justin tell me I think too much. I say I eat too much. My mom thinks I gamble too much.

Why do I worry?
I only worry when I'm feeling lost or unsure about things. There are so many things still left unsaid and unanswered. I worry if things will work or not. I'm looking for answers but if I take too long, I feel the opportunity may fade away.

Well, his mom seems to like me. His sister seems to like me. The question is, does he still like me? I'm sure that's a ludacris question to ask myself. There are a few things I need to know, but time will only tell me that. Slowly but surely, things will even out. Life is just such a maelstrom of obligations right now. For some reason, I STILL second guess myself...

Why do I think so hard?
I told you that I think about everything...unfortunately, sometimes I end up becoming fixated on the worst case scenario. I dream little dreams with big hopes inside. Since I analyze the situation, at times, I get a little carried away with the notion. Honestly, I put the "anal" in analyze.

There are things that he does and doesn't do. That's what makes me think. A part of me says insecurity is taking over. Another part is telling me that it's not at face value. I need to consider the reasoning and situation BEFORE I come to a conclusion about him and/or me. Sometimes I have trouble remembering that circumstances and motives really effect one's actions, thoughts, behavior, and even emotion.

The other problems kind of speak for themselves. I have lots to work on when it comes to myself. There's a lot of room for improvement, and I want no margin for error. I want to be driven to improve myself and work on what it is that has been holding be back.

I think it's time to step it up a notch three or four notches...