Retreat was a total success. I can't be more satisfied with it. There were no disciplinary actions, no behavioral problems, and everyone was on time for everything. I made new friends, fortified old friendships, and reconiled with certain people. I got a lot of closure and inspiration this past weekend. I realized that life is more than my deadlines and appointments. It's about living. I've been taking a lot for granted and I was reminded of how one person can make a difference whether I like it or not. I need to live as best as I can...I am a role model 24/7. It was also the first time I walked through falling snow. There's nothing like nature to make one appreciate a power greater than my finate mind can comprehend.

To be forgotten is worse than death.
To be remembered and loved is worth more you will ever know.

I feel renewed. I am really happy for a change. My problems are gone. I love life because I was reminded that life loves me too. I AM ON MY RETREAT HIGH AND I LOVE IT!

Thank you. I love you. I will never forget you.

I have my dignity again.


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I went to see my brother and Scott today. I really wanted to spend some quality time with the two coolest boys of life. It made me really happy to see Scott. His face lit up looking at me after waking from his nap. My spirit was certainly fortified. The hardest part was leaving the apartment. He chased after me with tears in his eyes. He grabbed my leg and looked up at me. It was obvious he didn't want me to leave. I'm so weak...haha. I stayed a little longer and when I decided to leave again, the same thing happened. It's so hard leaving him. I finally worked the nerve to close the door and Scott just cried his little eyes out. I could hear it from outside. My brother opened the door and Scott waved at me while I walked backwards down the hall waving back the whole time. *sigh*