My straight friends don't know that most of the time I feel ostersized. Don't get me wrong, but maybe sometimes I should steer clear of speaking while we're together. I mean they're funny...I love being around them...

The straight guys brought up a question, "Would you let a guy suck your dick if he paid you $500,000 and the only people who would know would be you and him?" Some considered it. Some didn't. Obviously, the joke was on me..."Shut up, Mark, you'd do it for free." They all laughed. I went with the joke and just bit my tongue on that one. One of them said, "HELL NO. It doesn't matter how much he pays me." A friend responded..."See, he's the only man around here." I can't say that I was pretty offended. If he's the only man around...then what does that make me? Well, apparently there are so many gay jokes around. I've never heard, "So what do you call a straight guy......" Yet another perk to being a controversial character in society. Of course...jokes are jokes...but look at it through my side...

Sometimes I feel like that my manhood/masculinity is cheapened only because I'm gay. I'm still a man. I'm still who I am. It sucks that my masculine nature is dismissed. By the way the are some "men" out there who give all people who have a penis a really bad name.

Understand the nature of man and realize that we're just different.

I wish my bitten tongue hurt more than some words.