Sometimes I get the feeling to just turn and run. I'm not really sure what triggered it. heh. I always think that maybe if I nip it in the bud now, I'll save myself the pain later...another part of me wants to just see if anything unfolds. I have no idea what to think. Are things progressing? I mean if things go any slower, it's gonna go backwards. I'm really stupid when it comes to certain things, but I'm totally torn this time.

Until tonight, I wanted to pursue. Now I'm not so sure. I'm stupid when I like someone. I'm even dumber when I really think they're interested back. Is he? I don't know. Do I want to ask? I don't know. I mean CLEARLY...it's NOT me. I'm the one expressing interest PLUS making the effort to communicate.

I think that's the problem. I need to chill. Fuck it. Two can play this game.

As much as I just want to give up...
Isn't the greatest risk in life...not taking one?

I thought so too.