I know I audio posted about an hour ago...but I thought that maybe my voice was getting somewhat stale. heh...so back to lovely old text I go...

These past few days have been really good to me. Though I didn't win money, I feel like my feelings, emotions, thoughts, and my whole self just got a jumpstart. I feel really refreshed, scared, excited, confused, anxious, and just happy...I know that it seems like my feelings are totally contrasted here, but there was just so much that went on while I wasn't home.

I'm not one to jump to conclusions, but I think that things are looking up right now. I mean, things were either on par or sub par... Now, it seems like just because I left, everything (well...almost everything) has changed for the better. I've been presented with a path and I hope that I don't trip upon taking it. I've been confused and a little saddened by some bad news. I've also been pleasantly surprised with myself in general.

I'm not worried anymore.

I am officially calling off the Seattle trip. That's why I was able to gamble while I was here in Vegas. I'm okay with it. It's also too late to take it back...I don't have enough money anymore and I cancelled the paperwork for the reservations.

I guess it's for the best.

I'm gonna try to sleep now. LOL the sun is up.