This is going to be an interesting 10 days.

Arnell just left for his trip to Maui tonight. I always get sad right before he leaves. I'm such a wuss. I can't help it though. I hate watching him drive away. It's cute how he looks back just to tell me to stop looking like a sad puppy in a doorway. I'm going to miss him, especially on the 10th. That day would be our first year mark. I can't believe that I've been with him that long already. I suppose time flies when you're having fun, right? One year doesn't seem like a long time, but in GAY years, that's marriage status already. ha.

I guess I can keep busy. I have a new job now and I have lots of projects to keep myself occupied. At the end of each day, I'll go to my empty room and wonder what he's up to...and cry myself to sleep...and then the cycle will continue for almost 2 weeks.(Fuck you Peter! hahaha)

He deserves a vacation from work, life, responsibilities, me... It'll be good for him. I know that he wants to spend time with his family and he should.

I can't wait till you get home. You'll be a happier person and so will I.


So kiss me and smile for me
Tell me that you'll wait for me
hold me like you'll never let me go

cuz I'm leaving on a jet plane
dunno when I'll be back again
oh babe, I hate to go.

I think I'm more upset over the fact that things between us are growing and getting better and he had to leave. I don't want the progress to stop.

Beb, I hope you come home safely. I hope you come home with a renewed sense of self and love. I hope that all the things that have been bothering you lately go away and stay in Maui. I hope you love me more than when you left home.

God, I need to stop. I'm crying again. (fucking wuss)

I love you. I miss you already.

ALOHA!