For I Have Sinned

Last night, I hesitantly stepped into a confessional.

Obviously, I'm not going to discuss what I talked about with the priest, but I will however, tell you what I got out of it.

I learned that forgiveness is not in one's feelings, but in the will to do so. I think that I need to let go of things that have been weighing me down. I need to let go of grudges and just forgive others and be forgiven. It's better for me to deal with my life rather than completely dismiss the issues. There are things that make no difference to me. However, I should validate myself by validating others. I need to be less selfish and pray for fortitude to right my wrongs; no matter how small or big.

I also realized that there are things bigger than I am. I need to wake up and be responsible for myself and for those who depend on me. I am a role model to so many people, but I think I need to set an example for myself. I need to set bigger goals.

I need to respect myself, my family, my friends, and those who don't respect me. I realized that I matter to people. Why else would some be irked by my actions (or even lack of actions)? I also cannot expect others to receive me the way I want them to. I'm selfish and I have to be more aware of others.

My advice to to you: Examine yourself. Assess your life.

I have a lot of work to do, but I'm happy that I've been pointed in the right direction.

Calm Waters, Mark... calm waters.