Boiling Points

Is it wrong to feel motivated to beat someone else at their own game? Why would I feel good to outshine someone else? Should it bother me that my main source of motivation is based on the demise of someone else?

...well, not entirely. But, that shit will feel so good when I'm on top.

The last shall be first and the first shall be last. Things don't come so easily to me. I'm willing to work hard for what I want...and I can sleep easier knowing that I didn't take the easy way out. I'm not out there looking for a handout. I'm not well off enough to spend time and money at my own lesiure. Again, if I want something, I'll work my ass off. I can appreciate the meaning of self-reliance and hard work. My brother is an excellent example of that.

I hope that during my break, I can reflect on my own potential. I want to be the one who is clearly on top. I want to be able to look at myself and say, I worked honestly and diligently. I'll display my strength when I'm ready and in the end, I'm not going to use it to intimidate, but to support those who feel weak.

No. I didn't give up.

I just need time to gather myself and for the home stretch.