Uninspired

There is something that has been bothering me this entire winter vacation. I have been thinking about this for a while now. I did not tell anyone about how I felt. I did not want to tell anyone so no one would influence my thoughts.

Tonight, I have decided to take a break from school this semester and resume summer or fall of 2006. The main reason is that I didn't want to ask my parents to pay my way through another semester. I already felt bad that they had to pay my way with vacation money and I definately don't want to put them in a position like that. It's unfair. I don't want to add to the student loans. I want to take just one semester to collect myself. I've been pretty discouraged with school. I plan to pay my own way until I graduate. I want to save money for a new digital camera and computer to prepare myself for my return to school.

I just feel that this will be beneficial to me in the long run. I want to come back motivated to pursue my Graphic Design career since I've been dragging myself to class for the past year and a half.

Don't worry. I'm going to graduate.

I don't think that I will be getting a lot of positive responses here at home for making this kind of decision.

I want to be better than you. In fact, I AM better. I want to surpass your acheivements and show you that I can make it. I want to prove that I'm not what you think I am and that I am more creative than YOU are.

I'm referring to me.

"I am a creative man trying to find himself creatively."
- Emmett [Project Runway Season 2]