Stupid.

That's what I am. Last night, I needed to move to a more comfortable space so I moved the "pending" laundry aside to sleep. I thought I had moved all of his stuff (wallet, phone, work ID, etc) but I don't remember his keys. I was also pretty pissed since Thursdays are my long 10 - 12 hours days at school so I wanted to sleep pronto.

I didn't get my project done since all I ended up doing was look for his keys. He called me "stupid" while we looked. He was right. I am. I sure felt stupid as I tore the room up. I have no idea where his keys are now. He left for work really pissed off and now I don't want to go to school at all... but I have to.

I could still feel his eyes looking down on me in frustration and dissaproval. He's leaving for the weekend to see his sister and I know he won't have a problem leaving me. I don't blame him...after all, I pissed him off.

I seriously hate myself right now. I do so much for him...only to give him more of a headache. I want to burn my room down. I don't want to go to class. I don't care about today. I look like shit today because that's how I feel.

He's gonna hate me when he gets home. I already know it...and I'm gonna have to suffer for at least 10 hours. I hate Thursdays. I HATE TODAY.

I know he's not gonna come home on time. I don't blame him. Who wants to come home to an idiot and a mess?

Fuck. My day hasn't even started and I already want it to end.






Just leave me alone.