34 Days Later

So I haven't seen Arnell in almost 5 weeks. He was supposed to be gone for just a weekend. I miss him like crazy, but our recent fight really got me worried. Absence seriously makes the heart grow fonder.

Part of me thinks I'm just thinking too much...

Part of me is wondering what my future is with him...if any. =(

All of me loves him...

I keep thinking that him and I aren't going to be together much longer because he wants to move back to the bay. I'm certainly not opposed to a long term relationship, but how well would it work after living together for so long?







I hate feeling like shit when I'm supposed to be excited about my graduation Vegas party coming up.

In other news, I have cleaned out my room. There is so much that we don't need here and things just need to be thrown away, donated and reorganized. I hate to say it, but he's the one who has so much stuff that I don't know what to do with. He doesn't even purge mail promptly. I found mail that's 3 years old.

I threw away so much of my stuff that it's not even funny. I have donated a lot of my old clothing or just sent them to the Philippines.

Well, back to cleaning, worrying with a little bit of crying in between.






ugh.