Life Happened

I noticed that I was sounding a bit complainy when I was talking to my friend, Alex. (Who by the way hasn't been in my life lately since high school. However, we managed to find each other at the right times in our respective lives.) Now, don't get me wrong... I'm not complaining at all. It's just that I asked him why all these feelings and thoughts are running rampant in my heart and mind. He simply said, "Mark, life happened. It's like you went through 'life puberty.'"

He's right. I guess it's just me going through some quasi-quarter life crisis...it's me becoming a grown-ass-man.

I find myself connecting with people I should have stayed in touch with a while back. I also find myself connecting with new people who are witnessing my growth. There are a few people in my life right now who has gone beyond the call of being a friend. They may not realize how they have kept me sane (or fed my personal insanity). Honestly, I'm still really weirded out about how my life is so full of positivity. I'm even going to venture into something that will improve my health and physical appearance. But, I'm a little shy to admit what it is right now. Just know that I plan to focus and stay on the track of self-improvement.

I've been learning to live with the changes and improvements that have been coming my way. I'm slowly accepting my position in life. I'm beginning to understand that I am actually as rare as they come. I am a responsible, strong, educated young man who is actually using his degree. I like where I work and the people I work with. I have gained a HUGE respect of self and my ability to be me. I can't have anyone who can't benefit me, right now. I don't have time to deal with dead weight.

Though this evolution, yet relatively short, has been overwhelming. I feel like I'm just slowly walking in the dark with my hands out in front and feeling my way through. I'm fortunate that I have had some people willing to hold my hand right when I need them. I'm definitely not the same person I was a month ago.

In other news, I really think this past weekend has been really great. It started with a Foster's grilled cheese sandwich and an orange Fanta. Then somewhere in between I reconnect with an old friend while having an "awkward" urinal conversation...on tape. Ordered a Tocilog and getting a Tapsilog instead... and now I plan to cap it all off with choir and mass.

Life is good right now.

Holy shit, I really think I'm starting to learn how to fly...





Life is happening. It's really happening. Aren't you fuckin' excited?