Thursday, June 26, 2003
Tuesday, June 24, 2003
Greetings from O'ahu!
I'm just killing time here at my uncle's house here near Ka Uka.
Man, the street names are so hard to remember...let alone pronounce them. I've found one thing that made me happy here. I found that Hawaii shirt that I've been looking for but its 03 instead. Meh, you can't win em all. Besides...it's the year Mark first stepped onto the rich, red soil.
I found out something while in the middle of relaxing...I think it's better to have no real itinerary to worry about and just go with the flow. Luckily, we have family here and that makes this so much easier on all of us. I'm having a great time...I mean sure...there are a lot of sites out here...but I came to relax...not follow another timetable. I left that shit at home anyway, right? We are going to all the good stuff anyway and we have a military twist to it since my uncle is in the Navy...It's really cool to know that the general public can't get into certain places here. Hmmm I can't wait to scope out Pearl Harbor. That's gonna be pretty cool. I need me a healthy tan. I'm so pale that I've been mistaken for ill. How sad.
Well, my uncle's not home yet and the fact that he has a cable modem isn't helping. hahaha. I think I should go and check out my friendster account. Blahrg. I'm addicted.
ALOHA!
I'm just killing time here at my uncle's house here near Ka Uka.
Man, the street names are so hard to remember...let alone pronounce them. I've found one thing that made me happy here. I found that Hawaii shirt that I've been looking for but its 03 instead. Meh, you can't win em all. Besides...it's the year Mark first stepped onto the rich, red soil.
I found out something while in the middle of relaxing...I think it's better to have no real itinerary to worry about and just go with the flow. Luckily, we have family here and that makes this so much easier on all of us. I'm having a great time...I mean sure...there are a lot of sites out here...but I came to relax...not follow another timetable. I left that shit at home anyway, right? We are going to all the good stuff anyway and we have a military twist to it since my uncle is in the Navy...It's really cool to know that the general public can't get into certain places here. Hmmm I can't wait to scope out Pearl Harbor. That's gonna be pretty cool. I need me a healthy tan. I'm so pale that I've been mistaken for ill. How sad.
Well, my uncle's not home yet and the fact that he has a cable modem isn't helping. hahaha. I think I should go and check out my friendster account. Blahrg. I'm addicted.
ALOHA!
Monday, June 23, 2003
Sunday, June 22, 2003
Okay, Sky brought this up with me earlier...
So why do I blog? What's the point to having a journal if people...and God forbid, strangers...read it? Doesn't it defeat the purpose of privacy?
I never really stopped to think about what motivates me to write all this crap...and on the same token...why you people read this. I never really thought that people would actually read this stuff...
Well, first off, I don't give out EVERYTHING on this thing. Sorry folks. Writing is a way for me to express myself and to materialize all the jumbled thoughts in my head. I love to write even though the quality can be pretty mediocre at times. hahaha. Another thing is that I use this blog to indirectly keep in touch with my friends and cousins. They can read this so they can keep up with the goings on in my life. I may not always have something clever to say but I find this blog thereaputic. It's a part of me. It's something I do to keep my routine going. I can't really speak for all of the other people with LJ's, DJ's, or blogs, but those are mainly my reasons.
Anyone else out there with some other reasons why they journal online?
So why do I blog? What's the point to having a journal if people...and God forbid, strangers...read it? Doesn't it defeat the purpose of privacy?
I never really stopped to think about what motivates me to write all this crap...and on the same token...why you people read this. I never really thought that people would actually read this stuff...
Well, first off, I don't give out EVERYTHING on this thing. Sorry folks. Writing is a way for me to express myself and to materialize all the jumbled thoughts in my head. I love to write even though the quality can be pretty mediocre at times. hahaha. Another thing is that I use this blog to indirectly keep in touch with my friends and cousins. They can read this so they can keep up with the goings on in my life. I may not always have something clever to say but I find this blog thereaputic. It's a part of me. It's something I do to keep my routine going. I can't really speak for all of the other people with LJ's, DJ's, or blogs, but those are mainly my reasons.
Anyone else out there with some other reasons why they journal online?
I have never talked to anyone I've met through an online dealie. I always thought it was a bad idea. But with a few precautions I took, I did it anyway. Why? It's all because of friendster. Damn you friendster...*shakes fist in the air*
Anyway, I've met some pretty cool people as of late. Sky and Rafael. I'll admit it feels a little weird to talk to them considering I've never really met them...but with all things, I'm going to leave my guard up. It's not that I don't trust these people... It's just my nature to defend my comfort space.
After talking to Sky...he brought up a very interesting point...but I'll get to it eventually. It's quite thought-provoking. Well, to me anyway...
Anyway, I've met some pretty cool people as of late. Sky and Rafael. I'll admit it feels a little weird to talk to them considering I've never really met them...but with all things, I'm going to leave my guard up. It's not that I don't trust these people... It's just my nature to defend my comfort space.
After talking to Sky...he brought up a very interesting point...but I'll get to it eventually. It's quite thought-provoking. Well, to me anyway...
Thursday, June 19, 2003
Let me take break from friendster for a bit...
The more I think about it, the more I realize it. I had a really good time at the concert. I mean all this crap happened to me...some of it was a result of stupidity on my part. I know that you want to know what I went throug that night, but I don't choose to talk about it. There shouldn't be anything to complain about since I was there. It was exciting knowing that I was lucky enough to have a seat in the same arena as Christina and Justin. They weren't kidding when they said it was the sexiest tour on earth. haha.
Thanks for the ticket Gail!
In other news, I plan for a slight change for Saturday. Don't worry Kris, I'll be there. haha...just a slight change of plans. Kind of unsure if I want to go through with it. heh heh.
The more I think about it, the more I realize it. I had a really good time at the concert. I mean all this crap happened to me...some of it was a result of stupidity on my part. I know that you want to know what I went throug that night, but I don't choose to talk about it. There shouldn't be anything to complain about since I was there. It was exciting knowing that I was lucky enough to have a seat in the same arena as Christina and Justin. They weren't kidding when they said it was the sexiest tour on earth. haha.
Thanks for the ticket Gail!
In other news, I plan for a slight change for Saturday. Don't worry Kris, I'll be there. haha...just a slight change of plans. Kind of unsure if I want to go through with it. heh heh.
Tuesday, June 17, 2003
Get. Over. It.
The only thing that doesn't change in this world is the fact that things change. I'm sure all of us have this fantasyland we all love to escape to and dread the day it collapses. It's human nature to look back when it does. It's normal to feel hurt when our comfort zone is compromised. When we lose something or someone, we feel a part of us is lost. We end up in denial about it and try to solace ourselves by trying to hold tighter to what ever is left. There's no point to keeping something when it cannot provide anything for you. There comes a time where that one swift kick in the ass brings you back to reality and you realize its time to walk away. Dreams are meant to either come true...or die. It doesn't die on its own; reality kills it sometimes. If it dies, we have to let go. Even if we work so hard for a goal that ends up becoming unreachable, it's pointless to move on if it only hurts us. It’s normal to be a hypocrite and sometimes we don't even know when we contradict our own selves.
A friend was telling me, "Why did I do all that stuff before? And for NOTHING!" The thing is: before the situation, things were different. We know some things while not knowing others. Basically the circumstances were different before and obviously would have an impact (or even lack of an impact) in the decision making process. Like in the movie Better Luck Tomorrow, Stephanie said, "We make a decision that leads to another decision and eventually we look back and wonder why we made that choice in the first place." We should let it all run its course. It wasn't all for nothing. Did we not learn anything? Are we not better people after all was said and done? Did it not bring us happiness when all else failed? There's no use for a pretentious source of happiness. Reality is a much harder pill to swallow, but at least it keeps us in check...
The only thing that doesn't change in this world is the fact that things change. I'm sure all of us have this fantasyland we all love to escape to and dread the day it collapses. It's human nature to look back when it does. It's normal to feel hurt when our comfort zone is compromised. When we lose something or someone, we feel a part of us is lost. We end up in denial about it and try to solace ourselves by trying to hold tighter to what ever is left. There's no point to keeping something when it cannot provide anything for you. There comes a time where that one swift kick in the ass brings you back to reality and you realize its time to walk away. Dreams are meant to either come true...or die. It doesn't die on its own; reality kills it sometimes. If it dies, we have to let go. Even if we work so hard for a goal that ends up becoming unreachable, it's pointless to move on if it only hurts us. It’s normal to be a hypocrite and sometimes we don't even know when we contradict our own selves.
A friend was telling me, "Why did I do all that stuff before? And for NOTHING!" The thing is: before the situation, things were different. We know some things while not knowing others. Basically the circumstances were different before and obviously would have an impact (or even lack of an impact) in the decision making process. Like in the movie Better Luck Tomorrow, Stephanie said, "We make a decision that leads to another decision and eventually we look back and wonder why we made that choice in the first place." We should let it all run its course. It wasn't all for nothing. Did we not learn anything? Are we not better people after all was said and done? Did it not bring us happiness when all else failed? There's no use for a pretentious source of happiness. Reality is a much harder pill to swallow, but at least it keeps us in check...
Sunday, June 15, 2003
It's funny how this whole friendster thing takes up my time. I really don't know what's so addicting about it. hahaha. In any case, it's really cool to connect with the people I lost touch with long ago. I don't know if this is just another phase I'm going though or if I'll still be checking up on my profile regularly after summer ends. We'll see where this goes. There's an option on it, but I don't know if I want to utilize it. heh.
Well, my nephew is home for a few days so that will be fun. I'm glad my brother liked the gift I got him...then again, I had no doubts that he wouldn't like it. haha. My bro and Lei did the nicest thing for me today. She called it Godfather's day and she got me a hat. That totally made my day. I love my nephew so much and he's a real lucky little guy to have such a big loving family. *sigh*
I haven't had anything too intelligent to talk about nor have I had an experience that would produce a thought or opinion. I feel like I'm neglecting this blog. meh.
Well, my nephew is home for a few days so that will be fun. I'm glad my brother liked the gift I got him...then again, I had no doubts that he wouldn't like it. haha. My bro and Lei did the nicest thing for me today. She called it Godfather's day and she got me a hat. That totally made my day. I love my nephew so much and he's a real lucky little guy to have such a big loving family. *sigh*
I haven't had anything too intelligent to talk about nor have I had an experience that would produce a thought or opinion. I feel like I'm neglecting this blog. meh.
Friday, June 13, 2003
Random = Interesting....very interesting
I haven't really spent too much time with Kris lately, but it was sure a welcome change of pace. We went here and there and to places he's never seen. haha. Well, I'm just glad that I had someone to be bored with. Rather than moping around at home wondering what would have been. I would have gone to Westwood but I wasn't really up for driving too long. Laziness is kicking in again. ha.
Nonetheless, it's nice to know that I can just hang with Kris without a real destination. We usually spend time playing tennis or at debut practice.
I haven't really spent too much time with Kris lately, but it was sure a welcome change of pace. We went here and there and to places he's never seen. haha. Well, I'm just glad that I had someone to be bored with. Rather than moping around at home wondering what would have been. I would have gone to Westwood but I wasn't really up for driving too long. Laziness is kicking in again. ha.
Nonetheless, it's nice to know that I can just hang with Kris without a real destination. We usually spend time playing tennis or at debut practice.
Thursday, June 12, 2003
Wednesday, June 11, 2003
Monday, June 09, 2003
Well, she's visiting here for a couple of days, but other than that, nothing interesting has been happening as of late.
I was just thinking how I live in LA and, in a sense, take it for granted. There are so many things to do, see, feel, and experience here. Yet, I don't go anywhere unless there are guests here. heh. Then again, outsiders only know of the "overhyped" Los Angeles. I hate to kill the image, but Hollywood doesn't look the same in person as it does on TV. But, on the same token, LA isn't all that ghetto either. You just have to know where to go and how to get here. I have been told that we have a LOT of freeways to take around here. I mean, it takes me 4 freeways just to get to school. But, that's SoCal life...SUCK IT UP.
So why is Mark up at such an early hour?
Matt and Daph got up early to go to Disneyland and I have work at 11. I think I'm just going to go back to sleep. Breakfast got me into a food coma again. haha.
I was just thinking how I live in LA and, in a sense, take it for granted. There are so many things to do, see, feel, and experience here. Yet, I don't go anywhere unless there are guests here. heh. Then again, outsiders only know of the "overhyped" Los Angeles. I hate to kill the image, but Hollywood doesn't look the same in person as it does on TV. But, on the same token, LA isn't all that ghetto either. You just have to know where to go and how to get here. I have been told that we have a LOT of freeways to take around here. I mean, it takes me 4 freeways just to get to school. But, that's SoCal life...SUCK IT UP.
So why is Mark up at such an early hour?
Matt and Daph got up early to go to Disneyland and I have work at 11. I think I'm just going to go back to sleep. Breakfast got me into a food coma again. haha.
Saturday, June 07, 2003
I found Nemo tonight. AWESOME MOVIE!!!
It was a great story about true fatherhood. It reminded me when I was young how I would be totally amazed by my dad and how I wanted to know the things he knew. The movie relates to me because my dad is willing to sacrifice so much just for the good of his son. Also, it reminded me how overbearing I thought he was at one point. All in all, my dad was like Marlin...loving, open-minded, scared to let me go... He would do anything for us. I'm lucky to have a great father like mine.
"You cant promise nothing will happen to him...or NOTHING will happen to him."
"Sometimes you just gotta let go."
"Keep swimming..."
"When I see you, I remember. I'm home."
Plus, I got me a PHAT ASS Nemo toy. It's bigger than my dog! hahaha.
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In other news, I handed in my 2 weeks notice today. *sigh* It's so liberating to quit that job. heh. We'll see where the future takes me...
It was a great story about true fatherhood. It reminded me when I was young how I would be totally amazed by my dad and how I wanted to know the things he knew. The movie relates to me because my dad is willing to sacrifice so much just for the good of his son. Also, it reminded me how overbearing I thought he was at one point. All in all, my dad was like Marlin...loving, open-minded, scared to let me go... He would do anything for us. I'm lucky to have a great father like mine.
"You cant promise nothing will happen to him...or NOTHING will happen to him."
"Sometimes you just gotta let go."
"Keep swimming..."
"When I see you, I remember. I'm home."
Plus, I got me a PHAT ASS Nemo toy. It's bigger than my dog! hahaha.
In other news, I handed in my 2 weeks notice today. *sigh* It's so liberating to quit that job. heh. We'll see where the future takes me...
Friday, June 06, 2003
Yeah, it's Friday 5 day! (I have nothing meaningful to post so I copied my post from here.)
1. What does your first name mean?
Mark (just Mark...no Marcus or anything of the sort) - From the Latin relating to Mars, the god of war, it also translates as "hammer" or "conqueror."
2. What does your middle name mean?
ANDREW - From the Greek for "valiant, courageous." and Ocampo...Not too sure what that translates to.
3. What does your last name mean?
Kaiklian - roughly translated, it's "shortness"
4. So what does your name mean when put together?
a valiant & short hammer?
courageous & short god of war?
valiant conqueror of shortness?
5. Any other name oddities?
I used to hate to be called Marky-Mark. (That's fucking original) Sadly, I had to get over it since people wouldn't shut the fuck up. meh. I would also get called Simon...only because I have an identical twin brother. ha. Also the "ian" in my last name gives an Armenian look to it. So our house gets all of this Armenian mail and people ask me if I'm Armenian, when I clearly look Asian. geebus...
1. What does your first name mean?
Mark (just Mark...no Marcus or anything of the sort) - From the Latin relating to Mars, the god of war, it also translates as "hammer" or "conqueror."
2. What does your middle name mean?
ANDREW - From the Greek for "valiant, courageous." and Ocampo...Not too sure what that translates to.
3. What does your last name mean?
Kaiklian - roughly translated, it's "shortness"
4. So what does your name mean when put together?
a valiant & short hammer?
courageous & short god of war?
valiant conqueror of shortness?
5. Any other name oddities?
I used to hate to be called Marky-Mark. (That's fucking original) Sadly, I had to get over it since people wouldn't shut the fuck up. meh. I would also get called Simon...only because I have an identical twin brother. ha. Also the "ian" in my last name gives an Armenian look to it. So our house gets all of this Armenian mail and people ask me if I'm Armenian, when I clearly look Asian. geebus...
Thursday, June 05, 2003
me: hi gail
Gail: hi mark
me: busy?
Gail: not really
me: oh good i need a quick opinion...
Gail: sup?
me: what do you think of this?
Gail: it's a nice camera
me: good i bought it for you
Gail: what?!
me: well i figured you needed a new camera
me: and my couch can wait
Gail: wow!!!
Gail: you're the best!!!
me: i love you gail...you really do so much for me and i thought that getting that would be the least i can do
Gail: i love you too!!!!
me: it should be on its way soon
Gail: wow!!!
Gail: you didnt have to...
Gail: i was gonna get one anyways...
me: i know i didnt have to...i know you were gonna get one... so yah... heh. i hope you like it. before i went to sleep last night... it dawned on me that i can afford it and i can just be frugal with my money before i leave for hawaii. besides i wanted to get something nice with my tax return. so BAM. there.
me: ok...time to eat. i hope i made your day. what are friends for right? love you gail. =D
Gail: thanks mark!!! i love you right back!!!
It's always better to give than to receive. We went through a lot of crap on Sunday and Gail really does so much for me. I figured this was the least I can do. What are friends for, right?
I LOVE YOU GAIL! =)
Gail: hi mark
me: busy?
Gail: not really
me: oh good i need a quick opinion...
Gail: sup?
me: what do you think of this?
Gail: it's a nice camera
me: good i bought it for you
Gail: what?!
me: well i figured you needed a new camera
me: and my couch can wait
Gail: wow!!!
Gail: you're the best!!!
me: i love you gail...you really do so much for me and i thought that getting that would be the least i can do
Gail: i love you too!!!!
me: it should be on its way soon
Gail: wow!!!
Gail: you didnt have to...
Gail: i was gonna get one anyways...
me: i know i didnt have to...i know you were gonna get one... so yah... heh. i hope you like it. before i went to sleep last night... it dawned on me that i can afford it and i can just be frugal with my money before i leave for hawaii. besides i wanted to get something nice with my tax return. so BAM. there.
me: ok...time to eat. i hope i made your day. what are friends for right? love you gail. =D
Gail: thanks mark!!! i love you right back!!!
It's always better to give than to receive. We went through a lot of crap on Sunday and Gail really does so much for me. I figured this was the least I can do. What are friends for, right?
I LOVE YOU GAIL! =)
Wednesday, June 04, 2003
Black hair. You keep to yourself, but there's a lot
going on inside that head of yours.
What is your true hair color?
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okay...nap time.
I AM: unique
I THINK: too much sometimes.
I KNOW: myself
I WANT: the best of life
I HAVE: the best in life
I WISH: a long and meaningful life
I HATE: ignorance
I MISS: my NorCal family, my nephew, my brother and sister-in-law, the good ol' days, and so many other things and people...
I FEAR: rejection
I HEAR: voices in my head trying to rationalize everything
I SEARCH: for answers
I WONDER: who is thinking of me
I REGRET: nothing
I LOVE: my family
I CARE: for others
I ALWAYS: try my best
I AM NOT: perfect
I DANCE: well
I SING: well
I CRY: about a lot of things
I DO NOT ALWAYS: pray when I should
I FIGHT: for my principles
I WRITE: in my blog
I WIN: the respect of others by respecting them
I LOSE: my patience sometimes
I CONFUSE: a lot of people
I LISTEN: to my heart
I CAN USUALLY BE FOUND: online
I NEED: God
I AM HAPPY ABOUT: who I am
I SHOULD: take a nap
I THINK: too much sometimes.
I KNOW: myself
I WANT: the best of life
I HAVE: the best in life
I WISH: a long and meaningful life
I HATE: ignorance
I MISS: my NorCal family, my nephew, my brother and sister-in-law, the good ol' days, and so many other things and people...
I FEAR: rejection
I HEAR: voices in my head trying to rationalize everything
I SEARCH: for answers
I WONDER: who is thinking of me
I REGRET: nothing
I LOVE: my family
I CARE: for others
I ALWAYS: try my best
I AM NOT: perfect
I DANCE: well
I SING: well
I CRY: about a lot of things
I DO NOT ALWAYS: pray when I should
I FIGHT: for my principles
I WRITE: in my blog
I WIN: the respect of others by respecting them
I LOSE: my patience sometimes
I CONFUSE: a lot of people
I LISTEN: to my heart
I CAN USUALLY BE FOUND: online
I NEED: God
I AM HAPPY ABOUT: who I am
I SHOULD: take a nap
Monday, June 02, 2003
Lots of fun, success, and drama while we were here. That's all I wish to expose...
greatest.
rides.
EVER...
In the process, my keys were stolen along with other things, but Maryanne went far out of her way to help me get my car back. Today, we spent the entire day, getting the keys, the car and starbucks. I made a new close friend today. THANKS SO MUCH MARYANNE & ARIEL! You guys are awesome.
greatest.
rides.
EVER...
In the process, my keys were stolen along with other things, but Maryanne went far out of her way to help me get my car back. Today, we spent the entire day, getting the keys, the car and starbucks. I made a new close friend today. THANKS SO MUCH MARYANNE & ARIEL! You guys are awesome.
Sunday, June 01, 2003
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