Happy 18th BIRTHDAY to Kris!

I wish you the best in life, love, family, and friends. You're a great friend and even better tennis player. ha. Thank you for everything. I'd like to go on and use cliches that everyone's heard before. Kris, just know that you are loved and appreciated. God bless you always.

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I finished cleaning my room now. It's totally clean and impressively tidy. ha! I needed it to be cleaned out so I can have positive energy flow. I've had a great year and I needed a clean slate so I cleaned up.

Everyone stay safe tonight and be sure to live it up. God bless!

So much to say...so little will power to do so.
it's that damn fork in the road...why can't my paths ever be straight...just straight?!
Marlene was able to sum it up for me....

I've had a lot on my mind but there was one thing that really wasn't making sense. There was so much I was thinking about and none of it concerned me. I think I finally realized that I have to look out for myself rather than trying to acheive what may never happen. Although my happiness waned a little bit, I think it was about time for me to just let things they way the are and hope things will fall into place. I've been happy for a while now, so why should I have to compromise that happiness over something that's not even in my control? Results don't happen off the bat. I think that if you have faith then things will make sense. I discovered that prayers are ALWAYS answered. It's not always a yes and it's not always a no. Sometimes it's not even the result I expected but it was the best possible outcome...

I was finally mature enough to put MY own foot down. I admit I'm doubting myself a little but I think that I'll be a better person and a better friend for it.

I can't really explain where all of this is coming from. I don't have the time to tell you. Just know that my life has dramatically changed this year. I've grown up for the better and really made a difference with the relationships around me. I can actually say that I'm happy...the happiest year I've lived so far.

I got what I wanted for Christmas this year...none of it was material. (Okay, the DVD player was nice...) I received what I've asked for. Peace. Love. Happiness. Friends. Health. Family.

I love you Gail and I hope that you have found the comfort you're looking for. I haven't really found mine...yet.

and Ivy...I admire your strength and perserverance. I'm glad that you still have time for Confirmation. If it wasn't for that I don't think that we'd ever be this close. Continue to grow in your faith in yourself and in God. Only good things will come out of it. Kuya loves you a lot.

I really need to change that window, huh?

I fell into a gap and Mr. Urban took my money away.

bad Mark...bad, bad Mark.

The people in Glendale can be ROYALLY fucked up in the head.

Three Armenian guys come in and eat on my table. They weren't bad customers either. I mean they were pretty cool and I would like to think that I gave them pretty good service. As I went to go get their check they decide to run out on it. By the time I get back to the table they were long gone. I wasn't gone for more than 40 seconds. About 20 minutes later, I they're outside pointing at me and mocking me. Those stupid fuckers made eye contact with me and started dancing around laughing. They parked right next to the building. The manager wasn't happy with me last night. Just knowing these dumb shits are going to get what they deserve later, makes me sleep better at night. What would possess a person to walk out on the bill and THEN mock the server they fucked over. I'm telling you...the people in Glendale are very disturbed.

Can't sleep...

Can't think...or maybe thinking too much...

Tennis in 6 hours...Kris is going to kick my ass.

My free night has been reduced to me eating popcorn in front of a TV that's not even cable ready.

great...

Okay, with all that crap said yesterday, let's get down to business.

What did Mark get for Christmas this year?! (cue the cheesy game show music)

1. $105 cash
2. Aeropostale Turtleneck & 2 Lilo & Stitch Lithographs - Sim & Lei
3. Sony DVD Player - Mom & Dad
4. Stitch Bubble Blower - Ned
5. Santa Helper Stitch - Kris
6. Janet Jackson 2003 Calendar & Gap Scarf - Jason
7. "The Gospel According to the Simpsons" & Simpsons 1st Season DVD set - Gail
8. 2002 Stitch Ornament & Gap Scarf and Boxers - Ivy
9. UCLA Beanie - Jay-R
10. Shirt from Hot Topic - Darlene
11. Hurley Shirt - Mike

Thank you to EVERYONE...I had a really great Christmas this year. This is just the stuff that comes to mind at the moment...heh.

I didn't want to have to start Christmas like this, but I felt the need to say something...

It irks me to know that there are people out there who judge people by the mistakes one makes. Obviously everyone has flaws, but the fact that someone else picks at them, makes a person feel insecure. People often agree on what they have seen about someone while never really getting to know the person. Mindless sheep...they can't even think for themselves so they speak and think for others.

People can be so narrow-minded when it comes to viewing people. It's even worse when one thinks he/she has the right to tag others with inapproriate terms merely because they heard it from a not-so-dependable source. Judging people has nothing to do with maturity. It's all about selfishness. It's selfish to assume that someone is subordinate to yourself...the only reason one would think so lowly of another is boost their already failing ego. People can be so consumed in other people's business and really forgets who they are.

I know better than to pick the wounds and flaws of others...It's difficult enough for me to face my own flaws. I have no right to meddle in someone else's life in that manner. No one does. Why not accept the fact that people make mistakes and they can hurt people too?

Everyone makes mistakes. Most mistakes have to occur multiple times just so one can learn from it.

Don't tell her to open her eyes...close yours and reflect on yourself first. Not being able to recognize & embrace their own flaws is the biggest imperfection one can have.

Everyday is so wonderful, then suddenly,
It's hard to breathe
Now and then, I get insecure from all the pain
I'm so ashamed

I am beautiful no matter what they say
Words can't bring me down
I am beautiful in every single way
Yes, words can't bring me down, oh no
So, don't you bring me down today

To all your friends, you're delirious
So consumed in all your doom
Trying hard to fill the emptiness, the pieces gone,
Left the puzzle undone, is that the way it is?

You are beautiful no matter what they say
Words can't bring you down, oh no
'Cause you are beautiful in every single way
Yes, words can't bring you down, oh no
So, don't you bring me down today

No matter what we do
No matter what we say
We're the song inside the tune
Full of beautiful mistakes
And everywhere we go,
The sun will always shine
And tomorrow we might
Awake on the other side

'Cause we are beautiful no matter what they say
Yes, words won't bring us down, no no
We are beautiful in every single way
Yes, words can't bring us down, oh no
So, don't you bring me down today

Don't you bring me down today
Don't you bring me down today


Beautiful by Christina Aguilera...My song for the month of December.

Work was awesome...

Tomorrow is Christmas Eve. OoOoOOh exciting =)

Thanks for a good time Gail! I know I said I wasn't going to drink too much...but whoops! hahaha I had a great time. Thank you so much. I hope you like the new picture of your new brother. hahaha. The holidays are awesome. Thanks for letting us use your house. hee.hee. I'm off to bed I will be getting my car back soon!!! yay me. More to blog later.


GOOOOOOOOOOD NIGHT!

Yay...more CSUN friends! Go Marvie!

Randomness prevails once again. Glenn, Ned and I were supposed to run a muck last night but plans fell through. Then again, I'm kinda glad that we didn't go out (no offense, guys. ha.). Selley called me so I thought that it would be a good idea to see her. Long story short...Vic, Martin, Selley, and ! ended up eating out and having a great time at Denny's. We even went out to have som slurpees. Obviously, the weather wasn't suitable for such a snack, but at least they didn't melt. I'm really glad I was able to spend some time with a few of my RC friends. Our jokes are so inside that other people would just think we're crazy.

I'm looking forward to the rest of the day and night. I woke up early and my parents want to eat out for lunch and tonight there's a little holiday shindig.

Christmas is around the corner. I can't wait. *doing a happy dance*

I'm surprised I have so much energy...I'm surprised I even woke up early on a Sunday!

At Gail's request, I changed the color of my wishlist & shopping progress window.

A bunch of my friends keep telling me that I have an ass...a cute ass. *long pause* I suppose that's a good thing. One even said, "Shiiiiiet, if you got it flaunt it." I'm an ass kinda guy myself...heh. I have no idea why I'm telling you all this but I felt the need to share.

I really wanted to do something fun last night. I couldn't call Kris, he was at a formal. I couldn't call Gail, she was with her girls. I couldn't call Ned, he was out clubbing. I couldn't get a hold of a lot of people, but some of my friends at work wanted to hang. So, I went out with a few co-workers last night. Nothing big...we just hung out at Kamila's friggin mansion and chilled and laughed the night away. It was a totally nice vibe. It wasn't anything big but it was the fun I needed with them. I really had a good time.

Seeing Aiyah really made my day. Today was probably my only REAL day off. I had NO obligations tonight...I didn't even go to Millenium. heh. Anyway, Aiyah couldn't have called at a better time. I had no plans tonight so we hung out and talked like old times. I really missed her. I love you so MUCH! Call me when you're back into town.

I'd like to blog more but it's so friggin cold! I'm going to have something to eat and plop into my warm, dry bed.

Gail, you're right...Christmas Eve is the perfect time to give gifts. ; )

If you want it...come and get it.

I really love my parents but I'm not too sure if I'm even being a good son to them sometimes. I don't feel that I'm doing enough. I've been noticing lately that I have some personal issues with my dad. I love him to death but I feel like he pushes me away. I can't say that I don't push him away sometimes. I feel like I'm only good when he needs something from me. We never really talk since he's working all the time and I'm always out and about. I hate it when he assumes things about me. He says I mess things up because I rush. He doesn't know that. I don't rush all the time. He thinks I'm the one who overreacts but he's the one blowing everything out of proportion. I hate it when he tells me to control myself when I'm just explaining things to him. I tend to distance myself from him since our conversations tend to go towards him thinking that I'm mad at him...or vice versa. I don't know what to think, but I give him his space when he needs it but I can't help but feel that I did something for him to be this way. It's possible I'm just overanalyzing the whole deal. You can't spell analyze without anal...yup, that's me. For some reason I've been feeling a lot closer to my mom. I'm not too sure what's going on but it doesn't change the fact that I love them both so much, but right now it just doesn't feel that way.

I shouldn't have had that Pepsi at Tommy's...

I actually used the internet to get some information for my own self-enrichment. ha. I was looking through the net for some photography tips. I'm not too sure why I've been so interested in taking pictures. I also want to have some people actually be my subjects...just to practice. I even got some great ideas for poses and learned a few basics & principles. I pushed myself to find all of my digital camera crap. Again, I don't know where this drive is coming from.

Well, in other news, the Islands Christmas party was something that's not really worth talking about. Sheesh...don't even get me started.

Oh, I updated my Xmas progress once again...well, for those who care.

I'm connected to the internet and I've been on my "edit your blog" page forever. I don't do anything online anymore. ha. I'm such a loser. Oh well, at least the Simpsons are on. MMmMmMmmMMM... television.

A friend of mine complimented me the other day. She told me that I'm a gentleman...unlike most guys. No one ever tells me that. I guess I'm just like that. I never really thought about it but its not like I like to make people's lives miserable. I know I fuck around a lot but when push comes to shove I try to be as nice as I can to people. You reap what you sow, right? She really made me think about how little things really matter...Thanks for the compliment Tiff.

The weather is just horrible. I hope the rain stops. I'd hate to drive that boat in the rain.

I ended up staying home...again. Who am I to think that people would call me back to go out? I should be used to this by now. Every time I want to go out, no one seems to be interested enough to call me up. I think I'm just going to enjoy this PB & J sandwich...maybe he'll be my friend.

Stupid work cut my hours...

So now, I'm stuck at home while everyone else is having fun. CRAPPER...Someone save me. I've been home since 10.

You know the weirdest feeling?

I hate thinking about someone and you know that they probably don't give a flying fuck about you. I felt a little dissed earier tonight and I had to say something...somewhere.

I can't say what exactly is making me feel that way...because I have no idea. It shouldn't really bother me. I'm bored and alone. Great. Best feeling ever.

There's nothing to worry about my weary readers. I will just get some rest and start off a new day. Today wasn't too bad, after all, I was able to buy stuff for myeslf today. I deserve it don't I? Maybe this weird thought will be dead by morning...

People suck...they're "busy." I'm bored...blah. Won't anyone save me from my monotony?

For those who are actually keeping track, I updated my Christmas progress. I'm just floating along. I only have 3 gifts left.

Oh yeah, I bought a $150 long jacket for $30 from Banana Republic...yay me!

Which Element Represents You?
created by kefkafanatic @ mental insanity

HAPPY 21st BIRTHDAY BOBBY!!!

Actually, it was last night...

A group of us went to Islands to celebrate after our planning meeting. Yeah, I know it was the second night in a row but hey it was his birthday...

Bobby, It's been a while since we met and we really didn't have too good of a start. But after a period of maturing (on both sides) we became good friends. I'm so glad that Monica told you how I felt about our situation. Even though it was in the past, you still came up to me and we had a heart to heart about it. I'll never forget that talk we had at Gail's house over some Coronas. heh heh. Bobby, you're one selfless guy. I guess you can say I grew with you but you've done so much for yourself and even affected so many lives. Thank you for everything. I know that we don't get the chance to hang out a lot but I know that we're still really close. I can trust you with my life.

FINALS ARE OVER!

A few years ago I prayed to be content with my life. I got much more than I deserve from God.

I was thinking a lot last night. It's not that I've been taking my friends for granted, but I just remembered how lucky I am to have them. My friends from ER, SDYM, Islands...from where ever. These past few days, I've been able to lean on them, confide in them, and just plain talk to them. Both new friends and old have really pulled me out of a rut. I am so thankful for each one. They understand me like no one could. They listen to me even if they're sick of hearing it. They laugh at my jokes even when they suck. I feel embraced and accepted by all of them. I feel like I belong...

I said that it was going to be a good and different Christmas. I was right. It's TOTALLY different now; a good different.

Wow, 2 more weeks till Christmas. Time for me to head out...this house is getting way too boring for me.

Which Peanuts Character Are You Quiz

SNOOPY! My favorite...
"Off to bed" said the boy who makes people choke on food.

There are times where my roots are so far below me that I cannot reach them.

These past couple of days I was able to chat with some old friends. When winter break is in full effect that's our chance to catch up. Don't get me wrong, I really enjoy the SDYM-ers' company but I need to see my old high school buds again. Despite our different paths we try to keep in touch.

In other news, Millenium was pretty intense and Nelly and I had some fun tonight.

Hmmm, I think I should deposit my paycheck and spend...It's time to stimulate the economy and my wardrobe. heh.

RANDOM things are always the best. I finally got to spend some time with Kris and I can't say that it wasn't enlightening. heh.

I don't even know if I can go to Millenium tonight. I don't really have a ride tonight and I don't even want to be home. Eo, isn't able to pick me up and I'd hate to ask him to go all the way back from Hollywood just to pick my ass up. Nelly can't go because of her finals. Ned and Glenn aren't picking up their phone. I don't even know if I am able to go see Ron. Damn...I totally need to get out of here. Thanks Nelly...

Kris we need to play some tennis...

HAPPY BIRTHDAY RONNELL!

It's still a trip to me. I can't believe we met about 15 years ago. Despite all of the ups and downs we're still good friends. I thank God that we've been friends this long. I hope that this day reminds you how important you are to so many people...especially me. You better call me when you get back from school. We have a lot to catch up on.

Oh yeah...I fell down the stairs earlier today. o_O;

Good karma continues to flow...

Let me tell you...I was right about the weekend. I knew that after relaxing and having a little fun, I would get back on track. Gail called me after her final and wanted a kasama as usual. hee hee. Our conversations are always great. I love her. =)

I'm going to study but I need to clear my head. My thoughts are still racing after tonight's stimulating conversations.

I owe Ned big time. He really gave me a slap in the face to get my act together. It's been too long. A week of moping isn't really constructive.

I am SOOO close to finishing my Christmas shopping

It's funny how sometimes when you don't get what you want, it's better than what you wanted to begin with.

I can't really explain it but I can tell you that life just got a little easier and brighter. Just being listened to was all I needed. I could have easily talked to anyone else about it but Ned really pulled through. I think I'm ready to take on my finals next week and have some fun after raping each one. Things are finally turning around for me. I always find friends whenever I'm not looking.

Thanks Ned, I think I really needed that reality check. It was fun and enlightening to finally talk to you for once.

A new day.

I had to work a double shift last night. Janet was leaving for NY last friday and it sucks that I haven't covered her shifts lately. So, I decided to help her out. Being at work for 2 shifts wasn't exactly fun, but it was something I had to do. The tips weren't worth it since people were being stingy all day. Sorry Lei. I'm sure the party was super fun. But you and Si know my crappy weekend schedule. =(

I couldn't sleep so I finished cleaning my room & bathroom. For some reason it was pretty theraputic. heh. I went to sleep feeling in control...at 3:30 this morning. The sun was shining bright and inviting me to wake up and start the day. I feel better. The world wants me today. My inner child was grounded for a bit but I think it's time to play today. I need to stay positive and continue to make the most of everything.

I need to go to church today. Not only to sing at choir, but to ask for more strength and patience...and of course to thank God for what I have now even though I've been through an emotional roller coaster this past week.

Yes, Glenn...I've made it through the rain...hahaha

My good luck continues...I got 10% tips all night. I was supposed to walk out with $90 but nope...I walked with a meager $60.

One table really pushed my buttons. Don't ever fuck with a server. They can do quite a bit of damage without actually getting themselves in trouble. (This gets really ugly)

me: "Hey I'll go ahead and getcha started with some drinks..."
the girls give me their drink order
me: "Cool...I'll be back in just a sec with your drinks."
leader bitch: "why?!"
me: "So you can decide what to order. I'll just be a sec."
leader bitch: 'Hurry up then."
brain: "WTF?! Bitch."
five minutes later I bring their drinks
me: "Are you guys all set to order?"
leader bitch: "Uh, No..."
I return 3 minutes later
bitch #2: "We haven't even looked at the menu."
the menus were laid out the whole time.
I return 3 minutes later.
me: "All set?"
still not ready
me: "I'll be back in a bit."
leader bitch: "No don't go. It's not like you have anything better to do."
brain: "fuck you."
me: "I have other tables to take care of."
I leave for another 10 minutes. I finally get their order when I come back.
brain:: "stupid ass customers..."
I decided to wait 15 minutes before putting their order in. They got their food about 30 minutes after they acutally ordered. I took my time.
all 3 bitches: That took forever! How hard is it to make a Chicken Caesar and Cheddar Fries?!"
I refilled each of their drink once

They left me a dollar tip. I've never felt so good! I've never been treated like that before. So if you ever go to a restaurant, treat your server right and you'll have a pleasant meal. Simple, isn't it?

I can fuck up your night. I can fuck up your food. I can delay your food as long as I can. So don't even think I'm not human just because I'm serving your sorry ass some food.

Work was rough. Tips were surprisingly good.

I can't really say that I feel better. I can't say that I felt the same way I did 10 hours ago. I'm taking it one step at a time. It was obvious to my co-workers that I was a bit bothered by something.

I'm just going to continue what I'm doing. I'm just going to pray, shut up and keep on truckin. People are telling me to get over it but you know what? I have to complain and vent about it so it leaves my system. I want to say that tomorrow will be better, but we don't know that. I can just hope...heh.

Tomorrow will be a long day.

Okay, I'm officially bothered. All these little fuck-ups (that aren't my fault) are really getting on my nerves. It's kind of difficult to make the most of everything when everything is just pissing me off. I've completely lost it.

Don't call me about this. Don't offer me advice. Don't try to talk to me about it. Don't even mention the fact that I'm not happy. I don't need anyone reminding me that my life is pretty fucked up right now. I need to recollect myself and I'm having a hard time doing that right now. Let me do it myself. I know what I'm doing. If I need someone I'll let you know. In the meantime. Let me sulk and try to fix things. If I'm around...just humor me.

Maybe I'll be better later. Maybe I'll better tomorrow...or even next week. Just leave me alone about my problems. I'll be fine. I just have a lot on my mind...

If it weren't the holidays, I'd be in worse mood...

At the last minute, I decided not to go to Millenium. I don't know what it was that stopped me from going. I wasn't really in a good mood either. Once I was home I stayed home.

I ended up cleaning my room. Not just cleaning it but really getting all the crap out. There's so much to to finish that I'm still not done. Upon deciding to really clean out my room I found my wallet. Now I can drive legally.

I woke up to a bright sun this morning. I have nothing to look forward to today. I just want to get to work and just start gathering my good karma.

My brother has the coolest job ever!

Let go and let God...okay. Now that He has it. All I can do is sit back, pray and hope for the best possible outcome.

I'm done with my RS 150 paper but I don't think I'll get too much for it. haha. Who cares? It's done and there's nothing I can do about it. Now that I turned in my AAS 350 papers this morning and finished my RS 150 paper. I feel a little better...a little lighter. I prayed in the car all the way here. I prayed in the car on the way to school and the funny thing is when I was finished the lyrics that I heard made me feel a little better. Seven more days to go.

God sends His love...everything will be alright.

I can't believe my wallet just vanished =\

Almost done...........

Well, it's about 8:00am right now and I've been in school for about an hour! I had to see a professor to turn in some requirements for my class. I had to see her at 7:15 this morning. If you don't already know, it's a 30 minute drive to school. Yep I got up early...do the math folks.

I plan on going out after school today to try to improve my mood...this time I need a little bit of Mark and Ned time. I don't know what to think. My world is falling off it's axis but I just got to hang in there. I have so much on my mind...

And about last night, I can't say that I didn't appreciate the company. I guess I wasn't really into the whole vibe last night. Well I just got to put the finishing touches on this paper. As odd as this sounds...Just because I procrastinate doesn't mean I don't know how to budget my time.

School's really getting to me. The fact that my world is giving me grief just makes my life even harder.

Gail and I were the only ones who went to LC tonight. Oddly enough, Ned & Glenn passed by so we asked them to join. I'd like to say I had fun tonight but since I was dwelling on my own shit, I didn't really take advantage of the company. After tomorrow, I think I'll be in better spirits. It's not so much the finals that are getting to me. It's all of the little things that are due. Oh, and all the crap that's been happening isn't really making my life easier either.

I think I should just keep doing this work. blah.

So much on my mind...such a feeble mind at that.

Maybe cleaning my room would give me a sense of control...blah.

I should stop crying inside...I might start to mildew. yuck. soggy mark.

Ay...finals makes life crappy. It sucks that after a "fairytale" weekend, the weight of the world has to crush me. Blah. My car is wrecked! I lost my notes for my final I just had. I might get an incomplete in a class I've actually been actively participating in. Millenium was fun but it didn't really improve my mood too much. Glenn, Ned and I were bored again so we hung out and DL-ed some music videos. Mariah's Through the Rain video is like whoa...and Caroline I DL-ed Cry Me a River when you mentioned it and it was bomb!

*Sigh*

The only way now is up. So, I just got to get through the rest of the semester. Winter break is on the horizon...a whole month of NOTHING!

On the upside...I got my Lilo and Stitch DVD!

Dammit...the karma gods are toying with me again.

I know it might've been weird that I didn't talk about Lei's and my bro's wedding. Out of respect to them I didn't talk about it on this blog. I know that they didn't too many people to know. Now that the secret's out...hee hee. I'm so glad that they have each other. Lei, if you're reading this...there was so much I wanted to tell you at the wedding. You looked so radiant and I'll never forget Simon's reaction when you were given away. I know that things between us weren't always lollipops and ice cream, but I think now things will only get better. I can't wait to be a Godfather...thank you for that honor. I honestly don't feel that I did much for your ceremony and I feel obligated to make it up to the two of you. May God bless you and your family. Now we don't have to pretend that we're brother and sister...

It was a REALLY nice ceremony and one heck of a reception!

Man...I'm so glad they replay Everwood on Sundays. This thanksgiving episode was really good. =*)

Crap... the dog pissed on the bathroom rug. My mom is gonna be pissed...

Eo makes another appearance. I swear I'd love to be in a music video once...


Avril Lavigne - I'm With You

In other news, a lot went on today. My bro and Lei got married today and man it was a great ceremony and reception! I hope that God continues to bless the two of you. Right after the reception we had to run over to Audrey's debut. That was ONE swanky set up. She really raised the bar. Happy 18th Birthday to the girl across the street. =)

As you can probably figure out, I'm pretty burned. There was a lot going on today and it was all one big celebration. Time for bed and a day off with a study group. BLAH...I hate school. Finals are coming up and I have lots to finish.

Another great thanksgiving...

I finally got to see and hang out with my cousins for once. Nothing out of the ordinary happened but it was fun ditching everyone with my cousin Kim to get some boba. We went to Upper House in Cerritos. hee hee. I have so many things that I am thankful for. As much as I want to share it with you, I have school work to take care. Sucky huh? =(

I was just farting around on the net and remembered that Eo told me to see some music videos...

Hmmm...look who I found...


Here's a shot from the new 702 "star" video. Whoo hoo! Go Eo...
is this even legal?

I got the Krusty watch...WHOO HOO! One down and three to go.

Man... people really commented quickly about them watches...

I WANT THOSE SIMPSONS WATCHES FROM BURGER KING!

I don't know why but I started to wrap some gifts. I really love to wrap gifts...I consider it a kind of art. I know I'm waaaay ahead of schedule but I really wanted to try some ideas and see what I can do. Damn...I need more of that cross-dye ribbon...

Martha Stewart eat your home-making heart out.

Well it's exactly a month till Christmas so there's a list for those who think I'm picky.

I went to do some more Christmas shopping again. I didn't realize how much of it was actually done until I got home earlier tonight. I have wrapping paper all set. I went to Wal-Mart for some cheap high quality ribbons too. I forgot that it was sunday and that place was a MADHOUSE. I'm going to take a break from Christmas shopping and I'll save up for the next wave. Hmmm. I think I'll leave my progress on my website with my "wish list."

I'm feeling espeically mushy this year...as opposed to the past years. I'm so raring to get my shopping done so quickly. I keep telling myself that money is not really too much of an issue this year. I'm just loving the Christmas decor everywhere and the music being played all around. I don't know what it is this year, but I'm thinking that this year will be a good one...a different one. I want it to be a different one. (I know I said that already...)

Hey Erwin...if you're reading this...take care. It was nice finally getting to talk to you.

I finally got a cool Saturday night...haha.

After work I decided to join Selle at Union. I haven't seen her since September and I really missed her. I forgot how fun it was when we're together. We had SO much fun clubbing the night away.

HAHAHA.

Guess what I just did?

I don't have anything to lose and there won't be any judges insulting me in a foreign accent. It's not like I'm going to make it.

WHOA... a Tommy's commercial was on! I've never seen one before. Mmmm...that actually sounds good right now.

It's funny, I think the holiday bug bit me in the ass already. I'm unofficially 1/3 done with my Christmas shopping. I'll admit I've also been getting things for myself. heh. But still, at least I'm on turbo drive since I'm a little late.

The media kinda smacked me into the whole secular "vision" of Christmas.

I feel that this one will be a good one...a different one.

I started my Christmas shopping yesterday. To most people, I'm REALLY early, but to my standards, I'm REALLY late. I have at least 30 people and hopefully after this day is over, I'll be at least 33% done with the shopping. It's funny how I have this reputation at work for giving good presents (not always expensive ones...) but good nonetheless. I wonder where that came from. I've only had 2 Christmases with that group. Hmmm...well I guess this year looks like money isn't too big of an issue this year as it was last year.

Confirmation was real good last night. I was very happy with the input I got from the group. I don't really expect much from anyone at this point...I mean, we've only started. I can see a lot of potential in this group this time around. I just hope I can help them utlize their oh-so-expanding potential. I think it's safe to say these students are settling in little by little. It'll get there. It's always weird at the beginning of the year.

Crap, I really ought to get to class. I have five minutes before class starts and the door is about 10 feet away...

I think I'll go Christmas shopping some more on the way home.BTW, for those who were thinking of getting me the Lilo and Stitch DVD. I beat you to it.

His life was like vomit. He poured his life out and it merely spilled all over the floor and no one wanted to mop it up.

Eyes are more than a window to your soul; it gives a reflection of your life. I think your eyes need windex. I don't see my self anywhere.

Wow. I saw Wade Robson tonight. Sorry Glenn. ha.

I cut off all of my hair! It's all gone. I wasn't sure what to do with it. So I rationalized...I figured that if I don't have hair, then I won't have to worry about what to do with it.

FREEDOM! *sigh* I was up all night and this morning trying to get all of my work done. Whoo hoo! I managed to finish a book, work with 2 different presentations and get an extra credit assignment done. I had to skip all of my other classes just to get it done. Procrastination? Damn, skippy! Ha...I guess we work well under pressure, huh? hahaha...

Janet called me this morning to remind me that she loves me. There was something good in her day that reminded her that you have to tell the people that matters the most that you do love them. I love you too! You are one of the few genuine friends that I have.

So I talked to Jason about a particular subject yesterday at lunch. Far be in from me to discuss what our conversation was about but I can tell you this much: It made me one happy homer. Thanks for clearing the air Jason. Puppies rock. =)

Crap... I need a new guestbook.

I can't ever catch a break when it comes to Saturday nights. Once again, the higher powers decided that I should go home. I finally got the chance to go to Union tonight. I was so excited to see some friends that were supposed to join me. But of course...a snafu occured and I went home.

Here's what went down:

I called my friends so they can meet me at the venue. I called multiple times making sure they were okay. I'm assuming they didn't have any signal. I was stuck in DTLA for over an hour. That was probably the longest and scariest hours of my life. I've never felt so vulnerable. Everytime someone would pass by I'd hold my breath and mutter a little prayer. Thankfully, Gail, Paul, and Jay came to my rescue.

I'm so grateful that I have good friends that are here for me when I need someone the most.

Hmmm...Janet just called me. It looks like we're going to have some late night dinner.

Hmmm... lucky day today.

I got to hear from some old friends today. Millenium was espeically fun today. I don't really have anything in particular to talk about. One thing is for sure...


I really like it when I have visitors.
Me, Nelly, Ned, Glenn

hahahahahaha look at the binoculars!

I just finished another midterm for my AAS 350 class. I promised Samantha that I'd study but for some reason, I fell asleep while attempting to do so. I know I should have studied...

The funny thing is that we get out tests back the same day. Before she called my name, I worried about my future in this class. Get this...I got my results and ended up doing better on this midterm than the last one. I stressed myself out studying for the first midterm, but totally coasted on this one. I have NO idea how that happened. I even did better than the people who actually did study.

This semester, there's a corellation of me not studying and passing my classes. Maybe I should NOT study more often...

Well, that's one thing down...3 more to go. Back to class I go...

I always get excited when this happens. It only lasts for a minute but...i dunno. I'm such a doofus.

*and a thank you to Alan for leaving me a comment...sometimes it's the only thing that makes me feel special. hahaha*

I have added 2 more screen names to my buddy list. HA...just when I thought it was safe to clean it up.

Maybe it's just me. I really miss Kris. I haven't really had the chance to talk to him lately. It feels like I'm drifting but I know that we're so busy...school's a BITCH! =(

It's not only him either. I miss so many people. Selle, Aiyah, and Marian are among many. I haven't seen so many people in such a long time. I really need to feel some connection with them; espeically now that school is really bogging me down. I think about so many people in one day. I wonder if they think of me too.

<remember that old simpsons episode?>

AJ, It's your Birthday! Happy Birthday, AJ!

</remember that old simpsons episode?>

Yikes! I deleted over 40 screen names on my buddy list. It's about time I sifted through that people I'd talk to or who would talk to me. I now have a modest 67 screen names now.

I don't usually initiate a conversation via AIM. The cell phone is another story...

off to snack and crash...

Finally, the routine was easy enough for me to grasp. Tonight was fun for once. We did a routine to one of the songs on Justified - Take Me Now. We did a rountine to the first part of its remix. Nelly and I got a pretty good grip on the choreography tonight. I'm feeling real good, but I shouldn't really get too comfortable just yet. I have plenty of projects to finish this week. I have 2 presentations, a paper, and another exam. Doesn't school put a damper on the good stuff? Aye...

"Every time I think of you my heart skips a beat, not because you excited me, but killed me slowly for that one moment."

-anonymous

Another jam-packed weekend...

1) Ate Daph and Matt came over
2) work...
3) Ministry Fair

I got to spend some time with two girls that I really needed to spend some time with. It made the entire weekend worthwhile. Love you Ate Daph... Love you Gail =)

Work really bugged me out, but things evened out. It's a shame that big tips at work aren't really extra credit, but making up for the shitty tips that came before it.

School here I come...blah.

hey..is there one of him...or two?..oh man..now i'm confused!...i can't tell which is which..but i'm pretty sure this is mark!

hahaha thanks for the link LEENIE =)

Well, Matt and Ate just left. Blah. I wish they stayed longer.

Work wasn't really all that fruitful last night. I was surrounded by bad tipping morons. I'd like to get into detail but the weather is making me lazy. I wasn't really in a good mood when I got home last night. I felt pretty segragated from the rest of my friends at work. Obviously, it wasn't their intention to ignore me but...whatever. They didn't really help my mood and maybe I'm just thinking too much. meh...

I have work in about 4 hours...I'm in no mood to go back.

I'm so happy once again. Guess who's next to me?! Ate Daph!!! Well, I skipped Millenium tonight. The routine was the same so I figured that we'd save that class for another night...

More later...there's more important business to take care of. =)

Well lookie here....one of my new students has a blog. The links just keep on commin.

Last night was particularly good...confirmation-wise. My group opened up a little more and my co-leaders are doing a pretty good job. Hmmm, they should be a little more vocal with the group. I've tried dropping opportunites to do so but I guess it's going to take a little time. We still have plenty of time to grow. I was particularly surprised with a couple of my students. I figured out that if these people are not located in the same vicinity then I get more of a response from this person. Obviously there's some sort of "coolness/popularity" issue. As for the group, I've never had a quiet group before...but then again it's only the first few classes. The group is well-behaved nontheless, but I think there's A LOT of potential in this group.

You gotta love what you do...

Well I got out of my class a little early...quizzes tend to do that.

blah...my stomach is being dumb again.

Guess who's commin to town?!

School, nap, Millenium...that's it.

In other news, my sister turned 11 last sunday. Now that she's growing up, I really feel closer to her. I love her so much. I'm hoping the older she gets, the closer we become. heh. Maybe I should really stop considering her a little girl now. It's pretty cool to have someone remind you how fun being a kid is.

Bought Justified today...not really excited. I cheated and got a burned copy before it was released. =)

Blogger is pissing me off! I can't change my gawdamn template...I need to link you.

Stupid Blogger...

I blew out my knee again last night. (x_x)

Yes, Abby...I do remember you.

Ugh...can't sleep...

Work sucked. That's all. Need I say more? I didn't think so.

I really needed that night out. Going to Knott's last night really made up for my craptacular halloween. This year was one of the better ones. We actually got to all but one maze since we got there fairly early AND went after Halloween.

Crap...I have work tonight. *sigh*

I hate Halloween...

So many people treat Halloween as if it was Christmas. After childhood, I haven't really enjoyed halloween. I never really do anything spooky, fun, crazy, or anything of the sort. I haven't had the pleasure of going to a halloween party. I never go trick-or-treating. I haven't really had fun trying to figure out what to be. I can almost bet that no one will call me to do something fun (yet tasteful) on hallowen. It's likely to happen. I hope I end up doing something. I'm tired of doing homework or sitting home alone giving out candy. Frankly, I just want to do something to end this tradition.

Isn't that sad how I don't enjoy halloween?

It's foolish to think that anyone can reason with an angry person. Sometimes you gotta just let them cool down and not say anything.

I'm totally REVVVED up! I actually pulled off the routine tonight. I just realized that it takes me 2 sessions (2 hours) to complete a freaking routine. It was so hard the first time and it felt damn good to actually know what I was doing. I noticed that the instructor saw me give up on that same routine last thursday. I was so embarassed with myself. He wasn't in a good mood and I think my lack of effort didn't help. Tonight, we reinforced the same routine. I noticed that he watched me again when he split us up into groups. I nailed the routine and watched myself keep up with the rest of the pack. I did the final pose and he smiled at me. I think he knows that I'm obviously not one of the best dancers there but hey...I tried my best this time.

ahh the inflated sense of self-worth...what a feeling. ha.

I'm going NUTS over this deconstruction term paper. I have NO idea what to write. I want to talk to Nicole but I'd hate to wake her up. I need some help with this and I think I ought to see Luis and Mitzi tomorrow. I am SO stuck and it would be totally futile to sit here and stare at my computer screen hoping a brain fart would pop out. meh.

DANCE MONKEYS!!! DANCE!
WHOO HOO! GO ANGELS!

Yuck. I smell like smoke and hot dogs.

(GO ANGELS! You gotta admit, it takes 2 great teams to battle it out to the end. At this point, I think both teams are more than worthy to represent this great state.)

Well I guess it was meant for me to NOT do anything fun tonight. I just called for directions to go to a party but it turns out that this person wouldn't give it. That kinda pushed me over the edge. It's frustrating...I'm staying home. How sad is that?

I'm a bit dissapointed in my performance tonight. I wasn't really in the right mindstate. Eric was right though. If I continue to go then I'll get better. But I'm stuck in dance limbo and I loathe that feeling...

Anyway, the day was good to me. It's weird how my mornings are usually the indicator of how the rest of my day will go. The rule of thumb is: the crappier my morning is, the better my day becomes. I was pretty irritated this morning since I didn't really get to sleep in. But in the scheme of things I need to be responsible and take my mom where ever she needs to go. I got home at about 8am and I couldn't get back to sleep. I eventually peeled myself off my bed at about 10am. I have to be on the road by this time to make it to class. I actually left the house at 10:20. Surprisingly, the normal route didn't take as long and I made it to the parking lot in 20 minutes. As I parked the student shuttle didn't leave unti I got inside. I was the last passenger. So, I made it to class on time. The day seemed to go by quickly. I got to my last class and muttered "I hope today is cancelled." I sat restlessly for 15 minutes and it turns out the professor never came. I rushed out of class and gladly skipped home.

I decided to take a quick detour to tower records. I didn't think that Like I Love You would be available since I've been check periodically. Guess what? There was a new shipment waiting for me. So I decided to help myself and took 2 copies. I knew that Glenn was going to want one. Right before I paid I remembered that the new Kelly Rowland CD was out. It was on sale too. I decided to just charge it all and worry about it later. I got home and took a nice long nap before Millenium tonight. Well, as you already know class tonight was a totally separate story...

Today was good. The world has regained its balance.

Guess what I found out I'm doing for new year's!?!?

I'M GOING TO HAWAII!!!!!! =)

(i hope its real this time)

Wow that routine was SO awesome. Too bad I didn't get it. It was SOOO HARD! The instructor was a sub and he was one of Britany Spear's dancers. Yikes! I was pretty discouraged after tonight but that won't stop me from going back. whew...

Don't you hate when you feel confident about something, only to feel really dumb afterwards, after it all goes down?
-Caroline

You said it sister...

I'm waiting for someone before I leave for class. So I thought I'd blog rather than wait next to my window.

I'm pretty pumped about school now. (HA, I never thought I'd say that) I totally didn't study for my Anthropology midterm and got a C! WHOO HOO! I rock! I have no idea how that happened. I kinda feel bad because a friend of mine studied and didn't do so hot. In any case, I think the karma gods are starting to balance my world.

Ewww, something bit me last night. The bite didn't look too good and it started to sting on the way to school. I think it was a spider bite. Hmmm, I wonder if it was radioactive...

I have the day off on Saturday. I kinda want to stop by the friendship games before the Fiesta. Honestly the Fiesta would be a more meaningful use of my time. heh.

Okay, so I didn't do anything particularly exciting today. I guess it's best that I didn't. heh. Oh, well.

The weekend passed me by but I'm not complaining. I don't really want to go to school tomorrow but I know that it'd be good for me. Stupid school...=\

One of Erwin's friends keeps IM-ing me telling me I'm hot. Don't these people have anything better to do than bug me for stupid reasons? It's annoying when people just IM me like that. Well, I guess I should get back to my book.

Here's a good piece of useless trivia about my new layout.

So where are these pictures from?
1. The Islington subway stop in Toronto
2. A tunnel on the 110 freeway right before the 5.
3. Downtown SF
4. The Metreon in SF
5. Arco Station on Eagle Rock Blvd.
6. The LG tower on Younge Street in Toronto
7. El Capitan in Hollywood

All of these pictures were taken during various events in my life. I thought that it would be cool to use random shots that I take. I mean I'm no photographer but it's fun to take a lot of digital pictures.

bring that to the water cooler...

I'm done redecorating.

YOU LIKE? =)

I wanted something simple. I really liked the other one but I needed some change.

I think I'm going to work on a new layout. =)

The end of another week...

Maybe it was just me, but the week seemed to zoom by. I'm so glad that midterms are done and I finally have some to time to just spend some time to catch up on the little things. I was reading the Youth Ministry Forum and it seems like a few of the new students are taking advantage of what we have to offer.

In other news, I finally got the chance to catch up with Selle. I haven't talked to her in such a long time. I seriously need to get my ass to UCLA and LMU. I haven't seen Ron for a long time. I'm way overdue for seeing some of my closest friends. *sigh* my feet hurt...

I think I can just relax and have a little fun (and maybe some shopping) tomorrow. =)

OMG...I think there was a drive-by right outside. I heard 6 shots.

First off...HI KELLY! =)

Yet another interesting night at work...

I totally forgot that it was an LA holiday today. It was stupid customer day. Okay, these little situations are in no particular order. ANYWAY, there were at least 5 different incidents tonight that I thought were blogworthy.

1) On my break, these two morons decide to eat and order at the bar and leave for 30 minutes, abandoning their food. Keep in mind they didn't tell anyone. Another co-worker was witnessing the whole deal. So they come back and they were wondering where their food went. They end up yelling at the host who had NOTHING to do with the food. They claimed that they were gone for 10 minutes and that they told someone that they'd be back. Come on, we're not stupid.

2) Apparently the word "regular" does not exist in one guy's vocabulary. Over 99.9% of the time the phrase "with everything on it" means EVERYTHING. The guy orders "nachos with everything on it, but no chicken, chilli, guacamole, and beans." I reply, "so that means you want regular nachos?" "No. no. I want everything on it." (I'm sure you can tell where this intelligent conversation went...) That same table said that there was a birthday on the table. "Hi. ummm...we don't have any money but it's her birthday and if you could bring us a Kona Pie for free? Thanks." First off, if you were going to ask for it...make you "go to the bathroom" longer than 20 seconds. Second, you never tell a server that you have no money. It was brilliant I tell you...brilliant.

3) Another cleaver party thinks that a long light colored hair in the chips will mean it's free. The cooks are all Mexican males with black hair. Their server WATCHED them put the hair in. She ate all of her food and THEN complained that there was a problem. What was she on? Did she really think that we're that dumb? Since that bitch was being such a crybaby about it we had to comp it.

4) Towards the end of the night, a couple comes in. The guy orders a virgin Pina Colada while his not-so-lovely girl orders an alcoholic one. Her server asks for ID. Clearly, if one was over 21, and were asked for an ID one would be pretty pleased. NO...not this drama queen. "Can't you tell I'm 21?!" she exclaims. Her server then says, "It's the law. I just need to see some ID." Her boyfriend then suggests "I'll order it." Their server knew that he'd give it to her and told him no. "You have to give it to me, because I'm ordering it." Their server went on to explain that a move like that can get her fired. So, not only is there a drama queen on the table, her king gets all bitchy about it too. They ended up leaving. Are they serious? If you can't prove you're 21, then we can't serve you a drink. And don't be surprised if you're asked for an ID maybe you just look that young.

5) This is the best one. I had a table that was higher than gas prices. You could smell the weed and every eye on that table was bloodshot. One of the stoners asked for a green apple. She downed that sucker and ordered a pina colada. It took 3 credit cards to pay for their food and a 5% tip. Thanks a lot you brain-fried losers...with the money you all saved you can all buy a clue.

Some people should never leave their house. Some people should really learn some manners. Some people should know how to treat other people with respect. Some people are just hopeless.

i blogged an entry but the pop-ups fucked up the program. so here's the abridged version >=\

1) another tough night at Millenium - Why Don't We Fall in Love by Amerie
2) trying to clean up now that midterms are over. car is SUPER clean!
3) felt a little off whack since I didn't really talk to anyone tonight
4) needs some late night din din

bye.

meh...off to Religious Studies class.

The storms have passed and I'm continuing with my smooth sailing. I can't thank my friends enough for hearing me out and giving me such good, honest advice. I couldn't ask for a better group to be with in the middle of a (minor) car accident. I wish I had the time to describe what I ended up doing last Tuesday night. I had a blast.

Thanks Gail for your listening ear...and the cookies. I really appreciate your friendship. Confirmation was great last night and I got to meet a lot of the new students. It looks like there's a lot of potential out there.

My midterms are over but my days sure isn't...

MAN, THE KARMA GODS OWE ME BIG!

"Leavin' old shit behind and move on with my life. The blindfold's off my eyes. Now all I see for me is better days."
-Better Days by Janet Jackson

I found something out and I feel like I should have never known about it. I can't even recall the last time I've felt this hurt. Don't ask me about it. There's nothing to discuss.

"...no one has the power to hurt you like your friends."
-india.arie

smretdim era gnillik em!

gotta get through this week....=\

stupid DSL...well i got it working again.

i am a genius.

I'll change the currents later.

ZZZZZZ......

FRIEND: i'll talk to you later
FRIEND: thanx for everything
FRIEND: for being like my big bro.
FRIEND: it's pretty kool
ME: heh yah..n/p
ME: i get that a lot from people...

I'm totally a big softie.

I can't stand being taken for granted. In this particular case, a friend of mine wasn't really in his right mind. No...nothing illegal. Just forgot to consider my feelings and the feelings of the people in my car. I'm not really vocal when I'm upset with someone, but for the sake of the group I had to vent it out. I owe it to people to let them know how I feel. I want to communicate my feelings since I tend to be passive. I usually brush things off and just forget about whatever was bugging me. Unfortunately, the circumstances didn't really give me much to work with. So, I had to let go somehow. I'm a nice guy but don't push my buttons...I have feelings too.

Tonight was my first time at Millenium. GOOD LORD! The routine was so hard! I hope that I can regurgetate that routine. HA! I can't wait to go back.

Oh, a special thanks to Eo for getting me in. You really didn't have to. CONGRATS ON THE 702 Video!

quote for the moment:

"Computer games don't affect kids. I mean if Pac Man had affected us as kids, now we'd all be running around in darkened rooms, bumping into people, munching pills and listening to repetitive electronic music."

-unknown

something to lighten the mood:

My friend got a voicemail message on her phone the other night. Her friend sounded like she was crying. It turns out that she was having sex and accidentally auto-dialed her. The funny thing is that she stood my friend up. Now we knew why...

Most people who come and eat in restaurants are pretty selfish. Let me explain. The computers went down for about 20 minutes which had me going in circles trying to get things done. I informed all of my tables about the situation and didn't seem to care. I mean, after all, I'm not human to them. I had to recap all of the checks, add them each up by hand, add the tax. Mind you I did this 5 times and being a server, I don't get much time alotted nor any compassion from customers. Most people don't realize how much work goes into serving a table. I have to be so fucking nice to people that will forget who I am before they walk out the door.

These people sit down and act like they're the only damn table in the restaurant. In fact, I have 5 different tables going at five different rates. On each table I do the following:

1. greet the table (drink order)
2. no more than 2 minutes to deliver the drinks
3. take the order
4. check the order
5. check the drinks
6. deliver the appetizers (if it applies)
7. refill the drinks
8. entrees should be on the table within 6-10 minutes
9. check the table if things are on par
10. drop the check
11. immediately deliver change or proper slips back

There are also a lot of other stuff in between but let's not get into technicalities.

My point is...
My job is to serve people with the best of my abitility and circumstances. I can, however, refuse the right to serve but how often do you see that happening? For the most part, I'm not really treated with any respect. As far as the customer is concerned, I am a fucking robot. I have no feelings and I have no other people to be serving. I am supposed to be perfect in every way. If something goes wrong behind the scenes. They don't care. Even if my service was exceptional, the clientele don't tip accordingly. Servers are people too so you should treat them as such. Most likely you don't know what the game is like, and if you do then open your eyes...

I hate it when people tell me that they tip bad when the service is bad. Doesn't that seem a little one-sided? People often wonder why I insist on tipping at least 15% when I go out to eat...even if the service was horrid. Think about it folks. If they're service was like that all the time, they wouldn't have that job. Everyone knows that they can have their off days. Even if they forget something...dig a little deeper. You never know if that server just went through a lot before getting to you and your party.

Oh and by the way...tips aren't exactly extra credit. Most of it is taken out of our paychecks. Think about how much better (or worse) you have it when you go out to eat. There's nothing in the book that says that you shouldn't tip more than 15%.

SERVERS ARE PEOPLE TOO. I'm tired of not being treated like a person with feelings and concerns. Walk a mile in my uncomfortable, non-slip, ranch stained shoes and tell me my job is easy.

I may not be the perfect server, but I have my dignity. Sometimes that's the only thing I have at the end of the night.

I'm such a tool.

I studied for a midterm that wasn't today. hahaha. I was totally prepared to take my AAS 350 midterm today but it turned out that it's scheduled next week. Doesn't stuff like this only happen on TV? =\

I got my sunglasses in the mail! yay me.

I don't know what posessed me to do this but I added a link that's more in depth about me.

the idiot's guide to me

Before I went to sleep last night, I couldn't help but think of Aiyah. I remembered our little antics in high school. I remembered how she made that experience more bearable. I remembered our notebook we passed back and forth to each other. I remembered how weird it was when we were angry with each other. I remembered Concert Choir. I remembered the snow globe. I remembered Geometry class and being the "Animaniacs." I remembered...her.

I know this is kind of random but isn't this a place for me to place my thoughts?

If you're reading this...I really miss you and hope that you are doing well.

It's funny how the finer things in life manage to make me realize that life isn't so bad. I was telling a friend of mine earlier, "I'm pretty fortunate to have a problem like this...some people aren't so well off." (refer to the problem in the post below). I got to hang out with the SDYMers a little bit today. I was supposed to go to church but I fell asleep and woke up about 90 minutes ago.

The clouds are gone and sun isn't being so harsh. Life isn't so bad...heh.

Oh, thank you Ate Daph for your kind words. I dunno how I'll get those pics to you but I'll find a way. I haven't cleared my memory card for my camera. =)

My car window is messed up. The only reason that I can think of is that some fucker tried slim jim their way into my car last night. What makes it even worse is that it's raining tonight and I wasn't able to close the window all the way. UGH! I hope that this doesn't cost much to fix. I swear, there's some dumbass who's on this street messing with the residents' cars. That totally ruined my postive vibes.

On the up side, I got to see some people whom I haven't seen since my trip to Toronto I didn't really get to really have fun with them since work was looming over my head. I was only able to sit with them for 30 minutes but I didn't really feel the vibes with them. It wasn't long enough to marinate with the group.

meh...I had a pretty mediocre night. Tips were good though, but I'm still pretty irked.

Work was unusually slow last night, but the tips were really good. Usually, at about 9:30 I'm most likely running my ass all around trying to get to all of my tables. Not this time. I had NO tables at 9:30 last night. All my tables were clean and unoccupied. How sad...

Anyway, I'm tired of getting those cheap sunglasses from those little kiosks in the mall. I've gone through so many of those, Besides, I've always wanted to get myself a pair of expensive glasses.

Gah...I have so much school crap to catch up on. Heh, I shouldn't be surprised, I had my fun last weekend so I guess Mark's world had to balance out somehow.

I decided to change the commenting system since YACCS was being stupid.

I'm so sore from tennis yesterday...

I also found out that the vinyl single of Like I Love You is out. Not the cd-single...that's still on October 14th.

...boo.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY GRACE! KUYA LOVES YOU!

Okay, so I've been home for a little while now. I just needed some time to settle into my life. I had a great time up North and seriously want to trip up there. I was telling them that the only reason why I go up there is because there's some sort of event going on. Just once, I'd like to go up there for a long time and just have fun; just being there for the sake of being there. There were a few snafus here and there but then again the whole trip can't be perfect, can it? I needed that trip. I didn't want to go home at all. =\

I also got to meet some other bloggers while I was there. Besides my oh-so-cool cousin, Jay, I met Nate, Firl, Mike, and Maria. It was weird meeting them since we all blog...haha. In any case, it was fun just hanging out and getting to meet them.



Maybe I should get back to my homework...

I just found out that this DVD

will be coming out 12/3/02!

I thought that I'd use this extra time to catch myself up on a few things...

I've been a BAAAAD boy...hahaha. I wanted my birtday buzz to last a little longer so I ditched half of my day at school. hee hee. I've been doing pretty well so far but I'm sure that this is going to slow my progress.

Speaking of my birthday, this year was totally up there. I got to see the Lion King musical with Selle and let me tell you, if you haven't seen it yet, you haven't seen broadway at its best. The first five minutes got my jaw on the floor. Despite a loud, annoying little girl asking loud, annoying little questions to her parents; the show was totally worth its weight in gold. After the show Selle and I went to Hollywood and Vine Diner. We managed to convince the server that it was our birthdays and we each got something nice. =) Needless to say, I tipped him well even though the order was a little messed up. Selle and I stopped by to visit some friends on the way home. Victor treated me out to a slurpee in the wee hours of the morning as we stopped by Martin's house to "talk and dance about bendy" (haha don't ask).

In other news...
It looks like my old friend Daniel is going to be working with us. It's also about time that I got to hang out with Glenn...even though he has a "tendancy to kill things." (again...don't ask) Next time we should PLAN something but just being bored together is alright. haha.

I'd blog a little but give me a little time. heh as if I really need anyone's validation to write anything. In any case when I have the time I'll blog...

HAPPY BIRFDAY TO ME!

I think that speaks for itself.

For a long time, I've been looking for this particular shirt with the number 82 on it. I've seen these types of shirts in vintage stores and in Melrose but I'VE FOUND EVERY OTHER FREAKING YEAR BESIDES 82! It bugs me. I mean, I would have purchased this shirt but the seller doesn't have my size. Will I ever find that shirt and in my size? *sigh* one can only hope.

Oh and Kris...thanks for IM-ing me...I felt pretty lonely most the day. I know it's not much but it kinda eased the day a little.

I feel like something is wrong in my world. My intuition is nagging me. I know that it has nothing to do with the fact that today is the 11th but I feel like that something totally off center. I was lacking something today. I was thinking that it might be attention. I felt ignored by a lot of people but then again I really talked to a lot of people today too. I just feel out of it. ERGH! I hate this feeling.

I know that I haven't really been blogging much lately. I guess I've been actually doing things for school for a chnage. Since I'm on the topic, school has been good to me so far. Other than that, there' s not really much to mention.

In other news, I've been bombarded with requests from friends and coworkers to join them at Millenium Dance Complex. For those who don't know, this studio is meant for the elite. This is the dance studio where today's stars practice and train at. Who? Just a few small names I guess...*Nsync, Britney Spears, Destiny's Child, Janet Jackson... I'd love to go but do I have what it takes to keep up? I hope so...

Leave a comment...make me feel wanted and needed today.

Ahh, the rain is a welcome change from that crappy heat. It's still warm but the light rain and steady breeze makes the outdoors a smidge more pleasant. I'm actually waiting for Charlene to call so I can see her...hopefully. She's here for a FASA meeting and she thought that she'd come a little early to try to see me.

Geez, the whole world is making such a fuss about American Idol. My RS 150 professor went on and on about it in the middle of her freaking lecture. I'm not hating on the talent but I wasn't really into the show. I mean I'd go to Kelly's concerts and buy her CD's. I've gotta hand it to her...She's damn talented. But if you ask me...the show is SO over rated...and NO I'm not going to apologize to you for saying that. hahaha. You know I lub you...haha

Anyway, school wasn't really worth talking about so I guess I'll surf around some more.

...wow i blogged a lot today.

Here's a video of the 2002 Saint Dominic's Confirmation Leadership Retreat. (thanks Randy!)

Hey, we work hard so we play hard! Needless to say this last retreat wasn't all play. heh. Try to see how many times you see me in the clip! hahaha

I think this next group is ready to change some lives...

**if you don't have high speed internet you will not be able to view the video well...also feel free to see the other SDYM adventures.

Awww geez...Gail left for the Philippines. I miss her already.

Wow, I just got off the phone with a good old friend. It's weird how one phone call can really remind you that there are a lot of people out there that think about you. I hope I see her tomorrow. Hey Gail & Kris, wasn't I right when I said that you make really good friends at Saint D's?

Char, it's been way too long. I look forward to seeing you!

Should I delete my comments? Are they even useful?

Okay, so the air conditioning broke down at work yesterday. It was way too hot considering the fact that the restaurant was full of labor day observers. It was one long...seering shift.

Anyway, last night Selle, Martin, Vic, and I went out to celebrate Selle's birthday. We took her out to BJ's but our server was a little off the mark. We weren't angered by it. In fact it was really nice of her to give us 2 free pizookies instead of one and comped our appetizers. We still left her a fatty tip. After stuffing our faces we went to Caltech and played some late night tennis...well...some of us attempted to. haha I had a lot of fun with those guys. It's kind of scary how much Simpsons trivia we know between the 4 of us. Happy 8+11 birthday, Selle!

I'll change the currents and my window of destiny later...

I will never step foot into Villa Sombrero again. I walk in and I thought that it would be a great place to eat. So we sat down and the waiter asked us what we wanted to drink. The waiter then asked if I had a shirt. I was wearing a blue tank since it was about 100 degrees at the time. The tank didn't even look like an undershirt. "No." I promptly responded. He gave us a nervous chuckle and asked us if we wanted to eat out on their patio. "NO. It's way too hot out." He left and didn't come back for about 5 minutes and said, "I'm sorry. We can't find a shirt for you." I'm like WTF? Does this guy really expect me to wear their stupid ass shirt just to eat at this shitty restaurant? I rolled my eyes and we left.

I was pissed. I mean, come on...This place wasn't even a swanky place to begin with. I also didn't see a sign concerning attire. FUCK THAT PLACE. I'm not going there again. It's stupid... There are no other places that would consider what I was wearing unworthy of service. What's even worse is that they really thought that I was willing to wear one of their shirts over. They aren't worth the trouble. Fuck them. Was it racial? Could've been, but I'm pretty sure it wasn't.

That's the first time that happened to me. Ludacris I tell you....just ludacris.

Shit...I totally forgot about going to Selle's house. I could have done that instead. Damn, I'm such an idiot.

Obviously, I don't feel much better after remembering that.

Great...I was actually done with work BEFORE 10 tonight. I thought that I was actually going to get to go out and actually have a life. I hate it when people lag. I was totally ready to out and have even a little bit of fun.

Why so pissy about it Mark? There'll be other Saturday nights...

Acutally, I seldom get a chance to be able to have some fun on a Saturday night. I never get out early enough to get to go out. I don't even have time during the rest of the week since I have so many obligations to take care of. Hey, I'm not angry with the people that were involved. (Got that, Glenn? I'm not mad at you...so don't be so sorry. What could we do?) I'm just upset with the situation. I mean it's okay when people lag...It's not like I wasn't doing it myself. It just sucks that I let the opportunity pass by.

It still bugs me that I don't know who to take with me...I mean, it's like Lion King Survivor. Selle, I think I'm going to ask you next. *sigh*

WHAT'S WITH ALL THE NEGATIVE KARMA?! ugh...

Great.

Carlos cancelled on me too. I don't even know if I even want to go to the show anymore.

I miss you too, love...

For the whole weekend, I felt that I wasn't getting much from the Leadership retreat. It wasn't until Saturday night I had so much to gain. I never thought I had so much pent up shit inside me. There were issues with myself, my friends and with my dedication. I really heard what I needed to hear. I never thought that I was making an impact on others just by being myself. I am humbled by people's kind words. Hmmm...it's weird how weeping deliriously can lighten your heart and soul.

I was so mad at you. Yet, I came to you and you forgave me for being angry, but you didn't know. You had no idea how you hurt me, but I forgave you for doing so.

Thank you. I love you...

I guess some things are better left unsaid...

I totally forgot to mention that I had a bomb-diggity time with Aiyah and Nicole the other day. It's not everyday we can hang out and have some fun. I guess picking up the check is the least I can do for some friends I haven't seen for a while. Bowling was fun, but I'm not sure how my score was just as good as my day. hee hee. I hope we can do that again soon.

In other news, I'm corrupting another mind. My good buddy Carlos skipped a class in his first week of his first year in college. I didn't tell him too. I was just an accessory to his hookie madness. We had some fun despite a few bugs in his devious plans. Today was fun...

Hey, I gotta get packing for the retreat. I need to look through my stuff and we're all set. I think we both can use some time to reflect and clear the air, right V?

I know I haven't been up for a while. But I think this time I thought that I had something worth saying. It's odd how this whole blog thing works...My mindstate is always different when I try to get my thoughts out. I think the other day I was totally off my rocker. I did so many things that was totally uncharacteristic of me. I'm sorry for jumping to conclusions. I'm sorry for being so wrapped up in my own shit that I didn't think twice about doing something about it. It's always hard to ram antlers with the people you love, but it only makes a bond stronger. Honesty is just as hard to give as it is to receive. I seriously deserved that reality check.

I love you. Thank you for being real with me and taking the step to confront me about it. I think we cleared the air a little bit but we still need to be on the same page.

I think we both need a little guidance.

I added a couple of things on my list... heh

I don't really have time to let you in on what's up. I have so much to do.

My birthday is a month from today. wowie...

Insomnia is getting the best of me again...

I know I told you that I was going to sleep. The fact is I went right back to my computer and decided to blog. I thought it might make me sleepy.

First off I'm sad that you can't come with me. It's alright though...I suppose it wasn't meant to be.

Anyway, I thought that I'd get my a wish list out for my birthday. I'm pretty sure that I'm putting this list out in vain. I hate it when people want to get something for me and my fixed (AND HONEST) answer of "you don't need to get me anything" doesn't fly. Hopefully the list can give a vague idea of what I want and need. I was talking to RJ and he told me to enjoy being 20. I'm sure I will. I mean, I had some fun being 19, but this is the last month (and a day) of my teenage era; an interesting and unecessary notion. Anyway, I noticed my list is quite expensive...

I don't really make a big deal about my birthday. It's not that I don't care about living another year. It just seems to take forever to come. I don't really mind if people forget. I don't hope that people will give me something for my birthday. It's obviously not an ordinary day, but it's not like it's a national holiday either. I don't expect anything...

In other news, Gah-ree got me to go to AE because he works there and gave me a coupon for 20% off. Dammit! I ended up spending $70. It's okay though...It's for a good friend and his new job. I guess I needed new cargo shorts anyway.

I hate bills...my credit card bill and cell phone bill came at the same time...


...petch.

Okay, so my problem is solved now...don't mind the other crap that says otherwise.

I'm off to dinner with Janet. Happy Birthday! =)

I have found myself in an interesting position. It's nothing drastic. I have a decision to make...

MORE ON MY PERIL LATER...

18.75 %

My weblog owns 18.75 % of me.
Does your weblog own you?

I can't stand it! I haven't really gone out for the past couple of days. I need to go out with someone. I haven't seen anyone for a while and I haven't gotten any calls to go out. =(

I have to go to work tonight. *gasp* *sigh*

Did I ever tell you how much I LOVE this target that just opened up near my house?!

Okay, the other day, another interesting customer comes into ISLANDS to eat. For the sake of storytelling, we'll call her Arma. Anyway, she comes in and is a total bitch to her server. After her meal, she leaves a big mess with her friends (who are just as bad, if not worse) and leaves a pathetic tip. Okay, so why is this story so worth telling? **C'mon Mark, you have these customers come in all the time...** Here's the kicker: Arma asks her server for an application to work with us. (It gets better.) At the bottom there is a question that applicants have to fill out. What sort of skills or experiences can you bring to Islands? Her answer was "excellent customer service." WTF?! So her server hands the app to our manager and we tell her this whole story. We all read her response the question and our manager rips it in half and says, "Maybe she needs to learn how to be a good customer first before she works here."

That made my day...

God bless you Chick Hearn. You have been a Los Angeles icon and the voice of the Lakers before my very existence. Whoever is going to take over will never be able to fill his shoes. *sigh*

Francis Dale "Chick" Hearn
"The Golden Throat"
(1916 - 2002)

For the record, that one blog that I went psycho-babble on was an isolated incident. I don't analyze everyone's blog. It was just fun at the time and Kris was lucky enough to get a "free reading." haha

there are so many people who shouldn't have blogs...right Kris? haha

Instead of going on and on about all the physical aspects of my trip to Toronto, I thought that I'd let you know what I got out of it.

Whether positive or negative, family is always a big part of everyone's lives. I figured out what it takes to be a part of one. When the thirty-three of us landed in Toronto, we were separate but together. I never thought what we would have to go through just to make it through 10 days. All of us came from different families and had different ideas of community. The first few days were kind of trying and it was hard to breakdown our walls. It took a lot of communicating and a lot of pain had to be experienced. Although we had exchanged thoughts, it wasn't difficult for all of us to come closer together. I prayed for an angel to come down and help us start our "bonding." My prayers were answered. Tracy was the angel I prayed for. It was her birthday and right before our catechesis session, the song leaders invited her to come up on stage for everyone to sing for her. Not only did we sing for her, we all got up and straight cheered for her. Just seeing everyone celebrating for her made me realize that our differences in opinion made didn't matter anymore. The Saint Dominic Youth Ministry family was a beginning to strengthen. The first lecture was about family...Forget About Me, I Love You.

The next test came in the form of controlling a crowd. We waited for a few hours to be able to get a good glimpse of the Pope. The guys in the group had to make sure that the girls weren't harmed by some mischevious destructive little woman. Despite everyone's tempers being provoked, we were all able to get a good look at the Pope. We all ended up laughing about our problem rather than dwelling on it.

The event that sealed our fate was the final weekend. The final weekend consisted of a campout in Downsview Park. The first night was a night vigil and there would be a Papal Mass the following morning. The event looked like a holy version of woodstock. There were "squatters" building makeshift shelters and there were 3 cities of portable toilets. The weather wasn't something to be reckoned with. Within 3 hours it could be inbelievably hot and then a storm would hover over us. Anyway, it started to pour around 630 on sunday morning. It subsided for an hour or two but there was a sudden downpour and a fierce wind whipping through the park. Our boys (who so happen to be boy scouts) made a tent for 4 people. After about 20 minutes they decided to give in to the needs of the group rather than their own. They ended up making that improvised tent able to fit about 25 people. Everyone did their part to make sure that everyone else was taken care of. Everyone was so selfless. THAT WAS FAMILY: putting your needs aside to serve the others who are needy as well. Basically.....SACRIFICE.

I thought that I had lost my own sense community. I was so bent on making sure that everyone else was comfortable...I finally lost it. I felt so hurt. I was SO mad at a few people. But you know what? I got over it and I really don't think that these people really need to know what I was so irked about. I hated myself for being mad at them.

Family is a bond that certainly cannot be messed with. It took us a week to be able to flow on the same wavelength. I came home feeling like a part of something much larger than I could ever comprehend. I love everyone who made that trip possible. I love my Saviour. I love myself. I went there wanting to better myself. Not only did I better myself, I rekindled, created, and strengthened so many relationships.

For all of the attendees of WYD/JMJ 2002 - thank you for the renewed sense of self, community, friendship, and family.

GOD BLESS...

I'll get to posting in a few days...

I have a scrapbook to put together.

Home soon...BYE

GREETINGS FROM DOWNTOWN TORONTO!

So far it's day two of my trip and it turns out that there's a FREE internet cafe in the exhibition center! I've been having a great trip so far. We even got to hit up Square One...a 350 store mall! With the exchnage rate being great in my favor, you KNOW that I went buck wild. I just hope that I have enough luggage room for it all..hahaha. It's weird here too...it's just like California but unfortunately I have to utilize public transportation. Hey, you gotta do something new once in a while It's free for me because as a WYD 2002 member. I'm LEGAL here...kinda nice, huh? Yes, I did take advantage of it. By the way, the people are VERY hospitable and quite affable here.

Well, it's safe to say that all of my woes left when we took off for Canada. I really miss home.

I thought I'd say goodbye now since I have some down time. My bags are all packed and waiting to be thrown in the trunk. I'm gonna miss a lot of people and HOME especially. Take care and pray that I will have a safe and fun trip.

I got to see my best friend today and that made me feel better. I'm also glad that I called you. I promise we'll go out when we get back...maybe even go to the PRICE is RIGHT. Oh I'm really glad you called me earlier today...I'm glad I'm not the only one who feels this way.

I'm still unsure how I feel right now but I hope that all this anxiety leaves when I do. I love you all.

**...stupid sunless tanning spray....**

Oh yeah...for those who are keeping score...I colored my hair with a really light blonde so it's now a really light brown.

It's good to be home again...

I'm leaving tomorrow and I am all ready to go. heh...I guess the novelty of waiting has kinda worn out. I guess it'll sink in when I get to the airport. I'm actually brimming with so many different emotions right now...both good and bad. I've never been this far away from home without my family before. It's weird...I'm getting homesick already and I haven't even left. It feels weird to pack up a lot of stuff and not be home for more than a weekend. I guess I dunno what to say, but I'm glad to be home again...

good night...

**Farewell to Mr. Will Farrow!**

I'm doing my laundry and so I thought that this would be an ideal time to catch up.

Just to let you know, I still hate my camera but I'm going to bring it to Toronto. I'm just going to buy a bigger memory card so I can get more out of it. I can't believe that I'm leaving for Toronto in 5 days! Isn't that keen?! Anyway, there are a few faces that want to see before I go, but there's one person I was talking to that I haven't seen in a while.

The house is going to get fumigated and I have to pack for that too. Shit...you'd think with all the shopping that I do, I'd have enough to last a week a another country. I need to buy some pants but I'm thinking that I have the resources. Actually, the issue is if I want to utilize my resources...although not in abundance. heh.

Kris and I had a great Tennis session tonight. We actually were much more consistent than usual. I mean, we're pretty decent but I mean, there was some energy flying. At the risk of bragging, I was able to beat Kris with my abnormally consistent playing. Read him up if you want to know what went down.

Gosh I have so much to do before I leave...

Crap...I had so much to say earlier.

Insomnia's a BITCH!

I thought I'd share what I had been debating over during my vacation. I'm thinking about getting a new and BETTER digital camera for myself, instead of a laptop. My current camera is really getting on my nerves. I took over 132 shots during my Vegas trip and none of them can be uploaded. I've tried everything and I've been trying to get them out of that stupid memory card. Kodak may be able to print some great pictures but their digi cams suck.

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Meanwhile...back at the ranch...

I noticed how I've missed so much from you guys in the past week. I'm sure that won't be able to see any of you until Sunday. I miss all of my different circle of friends. I often wonder if they think of my as much as I think of them. I've been pretty busy this month and I'm thinking about spending some time with those whom I haven't seen in a while. I'm always on the go...and the sad part it's not usually for my own benefit. (not that I'm complaining)

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Happy Birthday Martin!
I wish that I was there with the RC.

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I'll change the window of destiny as soon as I can get those damn pictures out of my craptacular camera.

I'm still so busy with all of these events.. It turns out that I didn't go to Universal today. I was WAY too tired to do anything after Disneyland.; which brings me to my next thought...

Damn you Walt!

That place worked its magic on me again. There's something about Disneyland that awakens my sense of self and life. I felt like a kid; excited and full of wonder and amazment. Even though I didn't really do anything that I wanted to do I still managed to have a good time. To top it all off, the fireworks and FANTASMIC sealed my child-like state. There's nothing like a well choreographed fireworks show to make me feel all warm inside. Oh, Fantasmic is the ONLY theme park show that I'll ever watch. I've seen it at least 5 times and it never fails to entertain.

Have you ever felt that way? Have you experienced the Disney magic that makes you feel like you have the greatest imagination? Have you ever spent so much money just so you can take home what you felt? Hahaha I did. I ended up buying the "Aloha Stitch" Interactive toy. It's so cute! Me? Obsessed? Well, more like smitten by the Magic Man and HIS imagination.

I gotta go. I actually still have guests over. Hmmm...what did you say Stitch?

It's good to be home.

I'm only halfway done with this eventful week. Tomorrow is Disneyland and thursday we're going to Universal Studios. Damn, before I know it I'll be fidgeting on that plane to Toronto.

I don't want to hear people complaining about the heat here. Vegas had a high of about 110-120 degrees and at night it was 100 degrees and humid as hell. I've never appreciated a/c THAT much...ever.

I'll change the currents...eventually.

LOOK IM UP EARLY! I'll see you on Tuesday or Wednesday.

It's funny how the people you miss always seem to come back into your life and make you forget that you were ever apart.

I hate it when I don't know what to say to make someone feel better. I mean, I'm pretty aware that all I really need to do is listen but I wish that there was some sort of universal truth that would make the yuckies go away. Someone is hurting right now and it's the last person who deserves it. I will pray for you and if you need anything I'll try my best to deliver. Never think that you're alone. Pray and don't heave around that heavy heart...offer it up.

"We are who we are...even though sometimes we may forget."

I just realized that my blog will be a year old in a little less than two weeks.

Another year of independance for the greatest country on earth...

I actually picked up a shift for tonight. This year, I don't really have any plans to party, so I thought that I'd cover for someone who did. Rumor has it that we're going to close the restaurant early. Either way, it's a little extra money that I can use for Vegas this weekend. Damn all of these sudden expenses right before my big trip.

I'm kinda sad that Gail is saying that she's not all that hyped for the trip. Then again, she does have bigger plans than I do. I just hope that she has a good time nonetheless. Between you and me, I'm really glad that she's going.

Thanks for the kind compliments on my sketch...heh. Sometimes I to fish for compliments just for my own edification. heh heh. Actually, I'm surprised that I still have something left when it comes to drawing. I just thought that I'd display it since I'm not really going to bring it with me everywhere I go. haha

Oh and Daph, I'll definately bring you back something Toronto-ish.