Thanks Gail!

Thats it. Good Night...

There's nothing to complain about today. I had a great day at work, I'm going out with some friends tonight for some Christmas shopping. Speaking of Christmas shopping, for those who think that I'm going to actually going to reveal what I may have bought you, everything that I purchase will stay in the confidence of me and possibly the person who helped with the purchase. Hey...tough noogies...I may be dumb, not dense. heh heh. With that said, the sensations of the season have been welling up within me. Everytime the the cool, crisp wind passes, I feel all Christmassy inside. I can't wait to get all of my shopping done and give everything out. That's always the best part.

The karma gods are smiling upon me today and I am surely smiling back.

Hopefully, I'll have something worth blogging about next time I have a computer available. Take care and stay warm.

I found a $20 bill in my glove compartment! I rock...

Okay, no more complaining about what to get. I don't want complaints like i got on my birthday. Although I don't want anything from anyone...My list and information is up. Most of these are things are what I need. I don't necessarily want anything. C'mon, it's hard for a giver to be a taker.

The day is slowly leaning towards shitty. I totally forgot about going to the museum for an assignment that I was supposed to do for Geology class. As a result of my dumbass-ness, I ended up getting up much earlier than usual to go there. I ended up having to miss my Geology class too. The traffic was merely a crawl and I was getting pretty irritated. After about 45 minutes I get there and I had to pay $5.00 for parking and $5.50 for the wretched admission. I was only able to stay there for about 30 minutes and these little kids didn't make my mission much easier. I boned about and I hauled ass to school. I almost got sideswiped by a red necked big rig. "There are mirrors for a reason, moron!" When I finally got to campus, I figured I'd try to park close to the campus. I guess that was the only thing that was worth my time today. Don't get me wrong, there's still a lot of improvement for this day.

In other news, something didn't agree with me last monday and tuesday night. I couldn't sleep for until about 4am. I wasn't sure why, but I had some negative intuition. I didn't find out until I ran into Adolfo. It turns out that he injured himself snowboarding eariler this week. I don't know why I sense these things. Hmmm...of all people...Anyway, even if that's not what the vibe meant, it's the most convenient reason so far.

I can't wait for vacation to start. I've been pulling my hair out all semester....

I'm feeling pretty good today. As a result of my anal nature, I was able to kick my persuasive speech in the ass. Now that it's done, I have NOTHING to do for the next week or so. GIVE ME A CALL PEOPLE! LET'S GO OUT! MARK'S BACK ON BLOGGER. I'll be getting my new layout done when the new computer comes. I know that I keep saying that but, the new layout will be my winter break project.

The wind is really refreshing my soul today. It's a bit cold but it's nothing that I can't handle. It's certainly the sign of the season now. I'm actually inspired to get out there and do some Christmas shopping. Marienella assured me that things will work out just fine. I didn't think about the fact that my schedule will open up much more since I'll be on break for 6 whole weeks. Now that I have a renewed sense of self and strengthened my friendships with my co-workers, I feel more secure about myself. I feel very sure on what I am going to do. **sigh** Tell all your friends that I'm going to continue blogging. I'll cease every opportunity I get. Until my next entry, take care and I'll renovate soon....PROMISE.

Remember me? I'm sure you do. I don't think that anyone would want to check this since my comptuer crashed. Anyway, I'm at Aileen's typing this up and I'm taking a short break. Oh, THANKS SO MUCH AIYAH! Islands on me? hee hee. Speaking of Islands, I haven't been giving one person his due credit. Adolfo...what a cool guy. He's been there for me lately and I wish I knew what to say or do to make it up to him. I know I've been a whiny bitch lately and he's been one of the few that let me vent. I will take you clubbing one day sir. Count on that! hahaha. Anyway, thanks for just being a friend and hearing me out. I don't know what I would have done for the past week or so. If you're reading this...Thanks bud...

I've been trying to catch up with some RC people lately and I've been hoping to set up a video viewing party at my house. My room is still a virgin to the RC so I gotta have them break it in.

Thanksgiving you ask? Well, that was pretty eventful. If it weren't for this paper I'm doing, I'd fill you in on it.

Me thinks I'm getting into the holidays. The crisp cold weather, songs, images of charity and goodwill, and the media is certainly portraying the signs of the season. I promise to put a wish list up for the people that don't know what to get me....later.

Life has been very eventful for me but I'll blog about that when I make some time. I'll try to take advantage of CSUN's computers and keep you updated. I missed blogging!

I returned the laptop to Ariel, and I'm at Martin's house. I needed to get my tux buttons back. Anyway, I got to see my former leaders for confirmation. They live in New Hampshire now. They have the cutest little boy, Christopher. I had a surge of nostalgia tonight and I hope to see them again someday. They were the reason I became a leader. They inspired me to strive for only the best. Their witnessing really made a difference in my life. I never really gave a flying fuck about myself, let alone my religion. I found myself with God and I've been serving ever since I graduated with them. To Jem and Roger: Thanks for inspiring me to step and be a leader. You know what they say, "Good leaders always multiply." Thanks for everything. You really changed my life.

I'm hanging out at Martin's for now. Ah, the joys of high school...I don't really miss a thing...heh heh...Anyway, I don't want to go home because I was a bit annoyed with my parents earlier today. I won't go in to details, so I can just end my thought here.

I'm leaving to Frisco in a few hours. I haven't even packed, but I'm sure what I'm going to bring. Ate Daph, I'll be there soon!

Ariel, thanks again for the laptop, I owe you one big time!

I've given up. I surrendered to the cold loneliness of my empty house. This totally sucks. I just changed into my PJ's so I can go back to campus for an extra credit assignment tomorrow morning. I was dressed up as if I was going somewhere for over 3 hours. I didn't go anywhere but to check the fridge and use the bathroom. I was rejected 5 times with my offer for dinner. So I figured, fuck it...I've been deprived of the outside world since I got home at about 4:00. No one's been home since I arrived; not even the dog was here. What an empty feeling. I was hoping someone was going to call with something to do. I wanted to text Adolfo, but I seemed to have a knack for accidentally erasing the message before I sent it. I guess it's okay though, I'm sure he wouldn't have wanted to hear me bitch anyway. I'm already in my PJ's sulking in my solitude. I'll starve for a bit before I end up going to some 24 hour junk place. I lost my appetite and just want to go somewhere already. Fuck it...It's weird how everyone wants to see me but when I offer the chance, the opportunity isn't taken. Don't think that it's directed to anyone. I'm just a big fan of irony, that's all.

I'm at school trying desperately to pacify my jones for blogging. I spilled all of my thoughts here and I have nothing really constructive to say. Oh, Ariel, thanks for lending me the cool ass laptop. I know it's one of your "priceless" possesions and I owe you one big time. Thanks to him, I was able to get my speech done.

Here's a top ten to summarize the weekend:

1) My dad being so giving with everything. I didn't even have to ask and he really made that weekend happen for us...heh heh He kinda embarassed me there. I LOVE YOU DAD!
2) Finding a loophole in personal jinxing and having that laugh attack with everyone.
3) Fighting for the last robe in the room (which didn't exist...=P )
4) Realizing how lucky I am to be a part of SDYM. (We're Saint Super-Parish!)
5) Fellowhip & eating with everyone...Pantry, Numero Uno, Carl's, Sam Woo (Where's the Tsssssssssingtao!), Anyone call room service for chicken?
6) Hanging out in the lobby and playing cards.
7) Playing Connect 4 with Gail with our Palm Pilots...hee hee
8) Whooshing up and down the elevators.
9) Doodling all of us at the tables.
10) Just being with all of you really makes me so happy. I LOVE YOU GUYS AND I HOPE WE DO IT AGAIN!

Now that I have this laptop for the time being, I'm so tempted to redo my layout, but I figured I'll change it when I get the new one. I'm going to head home and eat. I haven't eaten anything since I woke up this morning.

I don't know what the hell is up with the computers in our house. Now, the laptop refuses to power itself on. I'm at Gail's house blogging. I owe her another one! Man, my computer is so impotent compared to this bad boy. Anyway, I wanted to bid this blog bon voyage for the weekend. I'm going to head out to the Bonaventure in LA. My ever-so-cool dad managed to get the group a suite. It's great to have so many hook ups in the right places. =)

I'm going to have to pressure myself into getting my speech done. CRAP. Oh well, I'm pretty sure that I can pull it off.

Here I go! I'm still going to be local so I won't be far. This weekend is going to be a blast...

Bobby & Monica:
It's about time! I hope your relationship continues to grow just like our friendship.

I woke up this morning thinking that I was late for school. My little sister woke me up around 7:45 this morning and I had no idea that it was so early. I went to sleep about 2:00am and I couldn't believe that I woke up so refreshed. From that moment on, I knew that I was going to have a good day. My classes were totally kickback today and I'm diggin the vibes. I'm looking forward to this weekend because I'm finally going to go through with it. I'm going to take classes for Youth Minister Certification. I've always wanted to have a title for what I do. heh heh. Anyway, I've been looking forward to this weekend for a while now.

Since my computer's dead, I'm utilizing the services of the campus and using this incredibly fast T1 computer. I'm just hoping with the recent "domestic" disaster, we will be getting a new computer sooner than the family planned. It's in the works and I want Ariel to build it for us. Anyway, after a few days, I've come the conclusion that I am addicited to the blog. It has become so routine for me to just jot all of my thoughts down. This has now become an outlet for my emotions, thoughts, rants, and utter stupidity. I'm so glad that I have people who care enough about me to read this and find out what I'm going through.

In other news, I've decided to put up a Christmas Wish List. Why? According to all of my feedback from my birthday, my "b-day wish list" button wasn't very popular among my friends. This time, I'm going to take out all of the guesswork. The only problem with the list is that people might get repeat gifts. (not that I expect ANYTHING from anyone)

I must get going. I have to meet Elvira for a late lunch then it's off to my Asian Americans in the Media class.

I'm just blogging for the sake of my sanity. I'm at relaxtation right now and I figured that I'd get this out of my system. I really have thoughts but not now.

Some friend I've been. I haven't seen or talked to any of my Royal Crew buds. I'm always running every which way to get things done and I totally lost sight of the big picture. To all of my friends: I'm sorry I haven't been there when I should have. I've been doing my thing and gaining my happiness and now I find that some of my friends aren't even happy anymore. For what it's worth, I've missed everyone.

Oh and Selle, you're the funnest "boring" person I hang out with. Escort misses you so much...and we must get the Royal Crew back together.

Now I've done it. You know how much I bitch and moan about how my computer is so outdated. I bad-mouthed it so much that I killed the damn thing. That's right.

My computer crashed.

For those who can't figure out how I'm able to blog, I'm using my dad's laptop but all of the files that I need are gone until I figure out how to revive my dead computer. I swear what's with all of my misfortune? Well, misfortune is meant technology-wise. I'm totally on the level with school now. I just hope that I did well enough to get a decent grade in my Geology class. Anyway, I've been in a cave for the past 3 days. I haven't checked my mail. I haven't checked the SDYM posts. My buddy lists are gone. Crap. Oh well...

Can't blog today...I'm going to study.

I watched Monsters Inc. last night. I had a blast! I'd show you the pics but my comp sucks. I gotta go since my brother wants to blog.

HAPPY 10th BIRTHDAY GENI! YOUR KUYA MARK LOVES YOU VERY VERY MUCH!

I apologize for my crude language in my last post.

I didn't know that today was a national holiday...Piss the Shit Out of Mark day. Ugh...this stupid digital camera has given me nothing but frustration. I went through all of this bullshit today too. It turns out the expansion card wasn't even compatible to the damn camera. It's the one that I want but it doesn't even support compact flash. I don't even give a fuck anymore what it supports anymore. I had to return it and pay $10 extra dollars for one with only 15% of the capacity of the other one. On top of that, I find out that my computer is so fucking old that there's no USB port for me to plug my camera in. So basically, my camera is just a piece of shit right now. I can't do anything with it. I can't transfer the files. IT'S USELESS. Here's the best part: unless we get a new computer, I can't use it at all and I know that we're not going to be getting a new computer for a while. After today, I'm not spending ANY money. I don't care if I fucking starve. What? Me, bitter? Damn right I am. I went through all of this bullshit to get a camera that can't do anything for me and it won't be able to until we get a new computer. Fuck the camera, fuck this shitty computer, fuck this whole day...

**Right when I published this at 5:04...my computer decides to cut off my connection. ERRRRGH...**

thebluedestiny15: i haven't seen some of my friends for a while
Gail: why not?
thebluedestiny15: either im so busy or they are...
Gail: yeah, i know what that's like...
thebluedestiny15: but i know that should change...
thebluedestiny15: we still talk i guess
Gail: at least you guys talk...it's hard to try and make time for friends sometimes, but i guess we just have to push ourselves to just do it...
Gail: that's a measure of how important those friends are to us
thebluedestiny15: amen to that...

I miss everyone...=\

What the hell is with that bridge threats? I swear we can't even escape this whole mindset. Some, l imagine, are paranoid as hell.

I've been really boring lately. If I don't have an entry for the day, just assume that I have nothing to say. Oh PLEASE...no one call me this weekend. I really need (and want) to study for my GEOL exam. I can't afford to screw this one up.