BOO! I wish a ghoulish HALLOWEEN to everyone!
I'm sorry, I have nothing really meaningful to talk about. Maybe later...
Wednesday, October 31, 2001
Tuesday, October 30, 2001
I took this geek test and this is what my result was...hee hee.
I AM 39% GEEK.
I told you I was a geek.
I AM 39% GEEK.
I'm so full that it hurts. We went out on a short-notice type meeting. I guess shooting the shit was a good thing to do. A lot was said. A lot was resolved. A lot wasn't even realized until tonight. I won't get into details. After all, it's just between the leaders anyway. I was just glad to be with all of them again. I'm not going to work tomorrow so I guess I'll be planning on doing something with the SDYMers again.
I finally got a hold of an old friend via IM tonight. I was looking through my old books and found his screen name. I hoped that he'd remember who I was...but with one mutual term, he knew who I was on the spot. He's Mr. USC now. I remember him from our pre-calculus class in high school. Who could forget a guy like him? He was one of the most popular guys I knew...at least, that's how I viewed him as. He was somewhat of a class clown but the kicker was that he had high marks in that class. Anyway, I'm not one to waste a totally good friend so I decided to IM him as soon as he showed up. Nick! I hope you're doing well at USC. Give me a call and we'll do something!
Everything is going well in my world. The only thing I want to do now is get my digital camera and update this bad boy. I know I keep bitching about getting it done but c'mon, aren't you sick of this brown/khaki setup too? I am...bleh.
I finally got a hold of an old friend via IM tonight. I was looking through my old books and found his screen name. I hoped that he'd remember who I was...but with one mutual term, he knew who I was on the spot. He's Mr. USC now. I remember him from our pre-calculus class in high school. Who could forget a guy like him? He was one of the most popular guys I knew...at least, that's how I viewed him as. He was somewhat of a class clown but the kicker was that he had high marks in that class. Anyway, I'm not one to waste a totally good friend so I decided to IM him as soon as he showed up. Nick! I hope you're doing well at USC. Give me a call and we'll do something!
Everything is going well in my world. The only thing I want to do now is get my digital camera and update this bad boy. I know I keep bitching about getting it done but c'mon, aren't you sick of this brown/khaki setup too? I am...bleh.
I actually woke up early and managed to look at some prospecctive digital cameras. I didn't feel like going to class. Since my brother was home I took him out for lunch since he's eyeing some car stereos. We went to Islands and some of my co-workers were trippin' that I had a twin. heh heh. I forget that there are people out there who are actually thinking of me as an individual. Anyway, while I browsed, the Invincible album caught my eye. I instinctly grabbed it and found out there were 5 different colors: red, orange, white, blue, & green. Being a blue freak, I took the blue one and skipped along to the cashiers. Si and I couldn't wait to open the CD. Man, when we popped it in...I was blown away. I highly suggest that you give Michael Jackson's Invincible a listen.
Anyway, there was an impromptu meeting for SDYM so I'm going to rest up and dry up. I don't like rain...well at least not at the moment.
I just setup a new guestbook. I didn't like the 500 letter limit on the other one so this one might be better for some people. Right Sheryl? hee hee =)
Anyway, there was an impromptu meeting for SDYM so I'm going to rest up and dry up. I don't like rain...well at least not at the moment.
I just setup a new guestbook. I didn't like the 500 letter limit on the other one so this one might be better for some people. Right Sheryl? hee hee =)
Monday, October 29, 2001
This whole day was a rollercoaster of emotions. I noticed that I didn't correctly state the condition of my wallet. It was reported stolen.
Ariel and Ting not only picked me up, but they took me out for sushi too. That was some good stuff. Anyway, I wasn't really into the whole dinner vibe until I had some Plum Wine. heh heh. No folks, I didn't get hammered. I wanted to forget any of it happened so I just tried to have some fun with Ting & Ariel. In the middle of the meal, I got a phone call. It turns out that it was the call that connected me to the person who had my wallet. The neutral location was Pac-man Arcade. For security reasons, Ariel drove us there and meet up with "Joseph."
The moment we got there we called him back since there was call was ID-ed. It turns out that it was a guy that was about my age. He just handed me the wallet and I tried to give him $20 to say thanks but wouldn't take it. "If I wanted it, I would have already taken it." he said. "It's the least I could do for all..." I insisted, "Nah, just take care." Ting and I just looked at each other. The first thing that came to mind was the two guys at the police station's front desk who snickered at me for thinking that I was going to get my wallet back. I'm just glad that someone was kind enough to prove them wrong.
My faith has been restored. I'm so thankful that Joseph was honest enough to return my wallet to me. I shouldn't have assumed that it was stolen. Sheesh...I do get a little anal sometimes. Something good ALWAYS happens when I'm with Ariel & Ting. =P
I'm off to bed...in fact, my new bed from IKEA. heh heh. I can sleep much easier knowing that there actually good, honest people out there (other than the ones that I know personally) & and a nice new virgin mattress for me to break in.
Ariel and Ting not only picked me up, but they took me out for sushi too. That was some good stuff. Anyway, I wasn't really into the whole dinner vibe until I had some Plum Wine. heh heh. No folks, I didn't get hammered. I wanted to forget any of it happened so I just tried to have some fun with Ting & Ariel. In the middle of the meal, I got a phone call. It turns out that it was the call that connected me to the person who had my wallet. The neutral location was Pac-man Arcade. For security reasons, Ariel drove us there and meet up with "Joseph."
The moment we got there we called him back since there was call was ID-ed. It turns out that it was a guy that was about my age. He just handed me the wallet and I tried to give him $20 to say thanks but wouldn't take it. "If I wanted it, I would have already taken it." he said. "It's the least I could do for all..." I insisted, "Nah, just take care." Ting and I just looked at each other. The first thing that came to mind was the two guys at the police station's front desk who snickered at me for thinking that I was going to get my wallet back. I'm just glad that someone was kind enough to prove them wrong.
My faith has been restored. I'm so thankful that Joseph was honest enough to return my wallet to me. I shouldn't have assumed that it was stolen. Sheesh...I do get a little anal sometimes. Something good ALWAYS happens when I'm with Ariel & Ting. =P
I'm off to bed...in fact, my new bed from IKEA. heh heh. I can sleep much easier knowing that there actually good, honest people out there (other than the ones that I know personally) & and a nice new virgin mattress for me to break in.
I've been really bleh today so let me clear the air a bit...After going on that boba run yesterday, I found that my wallet was missing. I figured that it was either in my car or with one of the cars of the Saint Dom's people. So, I thought nothing of it until I couldn't find it this morning. Even though I was still missing my license, I still scurried off to work just to find out that I wasn't even scheculed today. Crap... Since I had nothing to do, I ended up making a mission of finding my wallet. The first thing that I did was return to the scene of the crime. I questioned differrent patrons and the parking booth attendants. They were totally useless in my search. I just wanted to return to my car and drive off in absolute bitterness. On the way to the parking lot elevator, I ran into a security officer. At this point I totally thoght that it was futile to ask her, but I figured that I had nothing to lose. So, I told her my situation and she knew EXACTLY what I was talking about. She was very sweet and VERY helpful to me. She gave me an exact description and explained EVERYTHING. She even had notices throughout Old Town. It turns out that someone had picked up my wallet and showed it to her. The suspect didn't even hand her the wallet. The mistake that was made was that this person frequents Old Town and showed the guard (apparently they knew each other somehow) my wallet. Officer Williams also was able to obtain the suspect's plate number and the make, model and color of the vehicle. It was supposedly going to be turned in to the proper authorites. I ended up having to go the Pasadena City Police Station and look for my walet there. Although the service there was amazing, that wasn't enough. Besides a police report and a heavy heart, I left the station totally empty handed. I have frozen all of my accounts and I will apply for a new license. Life just gets easier for Mark doesn't it?
In other news, I typed this entry at work and for some reason, I attracted my coworkers like files to a piece of fresh shit. Who knew that technology was so amazing to other people who don't have it. heh heh. Hey, I have every right to show off my Palm Pilot after spending over $350 for it. =P
Anyway, I'm not really angry today, but I am a bit frustrated. Believe it of not, I actually forgive ther person for dong this. I hope one day he realizes how fucked up his life is. I don't want to condemn the criminal. I'm better than that. I'm an example for other people. Besides, it makes me worse than the person who stole my wallet if all I do is slander this guy.
I feel better after shooting the shit. Oh, and Adolfo, thanks for the Cool Breeze. I really appreciated that. Hey the little things count too. Thanks.
On a lighter note...I've been meaning to get a new wallet anyway. I guess that was an omen to get a new one. I'm just glad that I didn't have my pictures inside, or I'd be REALLY upset.
Looks like I can't go anywhere for a while. I might as well keep a cool, optimistic head. I was in a rut not too long ago and I don't want to have to go through all of that madness again. So expect me to smile even though I'm broke and driving illegally.
In other news, I typed this entry at work and for some reason, I attracted my coworkers like files to a piece of fresh shit. Who knew that technology was so amazing to other people who don't have it. heh heh. Hey, I have every right to show off my Palm Pilot after spending over $350 for it. =P
Anyway, I'm not really angry today, but I am a bit frustrated. Believe it of not, I actually forgive ther person for dong this. I hope one day he realizes how fucked up his life is. I don't want to condemn the criminal. I'm better than that. I'm an example for other people. Besides, it makes me worse than the person who stole my wallet if all I do is slander this guy.
I feel better after shooting the shit. Oh, and Adolfo, thanks for the Cool Breeze. I really appreciated that. Hey the little things count too. Thanks.
On a lighter note...I've been meaning to get a new wallet anyway. I guess that was an omen to get a new one. I'm just glad that I didn't have my pictures inside, or I'd be REALLY upset.
Looks like I can't go anywhere for a while. I might as well keep a cool, optimistic head. I was in a rut not too long ago and I don't want to have to go through all of that madness again. So expect me to smile even though I'm broke and driving illegally.
Sunday, October 28, 2001
I got up 5:00am this morning after suffering insomnia. I tried to function on 15 minutes of sleep. Pulled my hair out since there all of my servers derserted me. I got burned by coffee by clumsy guests that bumped into me. We got bitched out by a bitter old lady (don't worry, she was always a bitter old hag...). Ruined my favorite baseball shirt. Then was singled out to wash the last dishes at the bitter end...AND FOR WHAT?!
Service, my friend...SERVICE. I never complained about having to do a task the entire day...at least tried not to. It was great to have understanding friends who allowed me to rest when I felt weary. I've always been willing to help out at Saint Dominic's. At the end, no matter the amount of the stress, it's always worth the while. Of course, we ended it all with a super boba run. It was just the best when we all chilled in Randy's truck. After all of that work, just kicking back was totally off the hook. *sigh* good times... =)
To anyone reading this that was part of "ICHOP 2" , We have just taken another big step into WYD 2002. I'm so glad that we did it and the whole this is OVER. I love you guys and may God bless you always. Thanks...
In other news, Mark is really tired and needs his sleep. Go ahead and call the cell, if one is so lucky then Mark might answer it.
Service, my friend...SERVICE. I never complained about having to do a task the entire day...at least tried not to. It was great to have understanding friends who allowed me to rest when I felt weary. I've always been willing to help out at Saint Dominic's. At the end, no matter the amount of the stress, it's always worth the while. Of course, we ended it all with a super boba run. It was just the best when we all chilled in Randy's truck. After all of that work, just kicking back was totally off the hook. *sigh* good times... =)
To anyone reading this that was part of "ICHOP 2" , We have just taken another big step into WYD 2002. I'm so glad that we did it and the whole this is OVER. I love you guys and may God bless you always. Thanks...
In other news, Mark is really tired and needs his sleep. Go ahead and call the cell, if one is so lucky then Mark might answer it.
Saturday, October 27, 2001
It's been a mission to get a co-worker to meet the SDYMers. I know that he wants to join a youth ministry and possibly help out with confirmation. His phone was really fucked up for the past few days...eh well. I got him to see the group on sunday during an all day event. heh heh I guess it's been the only thing that has any worth of mention nowadays.
I never really appreciated myself until lately. Remember a couple of weeks ago, I felt that I was such in a rut? Lately, I've been so blessed with all of this fellowship and friendship. I really prayed for an escape and God gave me my friends and good times. So many people are all of a sudden trying to get a hold of me and I really want to see everyone. I just realized that there actually people who think and talk about me...for good reasons. I matter. I'm significant. I have direction. I have my God. What more can I ask for? I know that my money has been running pretty low...so what? Money comes and goes...I can't let the more important things pass me by.
Life has been worth living now. I can look at myself in the mirror and silently tell myself that God loves me and so does everyone else. This feeling of renewal feels so empowering and no one can rob me of myself. I want to thank everyone for making me feel so much better about myself and personal relationships.
I never really appreciated myself until lately. Remember a couple of weeks ago, I felt that I was such in a rut? Lately, I've been so blessed with all of this fellowship and friendship. I really prayed for an escape and God gave me my friends and good times. So many people are all of a sudden trying to get a hold of me and I really want to see everyone. I just realized that there actually people who think and talk about me...for good reasons. I matter. I'm significant. I have direction. I have my God. What more can I ask for? I know that my money has been running pretty low...so what? Money comes and goes...I can't let the more important things pass me by.
Life has been worth living now. I can look at myself in the mirror and silently tell myself that God loves me and so does everyone else. This feeling of renewal feels so empowering and no one can rob me of myself. I want to thank everyone for making me feel so much better about myself and personal relationships.
We ended up seeing On the Line tonight. It was pretty good. It another one of those feel good movies. Anywho, the night started with some dinner at the Elephant Bar. That was a good sugguestion Gail! Man that place was kickin! I had a really good first impression of that place and I'm more than willing to come back. By the way Gail, I swear I'm paying next time!
The movie was a real feel-good kinda movie. Kevin (Lance) was a real tanker in life and never really got the respect he deserved. He never spoke up. I won't get into much detail so you won't all mad at me for giving anything away. But there was 2 lines that really stuck out:
Anyway, it was one movie I was glad to see with some good friends. To Bobbert and Geron...hahaha we heard you loud and clear. Sorry no boba this time...I'll get you GAIL! =P
Thanks so much for treating me out. But next time, please "accidentally" leave your wallets at home so I can pick up the check and make me feel better about myself. hee hee.
The movie was a real feel-good kinda movie. Kevin (Lance) was a real tanker in life and never really got the respect he deserved. He never spoke up. I won't get into much detail so you won't all mad at me for giving anything away. But there was 2 lines that really stuck out:
Love doesn't make the world go 'round, but it makes the ride a lot better.
It's all about the music, when you're up on that stage...everything's perfect...until they start boo-ing.
Anyway, it was one movie I was glad to see with some good friends. To Bobbert and Geron...hahaha we heard you loud and clear. Sorry no boba this time...I'll get you GAIL! =P
Thanks so much for treating me out. But next time, please "accidentally" leave your wallets at home so I can pick up the check and make me feel better about myself. hee hee.
Friday, October 26, 2001
Now that everything has settled, I'm at Gail's house before we head on out for a night of boba. Anyway, I wish that I was able to go and visit the CSUNers to party, but I'm so involved with youth ministry. I feel so divided! Anyway, I'm going to head out for some fun. It was payday yunno! Bye! I hope that I will have something to blog about when I get home...
Thursday, October 25, 2001
I'm thinking that I'm going to keep this whole thing plain for now. I want to keep it bland so when/if I update the layout, the new stuff will look better...heh heh. Anyway, I can't believe that I'm saying this but I'm really tired and I'm going to try to get some sleep. I hope this is a step to beating this insomnia thing. If I can't sleep, then I'm going to blog. Good night all...hopefully.
It's so cool to go out with the SDYM-ers. Yes...I went out with them again. =) I can never say no...well unless I have something to study for or if I'm broke. hee hee. Anyway, I always enjoy the fellowship we all experience. That's it I guess.
I made an entry during my Sociology class today. He wouldn't shut up so I did something that was somewhat productive. heh heh.
I made an entry during my Sociology class today. He wouldn't shut up so I did something that was somewhat productive. heh heh.
I hate having to be the bad guy, but I guess you gotta do what you gotta do. I'm not too sure why I didn't seem to get a grip of my students tonight. I can't say that they weren't productive, but I can certainly say that some were much more productive than others. I didn't really lose it, but I really was hurt and frustrated that some of my students weren't contributing all of what they got. I was thrown another curve ball too. I got another new student...but it was someone I already knew, so it's not going to be that difficult making her feel welcomed. Wow! I have 8 students in my team. I know there's lots more to look forward to as the year progresses.
I ate out with SDYM-ers again. I really enjoy their company. We ate at Denny's again and I haven't laughed like that for a while now. Herbie & Randy had some interesting stories that kept us all in stitches.
Today, is going to be a long day for me, but it comforts me knowing that I am going to have another one of those long weekends. I can't wait for this weekend to come. It's packed with SDYM activities. Finally, a weekend where I don't have to pick my nose for entertainment. I'm so glad that I have people that want to go out too...heh heh
Gail, I totally owe you boba on friday! =)
Kris, thanks for the CD. I oughta get you boba too.
Crap, another sleepless night is ahead of me. I really need to find a way to kick this in the ass....bleh.
I ate out with SDYM-ers again. I really enjoy their company. We ate at Denny's again and I haven't laughed like that for a while now. Herbie & Randy had some interesting stories that kept us all in stitches.
Today, is going to be a long day for me, but it comforts me knowing that I am going to have another one of those long weekends. I can't wait for this weekend to come. It's packed with SDYM activities. Finally, a weekend where I don't have to pick my nose for entertainment. I'm so glad that I have people that want to go out too...heh heh
Gail, I totally owe you boba on friday! =)
Kris, thanks for the CD. I oughta get you boba too.
Crap, another sleepless night is ahead of me. I really need to find a way to kick this in the ass....bleh.
Wednesday, October 24, 2001
I got to hand it to Ting and Ariel. They have great timing! After school, I took a long nap to rest my body and soul. I woke up to my sell phone bleeping out the theme song to the "Itchy & Scratchy Show." I grumbled and searched for my phone and right when I had found it the caller from the private number hung up. As soon as I tried to lull myself back to sleep the house phone rings and lo and behold. It's Ariel with an offer I couldn't refuse. He picked me up and we went in search for Ting. She had the notion that we shuold try Acapulco to have some eats. Being the anti-social weiner I am, I told them that I've never been there. That place certainly pleased my uvula. hee hee. We had some "creative" and "shiny" conversations over dinner.
Tonight I busted missions just to be one step closer to getting my layout changed. I must thank Ariel (again) and Gail for busting a mission just for me to get Dreamweaver 3. I know it's not the latest one, but hey, I'm that much closer to getting some layout ideas. I really appreciate you guys going the extra mile just so I can have that. THANKS! I know that I was kinda a pain in the butt bugging you for it!
Man! I'm so glad that I have plans on Friday. Sorry, if you're not involved then you can't get a hold of me. I promised someone that we were going to see a movie and chill over boba. I'm so happy to finally feel like a big part of the SDYM team. I get to work with them and go out?! Gosh, I'm really lucky to have friends like the SDYM-ers.
I'm starting to miss a lot of my friends. I understand that they are doing more important things that don't associate with me whatsoever. Would it be too much to ask to just spend one day with all of you? I'm missing some old friends, the RC and CGM-ers a lot. I mean, I'm grateful that I am surrounded by the love of my friends but there are so many of them that have been absent from my life. You know the saying, "Out of sight, out of mind?" That's not true. They may be out of sight but they are all still in my heart. I always pray to God to watch over all of you.
I just finished mapping out my ideas for my new layout. I was telling Kris that my ideas are classified for the moment, but I can let in on a few details. I'm definately going to add images of the people I interact with and snapshots of candids & different events. I'm going to get more conceited and add bigger pics of myself. hee hee. It's just a work in progress. There's nothing that's really concrete just yet. Anyone have any ideas on what they want to see?
*sigh*
I have to get some sleep. I don't know what's wrong with me! My circadian rhythms are all outta wack. Blah...I don't want to resort to sleeping pills.
(Man...i just said a lot of stuff)
Tonight I busted missions just to be one step closer to getting my layout changed. I must thank Ariel (again) and Gail for busting a mission just for me to get Dreamweaver 3. I know it's not the latest one, but hey, I'm that much closer to getting some layout ideas. I really appreciate you guys going the extra mile just so I can have that. THANKS! I know that I was kinda a pain in the butt bugging you for it!
Man! I'm so glad that I have plans on Friday. Sorry, if you're not involved then you can't get a hold of me. I promised someone that we were going to see a movie and chill over boba. I'm so happy to finally feel like a big part of the SDYM team. I get to work with them and go out?! Gosh, I'm really lucky to have friends like the SDYM-ers.
I'm starting to miss a lot of my friends. I understand that they are doing more important things that don't associate with me whatsoever. Would it be too much to ask to just spend one day with all of you? I'm missing some old friends, the RC and CGM-ers a lot. I mean, I'm grateful that I am surrounded by the love of my friends but there are so many of them that have been absent from my life. You know the saying, "Out of sight, out of mind?" That's not true. They may be out of sight but they are all still in my heart. I always pray to God to watch over all of you.
I just finished mapping out my ideas for my new layout. I was telling Kris that my ideas are classified for the moment, but I can let in on a few details. I'm definately going to add images of the people I interact with and snapshots of candids & different events. I'm going to get more conceited and add bigger pics of myself. hee hee. It's just a work in progress. There's nothing that's really concrete just yet. Anyone have any ideas on what they want to see?
*sigh*
I have to get some sleep. I don't know what's wrong with me! My circadian rhythms are all outta wack. Blah...I don't want to resort to sleeping pills.
(Man...i just said a lot of stuff)
Monday, October 22, 2001
Ting, Ariel and I got this really sweet story from some sweet girl that was roaming the streets. It's about "Heaven's grocery store." Anyway, The story was nice but here's the kicker, the girl who handed it to just vanished. It's weird...she just dissapeared (whoa...that rhymed). I don't know what that was all about but maybe God is trying to tell us something. hmmmmmm...
It's nice to some people are always willing to chill with you. I'm at SWORKS again and there's nothing like the urban noise of cars rushing by. I'm conversing (not conversating) with Ting and Ariel again. I swear where would I be without SDYM? They're even my wonderful, wonderful host. ANNNNYWAY, I think that this weekdend was one that I seriously deserved. It was great to spend time with old friends and make new ones. I'm so relaxed now. I'm ready to face my academic and social life again. But this time I can't really spend money. Either way I can really build on my good fortune.
I took this "FRIENDS" test and this is who I am most like...supposedly.
Could you be any more like Chandler? The most lovable wiseguy around, you've got more than a little Bing inside you, don't 'cha? Front and center in your Chandler-ness is that unstoppable wit, keeping everyone in stitches (or at least deflecting uncomfortable situations). And like the Chan-Chan man, you'd never leave your pals out in the cold. But your generosity is so inconspicuous that people often don't even notice it.
Romantically, a soft, sweet, heart and charming, insecurity rule. You might, however, be held back from love by that nagging little fear of, well, growing up. Ya think? But, like the adorable Mr. Bing himself, it's just because you care so much and don't want to let anyone down.
I know. I know... the site still looks the same. I'm in no rush to change the outlook, but I'm certainly getting there. I'm still gathering ideas and learning different HTML stuffs. I want my site to be so different from this one. I like the look, but I want it to look different since it's a new place...a better place. [thanks Ariel!]
Anywho, I'm hungry again and nobody's home. The fridge is full but there's nothing that I can really use to cook. I'm thinking about taking a little nap so I can get my mind off of the hunger and maybe there will be something to eat by the time I get up. hee hee. Gosh, I'm so hungry right now. I told myself that I shouldn't spend any money, but is this a case where I absolutely have to? I have money, but I have to start saving for the Christmas season. Crap...freaking dilemma. Oh well, I'll save the drama for my momma and I'll shut up here. In the meantime, update your links!
Anywho, I'm hungry again and nobody's home. The fridge is full but there's nothing that I can really use to cook. I'm thinking about taking a little nap so I can get my mind off of the hunger and maybe there will be something to eat by the time I get up. hee hee. Gosh, I'm so hungry right now. I told myself that I shouldn't spend any money, but is this a case where I absolutely have to? I have money, but I have to start saving for the Christmas season. Crap...freaking dilemma. Oh well, I'll save the drama for my momma and I'll shut up here. In the meantime, update your links!
Sunday, October 21, 2001
I was taught that we weren't leaders, we were servants. WE were there to SERVE everyone else before ourselves. Today, lots of the leaders are there to serve themselves. They want to be able to touch someone's life, they want to make themselves feel good. Is that really living a Christian life? What we all need to do as leaders is ask ourselves is if we are leading Christian lives...and as we all concur, all we can really do is TRY, AND DO OUR BEST. We all fall, but what we need to constantly be doing is picking ourselves up, admitting we were wrong, and trying to change..that's all God can really ask for...that we try...That's all we ask of all the leaders...to try...as long as they try...they'll never fail - we'll never fail.
Thank you Gail. Very well said.
A while back, no one really cared about him; some dorky high school guy. He had no direction and no one to guide him. He lacked inspiration, confidence and patience. Although he was fortunate to have a few true friends, it was never enough. He was a lost soul, wandering in a lifeless and lonely valley. There wasn't a place he belonged to. He acted so many parts; wore so many masks. But who was he? Nobody knew, let alone cared. No one wanted to offer anything to him because he had nothing in return. The weight of the world crushed his feeble body and spirit. Overwhelmed by reality, he wanted to escape, but did not know a destination. Little did he know there was a place he could call home; a place where he was wanted...needed. After living in fear and confusion, at last, there was a sanctuary from the harsh mindset he was locked on. What did he do? He opened his eyes and he saw the many faces of God. He opened his heart and felt the love welling up within him. There was so much dwelling in him, that he had to share it with others. Then, he opened his hands and generously gave as much as he could and swore to never let anyone feel the way he did before. People questioned him, but he would never allow anything in return. "Just take it," he said. "I was never so lucky enough to have this opportunity for myself." He wanted everyone to accept what he offered because it was the only way he knew how to heal himself.
Why do I care so much?
You tell me...
I scared all of my troubles away and just offered it all up. Knott's was really theraputic for me. I put up with so much last week and I felt that I deserved some fun in my life. I've gotten to know a few people who ventured the ghoulish gauntlet with us. It was kinda fun getting scared by masked freaks and strange, disturbing images. To those who care to know, I'm officially out of a rut! =)
Oh and Dave, I hope you get your TV. It was nice meeting you on the phone...heh heh.
Oh and Dave, I hope you get your TV. It was nice meeting you on the phone...heh heh.
Saturday, October 20, 2001
Friday, October 19, 2001
Today was weird. It wasn't the typical Friday shift for me. For some odd reason, people would come in herds of 8 people or more. The restaurant was packed with large parties. I'm not going to complain though. People dug deep into their pockets today. I guess my service was pretty good. I have buttloads of money to burn for tonight!
Anyway, I'm ready to scream like a little biotch today at Knott's Scary Farm and I'm going with SDYM tonight and I've been waiting to let loose all week. As you may have gathered, I've had some bullshit to put up with this past week, so I think I deserve it.
Things couldn't be better. I just realized that I might want to double major. More details later...but now I know that I want to do graphic design. I think I may have found my calling...until some ungodly power changes my mind in the future. In any case, I feel very collected now. No one can bring me down.
I can't wait to see Snoopy! =P
Anyway, I'm ready to scream like a little biotch today at Knott's Scary Farm and I'm going with SDYM tonight and I've been waiting to let loose all week. As you may have gathered, I've had some bullshit to put up with this past week, so I think I deserve it.
Things couldn't be better. I just realized that I might want to double major. More details later...but now I know that I want to do graphic design. I think I may have found my calling...until some ungodly power changes my mind in the future. In any case, I feel very collected now. No one can bring me down.
I can't wait to see Snoopy! =P
Thursday, October 18, 2001
I'm home alone again. It's okay this time. My parents gave me a call while I was on the way and they even said that there was food! My parents are out "on a date" again. Isn't that freaking cute or what?! =)
I'm fried and I wanna crash. Everything's behind me and tomorrow is the culmination of this weeks crap and stress. I deserve it! =P
I'm fried and I wanna crash. Everything's behind me and tomorrow is the culmination of this weeks crap and stress. I deserve it! =P
Okay, I'm on the campus right now, so I'm going to make this quick.
Hmmm...for once I'm at school early enough to actually blog. hee hee. Anyway, I never found out who parked the car in front of the house. I ended up leaving early so I could study for my SOC exam. I have a speech to deliver and an exam. I know...it sucks big time. In any case, I'm back on the level. I have nothing to worry about that concerns school. I'll blog when I get home, only if I'm not fried by the rest of the day. I ended up having 3 hours of sleep last night. blah. =\
Hmmm...for once I'm at school early enough to actually blog. hee hee. Anyway, I never found out who parked the car in front of the house. I ended up leaving early so I could study for my SOC exam. I have a speech to deliver and an exam. I know...it sucks big time. In any case, I'm back on the level. I have nothing to worry about that concerns school. I'll blog when I get home, only if I'm not fried by the rest of the day. I ended up having 3 hours of sleep last night. blah. =\
Thanks a lot, dumbass.
Some idiot parks a vintage Mustang in front of our house. Normally, I wouldn't have a problem with that, but this fucking moron is blocking half of the driveway. Trying to get out without hitting this car consumed a lot of time since I needed to take my sister to school. I had to roll off of the curb. Luckily, I didn't screw up my car in the process. What kind of ignorance does it take for someone to block someone else's driveway on purpose? Who the hell gave them their license?! If that car is still there when I come home, I swear I'm going to do something to that fucking Mustang. If I see the owner, I'm going to cuss him/her out. Hell, if you're that dumb...someone has to tell you.
I'm annoyed now. I'm taking a nap.
I'll update the currents when I get home
Some idiot parks a vintage Mustang in front of our house. Normally, I wouldn't have a problem with that, but this fucking moron is blocking half of the driveway. Trying to get out without hitting this car consumed a lot of time since I needed to take my sister to school. I had to roll off of the curb. Luckily, I didn't screw up my car in the process. What kind of ignorance does it take for someone to block someone else's driveway on purpose? Who the hell gave them their license?! If that car is still there when I come home, I swear I'm going to do something to that fucking Mustang. If I see the owner, I'm going to cuss him/her out. Hell, if you're that dumb...someone has to tell you.
I'm annoyed now. I'm taking a nap.
I'll update the currents when I get home
Wednesday, October 17, 2001
Well, I'm sure that I'm not going to blog for a while tonight. I have plenty of things to prepare for tomorrow. Since there are some who may be addicted to reading my stuff, I'll pacify the urge for a litte bit. =)
I've actually been pretty productive for the day. I got my oil changed, fixed a laser pointer for my presentation tomorrow, paid for the car, and bought some stuff for my visual aids tomorrow. Wow, look at me! I'm doing somemthing productive. Anyway, today was just an ordinary day, but I feel good and hell...I look good too. What? Me? Narcissistic? heh heh. Only when I deserve it.
If I'm a good boy, I'll be blogging if I finish early or work so hard that I need a break. Either way, I'm busy tonight. I'll be chill after tomorrow. I can't wait for Knott's on Friday.
I deserve it...I deserve it...I deserve it...
I've actually been pretty productive for the day. I got my oil changed, fixed a laser pointer for my presentation tomorrow, paid for the car, and bought some stuff for my visual aids tomorrow. Wow, look at me! I'm doing somemthing productive. Anyway, today was just an ordinary day, but I feel good and hell...I look good too. What? Me? Narcissistic? heh heh. Only when I deserve it.
If I'm a good boy, I'll be blogging if I finish early or work so hard that I need a break. Either way, I'm busy tonight. I'll be chill after tomorrow. I can't wait for Knott's on Friday.
I deserve it...I deserve it...I deserve it...
Tuesday, October 16, 2001
It sucks to have to come home to an empty house and not know where everyone went. They didn't leave me anything. No food. No note. Not even a phone call to tell me where the fuck they are. Maybe I oughta leave and see how they like it. heh heh. The dog keeps barking and won't shut up. I don't know what she keeps barking at. She even took a shit on the new floor downstairs. Now, my sister wants me to install a game that I deleted...and I deleted it for a REASON. I can't even find my slippers. You know why? My dad took them without telling me again. I swear I'm going to have to hide them. I'm tired. Screw it, I digress...ugh. I'll try not to let it get to me. The people in my house just suck right now.
I seriously need some alone time to just abosorb God. I really need that. I really deserve that.
Oh and Ting, thanks for the really sweet e-card. It made my day.
I seriously need some alone time to just abosorb God. I really need that. I really deserve that.
Oh and Ting, thanks for the really sweet e-card. It made my day.
How rude of me, I should've brought you up sooner...
Sheryl Anne...a name worthy of mention. It blew my mind to even think that there's someone in another continent who reads my blogs. I can't help but feel special. hee hee. Thanks for the e~mails and the feedback. If you ever start a blog, I hope I'll be one of the first to know.
Aileen, did you use this computer in the Oviat? Ate Daph's blog is minimized and stuck on the toolbar. hee hee. What are the chances of that?!
Well, I have an advisement appoinment at 4:00 so I'm going to check my mail and scram.
Oh, and thanks guys...
Sheryl Anne...a name worthy of mention. It blew my mind to even think that there's someone in another continent who reads my blogs. I can't help but feel special. hee hee. Thanks for the e~mails and the feedback. If you ever start a blog, I hope I'll be one of the first to know.
Aileen, did you use this computer in the Oviat? Ate Daph's blog is minimized and stuck on the toolbar. hee hee. What are the chances of that?!
Well, I have an advisement appoinment at 4:00 so I'm going to check my mail and scram.
Oh, and thanks guys...
It's weird how one instance can restore faith. About a week ago, I didnt' study for my speech exam. I was sure that I passed it, but I wasn't sure how well I did on it. I sat in class today expecting nothing more than a C. (I'm pretty sure you can tell where this whole thing is leading to.) Yes...I got an A! Suddenly, I felt myself regenerating. I can't believe that I got such a high mark. heh heh. I guess when you're at your lowest, the only way is UP.
I haven't fully recovered from my recent misfortunes, but I'm getting there. Today, I've felt so much better about myself. So good in fact that I didn't want to bore myself in SOC class. Hey, now remember, the first 2 two exams I took in that class resulted in 100% and a 96%. I don't really have anything to worry about. =)
The sun is brighter and Mark finally grinned to himself. I can honestly say that I'm feeling buttloads better than I did yesterday. I still have plenty to improve on, but at least I have the motivation to move on. For those who prayed for me, thanks...it helped a lot.
I still don't really want to go out. Like I said before, I have plenty of catching up to do.
Blog ya when I get home.
I haven't fully recovered from my recent misfortunes, but I'm getting there. Today, I've felt so much better about myself. So good in fact that I didn't want to bore myself in SOC class. Hey, now remember, the first 2 two exams I took in that class resulted in 100% and a 96%. I don't really have anything to worry about. =)
The sun is brighter and Mark finally grinned to himself. I can honestly say that I'm feeling buttloads better than I did yesterday. I still have plenty to improve on, but at least I have the motivation to move on. For those who prayed for me, thanks...it helped a lot.
I still don't really want to go out. Like I said before, I have plenty of catching up to do.
Blog ya when I get home.
What have I done?! What the fuck is wrong with me? I'm suffocating. It wasn't until recently that I felt so behind in my studies. I was so motivated and now I'm trying to figure out what the hell is wrong with me. Everything is piling up while I needlessly ponder. My self-esteem just broke. I feel like such a fucking moron. I need to get back on track, but how? The walls are closing in on me and I'm drowning. My circadian cycle is so fucked up now and it's not helping me improve my grades at all. I don't know why I can't get myself to live through another school day. It's only 2 days a week for God's sake. What's wrong with me? I want to sever myself from my people, especially my social life. I don't want people to call me. I don't want to go anywhere right now. I want to be left alone. I want to feel good about myself again. I want more time for myself, and only myself. I want to get everything done. It's no one's fault other than my own. What can you do to help? Nothing really. All I ask for is an encouraging word, a prayer, or just leaving me alone. I can't do anything but drown in my own self pity. I'll just kick myself in the ass and see what happens from there...ugh. I'm supposed to be a leader...but I feel so lost.
Monday, October 15, 2001
Yet again, I have managed to get up early. I took my sister to school and took my grandma to her house a little earlier this morning. That only took me about 15 minutes to do and yet that short span of time managed to tick me off a little. Now I can't get back to sleep for a little nap before i have to get ready for work...FUCK. I don't feel like getting into any details other than that I detest DETOURS and I'm grateful my foot's not bleeding. For the second time I ask, why me?!?
(Betcha didn't know I can speak as well as write Tagalog. Shit, I even know the old way to write in Tagalog. I know how to use all of the characters. Anyway, if you don't understand the currents, tough rice...)
(Betcha didn't know I can speak as well as write Tagalog. Shit, I even know the old way to write in Tagalog. I know how to use all of the characters. Anyway, if you don't understand the currents, tough rice...)
I never really thanked anyone for accepting me. When I was younger, I always struggled to find myself and who my friends were. I was always the guy in the middle or that familiar face to someone, never a friend. Thanks for accepting me and my "eccentric" ways. You all taught me that being myself is the best way to be. I grew to understand myself and better my realtionships with my friends...new and old. God sent angels on earth to remind me that I was special and that He has a plan for me. To this day, I watch His plan unfold before my eyes and I certainly like what I see. I honestly don't know what lies ahead, but friends like you ease the anxiety. I thank you and thank God that I'm so blessed with such friendships. I feel accepted and wanted by everyone. My confidence in myself is never comprimised. Thank you for looking beyond the exterior and giving me a chance to express my true self to all of you...no matter how different I am, you've embraced me. I thank you with my every fiber of my being.
I was looking through the pictures from the Saint Dominic's Fiesta and I just realized that I missed the good stuff. Stupid work...>=\
Sunday, October 14, 2001
Okay, so my last post wasn't exactly detailed. Gimme a break! I was fried.
Anyway, last night after the fiesta, I kept thinking about little pre-pubic 7th and 8th graders thinking that they're so hard. Why are there little girls parading around in backless tops and super low-hip jeans? Why are there little wannabe thugs thinking that they're so hard RIDING in a car that belongs to an older "homie." These voices aren't even deep enough to swear. Yet they swear more than I do. I hate the fact that they have to "start shit" with other people because they're so damn hard. They care about what other people think because they probably can't think for themselves. Okay, maybe I've been in that stage for a little bit. I learned how dumb I was trying to impress people. I found out that they don't really notice or even care. Being flashy only gets you a "Wow!" Anybody remember that from gospelite? heh heh. I do.
Enough of an annoyed Mark, no one likes a meanie-face. Moving on...
Ariel and I sat and talked about an idea that we hope materializes. He stumbled upon the notion that we should have an Saint Dom's Youth formal. How often can us leaders dress up and be bling-bling for a night? Keep in mind it's just an idea for now. Since we're on the subject of SDYM, my bloggerific life might be hosted at sdym.org! What better place to be hosted by other than your own church? (needless to say that www.ravedigital.com or www.freeq.org are bad places...) I'll keep you posted when the move comes about.
Oh, I helped my fellow leader and good buddy, Gail put up her blog. Be sure to visit her.
My mind has been emptied out. It doesn't take much does it? heh heh. Hopefully a thought might pop up later. Until then, sign the guestbook! (i'm thinking about changing it though...500 characters isn't enough...bleh)
Anyway, last night after the fiesta, I kept thinking about little pre-pubic 7th and 8th graders thinking that they're so hard. Why are there little girls parading around in backless tops and super low-hip jeans? Why are there little wannabe thugs thinking that they're so hard RIDING in a car that belongs to an older "homie." These voices aren't even deep enough to swear. Yet they swear more than I do. I hate the fact that they have to "start shit" with other people because they're so damn hard. They care about what other people think because they probably can't think for themselves. Okay, maybe I've been in that stage for a little bit. I learned how dumb I was trying to impress people. I found out that they don't really notice or even care. Being flashy only gets you a "Wow!" Anybody remember that from gospelite? heh heh. I do.
Enough of an annoyed Mark, no one likes a meanie-face. Moving on...
Ariel and I sat and talked about an idea that we hope materializes. He stumbled upon the notion that we should have an Saint Dom's Youth formal. How often can us leaders dress up and be bling-bling for a night? Keep in mind it's just an idea for now. Since we're on the subject of SDYM, my bloggerific life might be hosted at sdym.org! What better place to be hosted by other than your own church? (needless to say that www.ravedigital.com or www.freeq.org are bad places...) I'll keep you posted when the move comes about.
Oh, I helped my fellow leader and good buddy, Gail put up her blog. Be sure to visit her.
My mind has been emptied out. It doesn't take much does it? heh heh. Hopefully a thought might pop up later. Until then, sign the guestbook! (i'm thinking about changing it though...500 characters isn't enough...bleh)
Saturday, October 13, 2001
Theresa, I think your zine is chock-full of awesome. I feel compelled to share that article with my Asian Am class, if you don't mind.
If you didn't get Theresa's zine, Girls Are Weird #3, you are missing out. I haven't read the whole thing but there was one piece that I really liked. "CULTURE SHOCKKKER" explains the standards and politics of being an asian. It spoke to me because I still live with the struggle of having the total respect of being Asian.
Imagine what people of color deal with. One would either not relate to their own heritage, or not in tune with American culture. What the fuck is that? Okay, you're proud to be asian...I've seen "hardcore" little teeny-boppers claiming their pride. Good for those ignorant, forsaken people. They don't even know what they're proud of. They're making the rest of us look stupid in the process. Remember that God awful rap that some random moron made? Forgive me if this isn't accurate. (note the sarcasm)
"Asian pride bitch!" SHHHHHHUT UP! Sure. They're so proud that they can't even understand the native language. They're so proud that they can't stomach the cuisine. They're so proud that need to alter their image so they don't look Asian. They're so proud that they slander and beat down different denominations of Asians. Some pride huh? We, as a collective culture, should share the common ground we hold. Why not display our backgrounds and educate other people about our culture and history? That's what true pride is. Embrace the culture you have while educating and embracing the culture of others. Got rice? Sure I do, but at least I'm willing to share it.
I'd appreciate if everyone stopped expecting me to be so god damn Filipino. With culture, you never win. You're either too whitewashed, too FOB wannabe, or too apathetic.
Imagine what people of color deal with. One would either not relate to their own heritage, or not in tune with American culture. What the fuck is that? Okay, you're proud to be asian...I've seen "hardcore" little teeny-boppers claiming their pride. Good for those ignorant, forsaken people. They don't even know what they're proud of. They're making the rest of us look stupid in the process. Remember that God awful rap that some random moron made? Forgive me if this isn't accurate. (note the sarcasm)
Got rice, bitch...got rice? Got girls, got cars, got spice? Got cars like us, got girls like us?
"Asian pride bitch!" SHHHHHHUT UP! Sure. They're so proud that they can't even understand the native language. They're so proud that they can't stomach the cuisine. They're so proud that need to alter their image so they don't look Asian. They're so proud that they slander and beat down different denominations of Asians. Some pride huh? We, as a collective culture, should share the common ground we hold. Why not display our backgrounds and educate other people about our culture and history? That's what true pride is. Embrace the culture you have while educating and embracing the culture of others. Got rice? Sure I do, but at least I'm willing to share it.
i received an email and found it quite random. Not threatening, but random. It's not like that I'm going to blab this, but something really stuck out to me.
One big idea is FELLOWSHIP. If there is a bond among the members, it will spark activity. If there is activity, it will arouse curiousity. Curiousity will get others to join. Find out what makes the ministry unappealing and fix it accordingly. Obviously, one doesn't give in to ALL of the demands or it won't be a youth ministry at all. You should reach out and try to get members. Keep in mind that it is better to have few loyal actives, than having numerous members who are in the ministry in vein. BUT (and this is a BIG but), remember that you can lure em in, and HOOK...LINE...& SINKER. In other words, some of those "bad apples" may realize that being in the ministry may be fullfiling. It's kind of difficult to try and understand and exaplin all of the insights that go into my ministry. This is all that I can say: May God give you his grace.
You're a Youth Leader in a Youth Ministry??? Because I'm a Youth Leader in A struggling Youth Ministry. It's just so disheartening sometimes, but i refuse to be apathetic and just give up on these kids...if you have anything enlightening you want to share about that. PLEASE!!!!! FEEL FREE!!!
One big idea is FELLOWSHIP. If there is a bond among the members, it will spark activity. If there is activity, it will arouse curiousity. Curiousity will get others to join. Find out what makes the ministry unappealing and fix it accordingly. Obviously, one doesn't give in to ALL of the demands or it won't be a youth ministry at all. You should reach out and try to get members. Keep in mind that it is better to have few loyal actives, than having numerous members who are in the ministry in vein. BUT (and this is a BIG but), remember that you can lure em in, and HOOK...LINE...& SINKER. In other words, some of those "bad apples" may realize that being in the ministry may be fullfiling. It's kind of difficult to try and understand and exaplin all of the insights that go into my ministry. This is all that I can say: May God give you his grace.
Friday, October 12, 2001
I just realized that the Saint Dominic's Parish Fiesta starts today. That means I have to work the Youth Ministry booth for a little bit. Anyone who's in the area...COME AND VISIT! I've been looking forward to this event for a while now. Finally some good, clean fun.
Sam just discovered a web cam...
Theresa, I finally got the time to fully absorb your zine. Feedback is just around the bend.
Ate Daph, as soon as I'm back from the fiesta, I'll set up some links and a guestbook for you. Sorry for the lagging. My tests are done for now. LOVE YAH! =)
Dave, I'll be making a donation sometime this week or next week. heh heh.
Aileen & Chriselle, I'm missing my two bestest friends!
Okay, that's enough advertising for now. I'm stank...time to jump in the shower.
Sam just discovered a web cam...
Theresa, I finally got the time to fully absorb your zine. Feedback is just around the bend.
Ate Daph, as soon as I'm back from the fiesta, I'll set up some links and a guestbook for you. Sorry for the lagging. My tests are done for now. LOVE YAH! =)
Dave, I'll be making a donation sometime this week or next week. heh heh.
Aileen & Chriselle, I'm missing my two bestest friends!
Okay, that's enough advertising for now. I'm stank...time to jump in the shower.
Wow, notice the time! I'm up early...well, I was up like 2 hours ago. Anyway, boba is popping up EVERYWHERE. I just found out that there's Lollicup right behind the campus. There's also a Tapioca express poppin up across the street from the campus. Boba's everywhere all of a sudden. Oh well, more hang outs for Mark in between classes. =)
Wednesday, October 10, 2001
Oh, I received Theresa's zine today. I haven't had the chance to absorb it, but from the looks of it, I'm going to enjoy reading it. You're a hell of a lot more creative and articulate than I am. I'll blog some feedback soon. Our paths have yet to cross...
Other people's parents are so sweet. Leo, one of the confirmation students, needed a ride home, and he so happens to live about 15 minutes away. I'd never turn away a request when I can do it. From previous experiences, I know that his parents would fill me up with goodies even if I was full. I told myself that I'd stay at the door and say hi and drive off into the moonlight. Nope. Nice try, Mark. Not that I didn't want to reject any offers or anything like that. I just had to study that's all. Naturally, I wouldn't leave without greeting them first. I came into the house, greeted them and began talking with his parents. I knew that I was going to be there for a while. (DON'T GET ME WRONG! I MEAN ALL OF THIS IN THE BEST WAY POSSIBLE...) I enjoyed conversing with his folks. I felt so spoiled by them. Wow, they shower me with sweets when I take him home. Isn't that so nice? =) Their hospitality blew my mind. They asked me to take a seat and immediately offered a plethra of sugary yummies. So I sat and engaged in meaningful conversation with his parents. I'm not really sure why they insist on treating me so well. It's so humbling to see other people willing to serve me. Anyway, Leo...thanks for the good food and don't EVER hesitate to ask for a ride home whenever you're stranded. You know that if I can, I will. If you're reading this, tell your parents I said thank you for the tarts, cake, and strawberry mochi. I seriously appreciate the Ilao hospitality.
Oh my new room is almost done! All we need to do now is clean & furnish it! Hey R.C. Selle's debut video party?
A question was posed to me today. "Do you feel patriotic?"
I can't say that I am totally calloused to the whole patriotism thing. I am very proud and fortunate to live here. Then again, I'm not going to display flags everywhere and wear red, white & blue everyday. That's not to say I have no pride in my country. The US is providing me with a good home, a great education, countless opportunities, and great friends. I'm not the type to go all willy-nilly with the US pride idea. Sure, I'm proud. I just don't feel the need to go so far to show that I am.
Being a Filipino, this patriotism has a different point of view. Being an asian in general, I feel as if I am welcomed in this country, but it feels like, "I'll let you in, but not all the way in." The culture is just considered as another minority that has been tossed aside. The stereotypes haven't left. I'm not Chinese. I've never eaten a dog. We all DON'T look a like. I don't know karate. I don't race my car. I use a fork and knife. I eat things like burgers and spaghetti too; not just pancit and lumpia. Think about it. Food can be a stereotype also. Why are some people so excited about the food we make? Why are we labeled with it? We have the ability to cook and eat other dishes. I understand that may be "exotic" and delicious, but it's not like I'd go to a white person's house and exclaim, "OH WOW! BURGERS!"
I may be brown, yellow, asian, pacific islander, filipino or whatever, but I'm just as American as the next person. I am proud of that. I'm in this country and I share all of the freedoms and ideals. So don't tell me that "I should go back to my country." I'm already in my country.
I can't say that I am totally calloused to the whole patriotism thing. I am very proud and fortunate to live here. Then again, I'm not going to display flags everywhere and wear red, white & blue everyday. That's not to say I have no pride in my country. The US is providing me with a good home, a great education, countless opportunities, and great friends. I'm not the type to go all willy-nilly with the US pride idea. Sure, I'm proud. I just don't feel the need to go so far to show that I am.
Being a Filipino, this patriotism has a different point of view. Being an asian in general, I feel as if I am welcomed in this country, but it feels like, "I'll let you in, but not all the way in." The culture is just considered as another minority that has been tossed aside. The stereotypes haven't left. I'm not Chinese. I've never eaten a dog. We all DON'T look a like. I don't know karate. I don't race my car. I use a fork and knife. I eat things like burgers and spaghetti too; not just pancit and lumpia. Think about it. Food can be a stereotype also. Why are some people so excited about the food we make? Why are we labeled with it? We have the ability to cook and eat other dishes. I understand that may be "exotic" and delicious, but it's not like I'd go to a white person's house and exclaim, "OH WOW! BURGERS!"
I may be brown, yellow, asian, pacific islander, filipino or whatever, but I'm just as American as the next person. I am proud of that. I'm in this country and I share all of the freedoms and ideals. So don't tell me that "I should go back to my country." I'm already in my country.
Gosh. I miss a few days and a lot has passed me by. First off, HAPPY BIRTHDAY THERESA! I hope you continue to be blessed. Second, Ate Daph I will renovate your site ASAP. I'm sorry for the lagging. I haven't been online for a while. I'm not too sure why this computer stopped seducing me to blog. It's great to be back.
Sunday, October 07, 2001
I was too tired to blog last night. I actually crashed BEFORE the time turned double digits. Anyway, I feel really relieved to find out that my unlce is okay. My parents said that he had a kidney transplant and that he's still recovering. We visited him at the UCLA Medical Plaza and he was doing fine. There's no doubt in my mind that everything will be back to normal. Keep him in your prayers.
Saturday, October 06, 2001
Once again, I've experienced another "remember when?" type moment...
THETA DELTA BETA ROCKS THE HOUSE!
I've been to frat parties before, but this one took the cake and smashed it. I was afraid that the Theta party might suck like some others that I've been before. I was wrong...SO WRONG.
I already felt VIP-ish since I knew Jonathan and Selle because the Thetas let me in free. We were a little early, but Jon and Selle assured me that things would pick up. They had some Jungle Juice as the feature drink before the kegs arrived. Hey, I drove so I had to be good. I drank fairly light. I wasn't even buzzed for that long. Anyway, Chriselle had to introduce me to all of her friends and even all of the hoochies and the hard looking guys were unbelievably nice. Yes...they were sober. Well, at the time anyway. People were saying "HEY! WHAT'S UP?! HAVING A GOOD TIME? DIDJA GET A DRINK ALREADY?!" I sat down at a random seat and people would politely engage me in meaningful conversation. The vibe was clearly congenial and positive. Jon & Selle introduced me to some of the bros, lil sis's and the pledges. I kept complimenting him how great the party was. I was having a great time. I made a lot of friends tonight.
The atmosphere was comprimised when some dumbass tried to start shit with someone. Naturally, this guy was drunk and being really stupid. I won't get into the details of the scuffle, but I will tell you there was a lot of broken property and cussing. The music faded and people were just talking about what had happened. After about an hour of chillin outside, one of the party people came from the front and calmly said..."COPS!" Three officers stormed into the backyard waving their flashlights and instructed us to leave. Just as the crowd went to the front, there was a fleet of black and whites parked in the front of the house. The cops then demanded us men get on their knees with our hands behind our heads. I freaked out but the guys next to me assured me that if I have nothing to hide, then I have nothing to worry about. The ladies were then checked one by one. One of the officers then told us that there was multiple reports that there were guns at the party and that's why they were being such hardasses. We were all told to get inside the hosue and stay inside while they checked the "suspicious looking" ones. We couldn't really be so loud so we talked among ourselves. I felt really weird about being detained inside the house. I was afraid to find out what was going to happen next. "Maybe they're going to gas us..." (hahaha inside joke) The crowd stayed inside the house trying to make sense out of everything and everyone was comforting each other. I sat down on the floor with some people and conversed with them. We all bonded and told each other that we were going to see each other again.
The cops finally left and we were free to leave the house. Some of us ate out after...but that's a whole other story.
The property was PACKED with people. I've never felt so sociable at frat party before. I felt so welcomed. Everyone was tremendously friendly and it was a pleasure to meet them all. I hope I see them again soon. Jonathan said that the parties are like the way they live...like family. He was right on the money. Great music...great vibe...great people...I swear theta delta beta can sure throw a party. I have friends in UCLA now! GO BRUINS!
I've been to frat parties before, but this one took the cake and smashed it. I was afraid that the Theta party might suck like some others that I've been before. I was wrong...SO WRONG.
I already felt VIP-ish since I knew Jonathan and Selle because the Thetas let me in free. We were a little early, but Jon and Selle assured me that things would pick up. They had some Jungle Juice as the feature drink before the kegs arrived. Hey, I drove so I had to be good. I drank fairly light. I wasn't even buzzed for that long. Anyway, Chriselle had to introduce me to all of her friends and even all of the hoochies and the hard looking guys were unbelievably nice. Yes...they were sober. Well, at the time anyway. People were saying "HEY! WHAT'S UP?! HAVING A GOOD TIME? DIDJA GET A DRINK ALREADY?!" I sat down at a random seat and people would politely engage me in meaningful conversation. The vibe was clearly congenial and positive. Jon & Selle introduced me to some of the bros, lil sis's and the pledges. I kept complimenting him how great the party was. I was having a great time. I made a lot of friends tonight.
The atmosphere was comprimised when some dumbass tried to start shit with someone. Naturally, this guy was drunk and being really stupid. I won't get into the details of the scuffle, but I will tell you there was a lot of broken property and cussing. The music faded and people were just talking about what had happened. After about an hour of chillin outside, one of the party people came from the front and calmly said..."COPS!" Three officers stormed into the backyard waving their flashlights and instructed us to leave. Just as the crowd went to the front, there was a fleet of black and whites parked in the front of the house. The cops then demanded us men get on their knees with our hands behind our heads. I freaked out but the guys next to me assured me that if I have nothing to hide, then I have nothing to worry about. The ladies were then checked one by one. One of the officers then told us that there was multiple reports that there were guns at the party and that's why they were being such hardasses. We were all told to get inside the hosue and stay inside while they checked the "suspicious looking" ones. We couldn't really be so loud so we talked among ourselves. I felt really weird about being detained inside the house. I was afraid to find out what was going to happen next. "Maybe they're going to gas us..." (hahaha inside joke) The crowd stayed inside the house trying to make sense out of everything and everyone was comforting each other. I sat down on the floor with some people and conversed with them. We all bonded and told each other that we were going to see each other again.
The cops finally left and we were free to leave the house. Some of us ate out after...but that's a whole other story.
The property was PACKED with people. I've never felt so sociable at frat party before. I felt so welcomed. Everyone was tremendously friendly and it was a pleasure to meet them all. I hope I see them again soon. Jonathan said that the parties are like the way they live...like family. He was right on the money. Great music...great vibe...great people...I swear theta delta beta can sure throw a party. I have friends in UCLA now! GO BRUINS!
Friday, October 05, 2001
I took this quiz that Dave did. Here are my results:
Yes, I'm well balanced but I have plenty of taste thank-you-very-much!
Wow! You're finished. So here's how you scored:
Goth 40%
Trendy 55%
Alternative 25%
Conclusion: From this, we can tell that you are either a really well-balanced person, or you just have no taste whatsoever.
Yes, I'm well balanced but I have plenty of taste thank-you-very-much!
Thursday, October 04, 2001
I'm glad there's some people that you can count on to save you from the deepest pits of BOREDOM. I called Aileen to verify some plans that some of us made for tomorrow. I caught her chatting with her "twin", Sam. Nice guy might I add. Anyway, I asked if I can stop by. In response to my "self-invitation," she asked if I could deliver some Jack in the Crack. She wasn't serious folks. But I thought that it'd be nice since I'm shopping around for a snack anyway. I brought Moku Sticks before didn't I? =P
Anyway, thanks for letting me crash at your pad, Aileen. I was pretty pissed off earlier and needed to escape. It was fun feeding you anyway. Oh and Sam, I linked you up. Maybe NEXT TIME I'll bring you some sushi.
Anyway, thanks for letting me crash at your pad, Aileen. I was pretty pissed off earlier and needed to escape. It was fun feeding you anyway. Oh and Sam, I linked you up. Maybe NEXT TIME I'll bring you some sushi.
You think you know a person...Tonight during my Asian Am Class, I found out that my professor was a member of Ja'a. Trippy...I mean, if I was a big fan I would have known since day one. I would have never guessed. Anyway, today's topic was on music and I was so inspired by the whole discussion. I realized so many things about myself, my relationships, memories, and many other things...and it was all because of music. "Music brings us to another world, and you can get lost there."
I drove home with an overwhelming sense of inspiration. I sang along with my CD's and couldn't wait to get home to start another 4-day weekend. It's funny how one little annoyance and bring down the mood. I get home and I find that there is NOWHERE to park anywhere near the house and my aunt parked her car in our driveway. I had to park about 1/4 of a block away from the house. I get home and my dad needs to download something off of his e-mail. That task got quite annoying since he kept repeating the SAME mistake and I would tell him the SAME thing. ugh. So I tried to eat my leftovers and relax. I pop it into the nuker and I sit and settle. My aunt then asks me to get a box and carry it to her car. After that, I went back to my styrofoam platter and settled in again. Once again, my dad calls me to help him with the same task that I showed him 4 times and fully explained it. I went back and he just told me to eat. I get back to my food and I had to reheat the damn thing again. For the third time, I settled into my chair and turned on the TV. My sister started annoying me. I grabbed my food, stormed into my room and slammed the door. Obviously, people in the house didn't get the clue. I just gave the evil eye and they just closed the door.
I swear, I thought that I was going to have a great night. I really need something to clear my mind. Yeah sure, I vented but I don't want to be home right now. I want just relax and be selfish for a change.
I drove home with an overwhelming sense of inspiration. I sang along with my CD's and couldn't wait to get home to start another 4-day weekend. It's funny how one little annoyance and bring down the mood. I get home and I find that there is NOWHERE to park anywhere near the house and my aunt parked her car in our driveway. I had to park about 1/4 of a block away from the house. I get home and my dad needs to download something off of his e-mail. That task got quite annoying since he kept repeating the SAME mistake and I would tell him the SAME thing. ugh. So I tried to eat my leftovers and relax. I pop it into the nuker and I sit and settle. My aunt then asks me to get a box and carry it to her car. After that, I went back to my styrofoam platter and settled in again. Once again, my dad calls me to help him with the same task that I showed him 4 times and fully explained it. I went back and he just told me to eat. I get back to my food and I had to reheat the damn thing again. For the third time, I settled into my chair and turned on the TV. My sister started annoying me. I grabbed my food, stormed into my room and slammed the door. Obviously, people in the house didn't get the clue. I just gave the evil eye and they just closed the door.
I swear, I thought that I was going to have a great night. I really need something to clear my mind. Yeah sure, I vented but I don't want to be home right now. I want just relax and be selfish for a change.
Wednesday, October 03, 2001
Tonight was quite full of surprises...
The night I've been waiting for has FINALLY arrived. THE FIRST DAY OF CONFIRMATION YEAR 2 arrived. It was refreshing to see all of my kiddies all together again. They were pretty chatty, but I kinda expected that. I mean, come on, if you haven't seen someone for about a year, you'd want to catch up with them too. As my group began to settle, I was thrown a curve ball. "Can you handle another one?" Ariel asked. A new memeber has joined H.I.S. I was a little worried that he would feel out of place, but he shows lots of promise. I hope he feels welcome in his new home.
In other news...
When I got home, all the cars were parked in their proper place. To my demise, no one was in the house and it seemed "too quiet." I called my dad's cell and the stupid thing started ringing in the house. My sister peeked through the door that lead to the lower level of the house and said, "We stayed quiet, because we thought you were a burglar." Wow...that's a great welcome home phrase. It turns out my dad was installing the new toilet seat in the new bathroom downstairs. "You guys better not pee on this..." my dad mumbled. I rolled my eyes and sarcastically responded, "Yeah, dad...I treat my penis like a garden hose and cover as much ground as possible." My mom just burst into laughter. "Oo nga..." (loosely translated its "for real") It's nice to know that some people think that I have no control over my own bodily functions. Anyway, I'm out to venture out into the wonderful world of Sociology...bleh.
The night I've been waiting for has FINALLY arrived. THE FIRST DAY OF CONFIRMATION YEAR 2 arrived. It was refreshing to see all of my kiddies all together again. They were pretty chatty, but I kinda expected that. I mean, come on, if you haven't seen someone for about a year, you'd want to catch up with them too. As my group began to settle, I was thrown a curve ball. "Can you handle another one?" Ariel asked. A new memeber has joined H.I.S. I was a little worried that he would feel out of place, but he shows lots of promise. I hope he feels welcome in his new home.
In other news...
When I got home, all the cars were parked in their proper place. To my demise, no one was in the house and it seemed "too quiet." I called my dad's cell and the stupid thing started ringing in the house. My sister peeked through the door that lead to the lower level of the house and said, "We stayed quiet, because we thought you were a burglar." Wow...that's a great welcome home phrase. It turns out my dad was installing the new toilet seat in the new bathroom downstairs. "You guys better not pee on this..." my dad mumbled. I rolled my eyes and sarcastically responded, "Yeah, dad...I treat my penis like a garden hose and cover as much ground as possible." My mom just burst into laughter. "Oo nga..." (loosely translated its "for real") It's nice to know that some people think that I have no control over my own bodily functions. Anyway, I'm out to venture out into the wonderful world of Sociology...bleh.
I can't believe I just found myself with absolutely nothing to do. I ran all of my errannds, bought myself lunch at Tommy's and got a haircut in about 2 1/2 hours. I feel very productive today. So productive in fact, I've done everything so efficiently that I managed to have quite a bit of free time. My mood is still climbing and I'm sure that things are getting better. Despite the fact the barber fucked up my hair my day has been very good to me.
I sent my order to Theresa for her zine. I'm looking forward to getting it soon. =)
heh heh -_-;
Sorry this entry wasn't really worth reading...I'm just trying to find a way to kill some more time. I'll blog more when I get back from confirmation tonight.
I sent my order to Theresa for her zine. I'm looking forward to getting it soon. =)
heh heh -_-;
Sorry this entry wasn't really worth reading...I'm just trying to find a way to kill some more time. I'll blog more when I get back from confirmation tonight.
The main bathroom has been destroyed. Well, it was intentionally dilapidated. The home improvements continue in the Kaiklian home. The lower room just needs to be cleaned up a little bit and the bathroom is complete. This sunday, we'll be going to IKEA to furnish the new place. Noises of construction have flooded the house so much it seems so pedestrian already. Anyway, I think I'm going to need a haircut and run some errands. It's kind of hot but nice nonetheless. Mark's gray skies have cleared up.
I found solace in my friends last night. Going to the SDYM forums made me realize that I have plenty to be grateful for. Just reading some of the posts motivated me to perservere and "toe" keep a cool head. I could feel the excitment radiating from everyone. All of the leaders, new and old, are ready to take on the Confirmation program. It's cool that there are other people that really want to make a difference for themselves and other people. As for me, I am going to start my third year in leadership. I'm so psyched to see my students again. I haven't seen some of them since we ended last summer while others I saw on a weekly basis. Either way, I'm looking forward to being with them again. H.I.S. foe life! =)
Tuesday, October 02, 2001
I left all of my screw ups behind me today. I made myself useful and moved my Ate Daphne to Geocities. It took some work to get it done, but it was worth it. I'm going to help her trick that shit OUT! hee hee. I decided to brush off (but learn from) my mistakes from last week.
I'm getting really excited to start confirmation. It's been a year since I've seen my shining stars. I still feel motivated and with the help of my fellow leaders, we can work through the home stretch. I can't wait, my empty voids will be filled VERY soon.
I'm getting really excited to start confirmation. It's been a year since I've seen my shining stars. I still feel motivated and with the help of my fellow leaders, we can work through the home stretch. I can't wait, my empty voids will be filled VERY soon.
I just bombed my Geology exam. Great. School's seriously biting me in the ass. I need to get back in to swing of things so I guess that means that I'm going to have to make a few sacrifices. I haven't decided what those are going to be yet, but don't think that I'm going to hold out on blogging.
Well, I better get back to class. Ever since I missed last thursday things aren't so good anymore.
Well, I better get back to class. Ever since I missed last thursday things aren't so good anymore.
Monday, October 01, 2001
I'm taking a very short and impromptu break from my studying. Tension is running very high in the house right now and I'm getting pretty annoyed by it. You ever have those times where you ACTUALLY want to study, but everyone seems to come together to PISS THE SHIT OUT OF YOU? My sister is being a typical hard-headed 10 year old while my mom is wreaking havoc "trying to get things done." She gets pissed off because I'm not helping her then she gets mad because I should be studying. I'm trying to study for a test that I'm not even sure is going to take place. AND NOW WHILE I TYPE THIS BLOG, THE CONNECTION IS LOST. Craptacular. Nothing is going my way for the moment...NOTHING. God, I'm only halfway done and I'm going mad. Screw studying, I'm taking a load off for now. I'll get back when I feel ready and QUIET!
oh yah...this is LONG OVERDUE...
CONGRATS CHRISELLE! I knew you'd make the choir! You better let us know when your concerts are! YAY! R.C. ROCKS!
~*SIGH*~Isn't she talented?! =)
[hMmmMmM...hey RC sounds like an outing...]
~*SIGH*~Isn't she talented?! =)
[hMmmMmM...hey RC sounds like an outing...]
Ah, the innocence and naivety of young people...HOW ANNNOYING. My little sister's best friend came over today so that can get their little project done. It seemed as if the only phrase that could escape her pre-puberty lips were "My cousin liiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiikes you." I rolled my eyes in absolute petulance..."Yah uh huh..." It was cute for the first 15 times, but enough was enough. I know she must've embarassed my little sis, so I'm not really gonna talk about it. **sigh** Perfect. I come home for a sanctuary from annoying people...and this is what I get. ~*rolling eyes*~
Chriselle was home for the weekend and I was fortunate enough to get to hang out with her today. She asked Jobie and I to go shopping with her. It was quite an adventure. hee hee...She got some pretty fly stuff and Jobie and I got some things for ourselves. Anyway, I finally got that blinky-battery thing. I'm satisfied with my phone. NO MORE LIGHT-UP, BLINKY THINGS FOR MY PHONE FOR MARK.
I got a phone call from my Ate Daph earlier tonight. It was nice to to hear from her instead of reading her blog. It was refreshing to hear her voice. We got to exchange our juicy tidbits and we're so excited about the upcoming debut in November. I swear, the debuts never end!
I got a phone call from my Ate Daph earlier tonight. It was nice to to hear from her instead of reading her blog. It was refreshing to hear her voice. We got to exchange our juicy tidbits and we're so excited about the upcoming debut in November. I swear, the debuts never end!
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