I ended up cutting all of my hair off just because I was upset.

And I'm actually very happy with my impulsive purchase.

ha.

Yes. I got a sidekick...and YES it was a really impulsive purchase on my part...but I'm happy.

So I've been told that I "act" gay or that I can be "too gay" at times.

I can't help but be pretty damn offended by someone saying that to me. So, you're telling me to NOT be who I am? Honestly, I don't care if I embarass you. I don't care if I'm just being me.

I am who I am.

If you're embarassed by it...that's not MY problem.

It just goes against everything I fought to be. So someone telling me that I'm "being gay," means I must be doing a good job being who I am.

Burn the Fucking Place DOWN

I had a really bad day after I came home from my Photography final. I wasn't home for me than 15 minutes average before I had to leave. I wanted to get SOME fucking Christmas shopping done since I hardly get the chance to do it. The semester ended really late so I have no free time.

Arnell had asked me for a HUGE favor. I didn't get to sleep at all the night before and I wasn't going to get a nap before work. I spent almost 2 hours just DRIVING back and forth to Cedar Sinai. I have 25 minutes to get ready and I go to work.

Work was HELL. Being the last days before Christmas, the mall gets crazy and so do the shoppers. The store was a wreck by the end of the night...We stay until midnight to clean and the best thing happened. A screw is blocking the grill so now I can't close the store. I end up staying until about 1:05 am. Now, keep in mind I have to open again at 6am.

So, the stupid shuttle took forever and I had to call mall security to get those lazy fucks out to get me. They do a few extra detours because all of the other shuttles were stupid. Here's the icing on the cake: On the way home, the connector to the 2 freeway was CLOSED. I had to drive close to DTLA and swing back to get home.

FUCK ME.


UGH.Now I can sleep for 20 minutes, get up and go to fucking work again.

I'm about to fucking kill someone.

Bad Hair Day but Great School Day

Okay, so I'm totally not feeling the hair today, but whatever.

School was really nice to me today. I thought I got a B on my Exam for Art History but it turns out I got a 94%. I also spoke to an advisor today and I can graduate as soon as Fall 2007 or if I decide to just stay on a steady pace, I'll graduate Spring of 2008...but I won't have to take many classes.

We'll see. I really want to just finish already. I'm WAYYYYYYY ovderdue.

Yeah, I'm happy. =)

Yeah, Carpe Diem...HELL...Carpe Noctem too.

I'm gonna go for it. It's not that bad.

It's a good thing I am an experienced eBay member. I almost got taken for a ride.

How am I going to pull off Christmas this year?! ugh.

Money is a definate problem.

I gotta believe and budget. dengit.

SELF Portrait

This piece was kind of a difficult one to put together. It was a reflection of who I am everyday, the kind of person I believe I am, and also the demons I face. It wasn't the best photo I've taken but it's me...that's all I can be.

"Morning Insecurities"
a self portrait


I feel the most insecure when I am getting ready for my day. I am hardly content with who I am as a whole. I have to tell myself that I am not those things I see, because no one seems to see it besides me. I have image issues. I have so many things I'm not exactly content with...but it's who I am.

"Labeled"
an abstract self portrait



Personality-wise, I feel like I'm a pair of jeans. Most people like them. They mesh well with almost everything. Jeans also can reflect a mood and feel, depending on how they fit. My moods are always different and so are the jeans I own.

This is who I am...
This is what I see...

Good Art is Contraversial

Being an artist, I tend to express myself through a given medium. This semester, I have had the opportunity to share my vision. I wanted to express who I am and how I feel. My final for photo took me to a level where some could very well feel intimidated, uncomfortable or unsure about my art. The photo speaks for itself.



Now before you get up in arms, please note that Arnell was fully aware of this assignment. In fact, he was the one who suggested the model for this shoot. It was originally meant for a different assignment, but I thought the photo would be more powerful as a part of my final project.

I'd rather not go into the meaning of this photo, but I will say that I am purposely attempting to get a reaction out of people. I don't mean to offend anyone as it's just my self-expression.