I'll get to posting in a few days...

I have a scrapbook to put together.

Home soon...BYE

GREETINGS FROM DOWNTOWN TORONTO!

So far it's day two of my trip and it turns out that there's a FREE internet cafe in the exhibition center! I've been having a great trip so far. We even got to hit up Square One...a 350 store mall! With the exchnage rate being great in my favor, you KNOW that I went buck wild. I just hope that I have enough luggage room for it all..hahaha. It's weird here too...it's just like California but unfortunately I have to utilize public transportation. Hey, you gotta do something new once in a while It's free for me because as a WYD 2002 member. I'm LEGAL here...kinda nice, huh? Yes, I did take advantage of it. By the way, the people are VERY hospitable and quite affable here.

Well, it's safe to say that all of my woes left when we took off for Canada. I really miss home.

I thought I'd say goodbye now since I have some down time. My bags are all packed and waiting to be thrown in the trunk. I'm gonna miss a lot of people and HOME especially. Take care and pray that I will have a safe and fun trip.

I got to see my best friend today and that made me feel better. I'm also glad that I called you. I promise we'll go out when we get back...maybe even go to the PRICE is RIGHT. Oh I'm really glad you called me earlier today...I'm glad I'm not the only one who feels this way.

I'm still unsure how I feel right now but I hope that all this anxiety leaves when I do. I love you all.

**...stupid sunless tanning spray....**

Oh yeah...for those who are keeping score...I colored my hair with a really light blonde so it's now a really light brown.

It's good to be home again...

I'm leaving tomorrow and I am all ready to go. heh...I guess the novelty of waiting has kinda worn out. I guess it'll sink in when I get to the airport. I'm actually brimming with so many different emotions right now...both good and bad. I've never been this far away from home without my family before. It's weird...I'm getting homesick already and I haven't even left. It feels weird to pack up a lot of stuff and not be home for more than a weekend. I guess I dunno what to say, but I'm glad to be home again...

good night...

**Farewell to Mr. Will Farrow!**

I'm doing my laundry and so I thought that this would be an ideal time to catch up.

Just to let you know, I still hate my camera but I'm going to bring it to Toronto. I'm just going to buy a bigger memory card so I can get more out of it. I can't believe that I'm leaving for Toronto in 5 days! Isn't that keen?! Anyway, there are a few faces that want to see before I go, but there's one person I was talking to that I haven't seen in a while.

The house is going to get fumigated and I have to pack for that too. Shit...you'd think with all the shopping that I do, I'd have enough to last a week a another country. I need to buy some pants but I'm thinking that I have the resources. Actually, the issue is if I want to utilize my resources...although not in abundance. heh.

Kris and I had a great Tennis session tonight. We actually were much more consistent than usual. I mean, we're pretty decent but I mean, there was some energy flying. At the risk of bragging, I was able to beat Kris with my abnormally consistent playing. Read him up if you want to know what went down.

Gosh I have so much to do before I leave...

Crap...I had so much to say earlier.

Insomnia's a BITCH!

I thought I'd share what I had been debating over during my vacation. I'm thinking about getting a new and BETTER digital camera for myself, instead of a laptop. My current camera is really getting on my nerves. I took over 132 shots during my Vegas trip and none of them can be uploaded. I've tried everything and I've been trying to get them out of that stupid memory card. Kodak may be able to print some great pictures but their digi cams suck.

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Meanwhile...back at the ranch...

I noticed how I've missed so much from you guys in the past week. I'm sure that won't be able to see any of you until Sunday. I miss all of my different circle of friends. I often wonder if they think of my as much as I think of them. I've been pretty busy this month and I'm thinking about spending some time with those whom I haven't seen in a while. I'm always on the go...and the sad part it's not usually for my own benefit. (not that I'm complaining)

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Happy Birthday Martin!
I wish that I was there with the RC.

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I'll change the window of destiny as soon as I can get those damn pictures out of my craptacular camera.

I'm still so busy with all of these events.. It turns out that I didn't go to Universal today. I was WAY too tired to do anything after Disneyland.; which brings me to my next thought...

Damn you Walt!

That place worked its magic on me again. There's something about Disneyland that awakens my sense of self and life. I felt like a kid; excited and full of wonder and amazment. Even though I didn't really do anything that I wanted to do I still managed to have a good time. To top it all off, the fireworks and FANTASMIC sealed my child-like state. There's nothing like a well choreographed fireworks show to make me feel all warm inside. Oh, Fantasmic is the ONLY theme park show that I'll ever watch. I've seen it at least 5 times and it never fails to entertain.

Have you ever felt that way? Have you experienced the Disney magic that makes you feel like you have the greatest imagination? Have you ever spent so much money just so you can take home what you felt? Hahaha I did. I ended up buying the "Aloha Stitch" Interactive toy. It's so cute! Me? Obsessed? Well, more like smitten by the Magic Man and HIS imagination.

I gotta go. I actually still have guests over. Hmmm...what did you say Stitch?

It's good to be home.

I'm only halfway done with this eventful week. Tomorrow is Disneyland and thursday we're going to Universal Studios. Damn, before I know it I'll be fidgeting on that plane to Toronto.

I don't want to hear people complaining about the heat here. Vegas had a high of about 110-120 degrees and at night it was 100 degrees and humid as hell. I've never appreciated a/c THAT much...ever.

I'll change the currents...eventually.

LOOK IM UP EARLY! I'll see you on Tuesday or Wednesday.

It's funny how the people you miss always seem to come back into your life and make you forget that you were ever apart.

I hate it when I don't know what to say to make someone feel better. I mean, I'm pretty aware that all I really need to do is listen but I wish that there was some sort of universal truth that would make the yuckies go away. Someone is hurting right now and it's the last person who deserves it. I will pray for you and if you need anything I'll try my best to deliver. Never think that you're alone. Pray and don't heave around that heavy heart...offer it up.

"We are who we are...even though sometimes we may forget."

I just realized that my blog will be a year old in a little less than two weeks.

Another year of independance for the greatest country on earth...

I actually picked up a shift for tonight. This year, I don't really have any plans to party, so I thought that I'd cover for someone who did. Rumor has it that we're going to close the restaurant early. Either way, it's a little extra money that I can use for Vegas this weekend. Damn all of these sudden expenses right before my big trip.

I'm kinda sad that Gail is saying that she's not all that hyped for the trip. Then again, she does have bigger plans than I do. I just hope that she has a good time nonetheless. Between you and me, I'm really glad that she's going.

Thanks for the kind compliments on my sketch...heh. Sometimes I to fish for compliments just for my own edification. heh heh. Actually, I'm surprised that I still have something left when it comes to drawing. I just thought that I'd display it since I'm not really going to bring it with me everywhere I go. haha

Oh and Daph, I'll definately bring you back something Toronto-ish.

Today was one of the most relaxing days I've had for a while. Today I got to see Gail and Kris.

Oh...I'm not going to Disneyland tomorrow, it's NEXT week. heh.

In other news, I've rekindled my interest in drawing. I don't think that I'm all that great at it but it's so theraputic to me. My latest craze is Lilo & Stitch and I haven't been this obsessed with a movie since MIB came out for the first time.

Here's the latest thing I've done:



What do you think?

I've been neglecting this blog and the race lately. I've been involved in so much this past weekend and today is just my day to chill and relax.

The very end of June and this coming July looks to be a very active one for me. Let's see, what have I done...The luau passed last weekend. I finally went to magic for the first time in a couple of years last week. I'm actually going to Disneyland tomorrow and I'm going to Vegas next week and a week and a half later, I'm off to Canada. Whew! Just the thought of all of this traveling is tiring me out.

The only thing that would make this summer complete is a road trip up north. I'd love to see my family up there.

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I'm feeling uneasy and perplexed by something. Heh, I'm not at liberty to elaborate on that, but it's not like it's dragging me down. It's just there's a lot on my mind and there are a lot of things that I want from life and right now I don't really have the resources to get what I want. At times, I'm not even sure what I want. Last night during dinner Patricia was talking about how some people are so in to helping people that they don't know how to help themselves. Sometimes I feel that way.

One of my best friends was talking about the future, I think her explanation was pretty accurate...

The future is a complex thing. So uncertain, so cloudy yet so hopeful and appealing. It's so inviting but somehow you can never reach it. The future is inevitable. It can't be stopped. It moves without moving. It hangs in the distance playing with our expectations, our imagination and our dreams. Its an observer. Never quick to take action, never kind to give advice.

Well, that's my deep cognitive crap for the day...