I'm going to make the Weapon of Choice a habit now. haha. THANKS RJ! You rock.

lupe is so fucken rad! haha

After talking to you, you reminded me that maybe things aren't so bad after all...

good night.

cool...

I dedicate this one to my brother...ha.

I did a lot of thinking today, since I was too fumed to listen to music driving home from my messed up day.

Why do I put so much into something even when the end result is a swift kick in my ass? I don't deserve to be disrespected. No one does. I've been put in the back burner so many times in my life and most of the time, I sit there and crisp. Why? I try so hard for some people. I try so hard for myself...but I always fall short. Why? I haven't been satisfied with myself lately...on so many levels. Why? It's not fair that some people don't recognize the real goodness in someone. It's not fair that some people don't step outside of themselves to notice what damage they are doing. It's not fair that other people have what I want. It's not fair that I don't get the answers I'm looking for. It's not fair...

I'd like to give a few people a swift kick in the ass myself. But, unlike them, I know that no good would come out of it....but it would make me feel a lot better.

I'd like to think that I'm a caring and giving person. Unfortunately, some people take advantage of that. I'm tired of being stepped on. I'm tired of being overlooked. A good friend once told me, "It's great that you are a giver, but sometimes we have to take too. By learning to be a good and humble taker, it will in turn make us better givers."

It's time to stand up and take what's rightfully yours, Mark.

Fuck it.
Since we're on the subject, fuck YOU too...

I deleted that last post. No point to keeping it and no point to dwelling on it.

Still pretty annoyed though...

I just got home from another "guys night out" with the grade school chums. Man, our antics just get more "creative" as we get older. I hope we chill again. haha.

Why is gambling WAY more fun when it's illegal?

Shit, perhaps I've said too much already. hahaha. Goodnight.

Yet another good conversation with you. haha.

"Friends are cool" ~ Monica

My AIM profile:

It's a good thing love is blind. Otherwise, I might think you're the ugliest motherfucker I've ever laid eyes on.

-me

I have no idea where that came from.

Okay...time to hit the hay. *yawn* goodnight.

Spent some quality time with Leo again today. That guy is seriously one of my best friends. haha. Paper helicopters are fun...

We went to go see a movie tonight...for kicks. Better Luck Tomorrow was a really good movie. I suggest you see it if you haven't already.

After seeing it...it made me reflect on my own demons and dark secrets that I hold inside. We all decide on what we want to do in life. We are in total control of the outcome. There is no "cycle" if we control ourselves. We are constantly teaching lessons as well as learning them. If you see the movie, you'll know what I mean. Maybe you'll get your "wake up call."

"It's funny how we make a decision that leads to another decision. After awhile we look back and wonder why we made that decision in the first place."

- Stephanie

It's funny how we get a little inspiration when we least expect it. I have a good idea of how I want to change this bad boy. haha.

I'll keep it simple. I always do.

It won't be so dark. promise...haha

Today was fun. That's all I gotta say about that.

Wow...I made a killing at the Wherehouse...now that they're closing. I ended up getting 5 CDs and a little something for my sister for about 19 bucks.

1. Joy Enriquez - (self titled album)
2. Denials, Dellusions and Decisions - Jaguar Wright
3. Sooner or Later - BB Mak
4. Floetic - Floetry
5. Born to Reign - Will Smith

haha. I know not all of them are the coolest titles...but for $3.60 they are the greatest albums made as far as I'm concerned...haha

Ugh...I can't sleep.

Today felt a little empty. There was something lacking today. I'm not too sure what it is. I mean, sure... we didn't go to Denny's tonight, but that's not really what's bugging me. There's a little void inside that I don't know what to fill it with. I'm not sad. I'm not upset. Just...empty.

I just don't get some people. meh. You know what I mean...

My DSL has a mind of its own again. I've never had a problem with the service until now. muh. Go fig.

Gosh, I feel like I have so much to say...but I can't put it into words. There are so many thoughts, but none of them can really adhere. Screw it. The end of the week is almost here. Let's ride this out.

You remind me that I do have great friends. It's always fun to just talk about random things...even if you're 400 miles away.

OMG! Did you just see Lana kick the crap out of that guy?! That was badass!

HAHAHAHA. Spontaneously combusting Corn Flakes. Gotta love it.

My DSL finally works! Stupid thing...

So, I bought Thankful by Kelly Clarkson on the way home. The CD really shows how versatile she is as an artist. I look forward to more upbeat songs and new albums in the future. It's not a bad buy. I thought it was worth the effort to get it.

I'm more relaxed now than I was during break. I have no more exams to worry about until finals.

No one is home yet but at least I still have some alone time to take a nap. heh...

In the midst of my pissing and moaning...I neglected to tell you about my super-gunman-ish fun I had on last weekend with my brother and little sis. Read his blog...It's all there. Trust me. haha. You just had to be there.

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Thankful by Kelly Clarkson

You know my soul
You know everything about me there’s to know
You know my heart
How to make me stop and how to make me go
You should know
I love everything about you
Don’t you know

That I’m thankful
For the blessings and the lessons
That I’ve learned with you by my side
That I’m thankful
For the love that you
Keep bringing in my life
In my life

You know my thoughts
Before I open up my mouth and try to speak
You know my dreams
Must be listening when I’m talking in my sleep
I hope you know
I love hating you around me
Don’t you know

Chorus

For the lessons that, that I’ve learned
From the troubles I’ve known
For the heartache and pain
Thrown in my way
When I didn’t think that I could go on but you made me feel strong
With you I am never alone

Chorus

I'm on campus right now and I'm pretty dissapointed with my performance in my Art 110 exam. I studied....OH GOD did I study. The thing is that there were two main ideas that the exam was hitting on: Greek and Roman art. I studied 80% greek and 20% Roman. Here's the the kicker...the test was 75% Roman. I got screwed. I was robbed. sucks.

My DSL is being totally stupid again. It's not connecting and this is the second day in a row. It sucks even more since there wasn't anyone home either. WTF was I supposed to do with NO internet and NO money? blah...

It sucks I tells yah...it just plain sucks.

I scored 74% on the classic 400 Point Purity Test!

Take the test here!

I wonder where the 26% went. >=)

Worst. Easter. Ever.

Easter joy? None here.

This is the first time in 20 years that we did not do anything as a family. It's killing me.

Today, the household left for San Diego and my brother, sister-in-law, and nephew went home. I've been left to be home alone until tuesday. Great. I have been cleaning and doing laundry all day long. I'm lonely and broke. Today wasn't a very pleasant day either. I was late for choir this morning only because some dumbass wouldn't back his shitty car up so I could leave the parking lot. The DSL wasn't working all day. A bag was stuck to the front of my car on the freeway...which was quite embarassing. Today will probably be the only day I can study for my hard ass Art History Exam but I refuse to study. I'm in no mood to study.

I don't want to hear crap that I have to be happy because it's Easter. I know the central truth that's being celebrated. I didn't take that out of consideration.

grrrrrrr.....This is the tragic end to my spring break.

Aww, I love my mom. She bought me some fish n' chips from Jack in the Box. Yay...thanks mom.

I'm watching this episode of Oprah and it's about life lessons. Yeah, Yeah, Yeah...so what? Oprah...

It doesnt matter what other people think of you. There's no need to impress them. People already know you.

It's okay to be yourself and to have a sense of humor about yourself.

Love isn't always so serious. It can be kinda fun too.

Life is just one big, constant discovery.

The secret to getting the girl/guy is to just be nice. Sure looks attract...but what will get them to stay?

There are so many other ideas but I can't even think of them all. heh. Okay...I gotta keep cleaning.

Scott Aidan - An amalgamation of intelligence, humor, beauty, & spirit. He comes from a mother who is intelliegent, imaginative, beautiful, and strongwilled. He comes from a father who is humorous, spiritual, open-minded, and patient. There is no question of this child's character. There is no doubt of his fruitful future...only hope. Although I've witnessed his existence twice before, I know who I'm dealing with. His parents are witnesses to God's power and love. Scott's "finicky" mannerisms only validate that he is strong and knows what he wants. His quiet nature; a reflection of his patience. It is obvious there is still a world of understanding that he must go through...but for now he is way ahead of his time. We will not know his capabilities as a person just yet, but we all know that it's nothing to really worry about. He is fortunate for having a strong support structure. I am fortunate to be allowed to be a part of his life.

I ran my errands today. I have some plans tonight. I need to start studying. I need to start cleaning up. haha.

Man, I think I needed some random day like this to relax. It was nice to have a Wednesday night off for once. It was refreshing to hang out with a different crowd for the day...

Trich, Kristine, Judy, Leo, and I decided to hit up City Walk to see what was over there (as if we've never been there). We got there and didn't even know what to do first. We wandered our way into stores and appreciated the scenery, but that didn't last too long though. LOL. We decided to milk the parking for what it was worth so we wandered the place over and over again just to see if we missed anything. We found our way to the gate of the Universal Studios front gate where we were greeted by Wolverine, Dare Devil, & Storm. We rubbed elbows with the local superheroes and took pictures and again we found ourselves with nothing to do. We were all a little fried from walking so we decided to sit in front of the super big screen. It was playing all of these music videos. Kristine dared us to dance in the middle of the circle. Of course, Leo and I took that offer. hahahaha. We sat and watched music videos and waited for a dance worthy video to come up. A Miss Dynamite video came up and we busted our nuts. Leo started to break and I just started doing my thing. LOL. Before we knew it, we had a small crowd watching us. It was cool. Some guy almost gave Leo a quarter. hahaha. After a long day of shopping and loitering, we finally worked up the appetite to leave. We had to go the long way home for 2 reasons. (1) The traffic was HORRIBLE and (2) we needed time to decide where to eat. Lo and behold, boba prevailed. We ended up going to the all-too-famous boba/noodle world in Old Town. Good company, good talks, good eats...what else could we want? Obviously, there was something missing, but that wasn't really in our control. *ahem* Despite that, we filled up on some Asian food and boba.

Don't even get me started with all the inside jokes we all have now. I will NEVER hear Journey to the Past the same EVER again. hahaha. SPIRIT FINGERS DAMN YOU! hahaha, I digress... anyway...it was cool to finally spend some time with them. I think we needed that. heh. They know what I mean.

After taking them home, I found myself at Leo's once again. No not the taco truck, but my buddy's house. We chatted with the parentals and watched 8 mile. Dope movie. I'm going to watch it again. ha. Leo and I have good talks...no doubt.

So that was my day today. I had a great time with some new people and made up for lost time at the retreat with Kristine. Do this again? Hell yah...


Are we there yet?!??!

Lupe is cool. Milk is not.

Check him out. He's one of the cool people from my retreat group.

You guys think its time for a new layout?

This whole dark thing is really nice...but I feel something fun again. What do you think? Any ideas? Should I keep it?!?

USE MY COMMENTS PEOPLE!!!

I cleared out a few links. They are either dead links or just needed to clear up the ones I didn't really read.

It felt a little weird to be a guest in the second year retreat. I came in with no expectations, no hopes, or goals. I was asked to give a sharing. I thought that my contributions in this retreat would be minimal to none. I didn't know most of the students. I thought I would be alienated completely.

The first night I was asked to sit with Tanya's group since she was going to come up late. They made me feel very welcome by just talking to me. I wasn't able to stay with them long since I was asked to take care of other students. These students came from other churches and they missed their own retreat. Samantha, Alfredo, Jairo, & Lupe. They really made a big difference in the retreat for me. We were a group for the whole retreat. They were telling me how different it is with their parishes. They were able to freely express themselves and open up to me. The five of us bonded. It's funny how someone can be at the right place at the right time. I love those guys. I'm so glad they accepted me and were open to me. The guys in my cabin really made me feel welcome and I made some real good friends by the time retreat ended.

I gave a talk on saturday night. I didn't expect it to be so impactful. I didn't expect anyone to stay awake. I didn't think anyone would learn anything. I was humbled to learn that many people were affected by it. My heart stopped when I was told that my talk was considered the best of the retreat. Gail was telling me that she was hearing nothing but good things about me. Honestly, I felt the spirit working in me. I felt that I belonged. I felt that I made a difference...even if it was only for that 20 minutes i took the stage. Again, I was humbled to be a part of the retreat. It was an honor to be a part of the retreat and their journeys as Christians.

So what did I talk about? Well, too bad you didnt experience it for yourself but I can recap some important points. Obviously it won't be so meaningful since I'm not delivering the whole thing. hahaha.

As confirmadi, we came to the retreat to find ourselves...both personally and spiritually. We need to be our true selves in order to be true people of God. It's like the idea that you cannot love others if you do not love yourself. We must accept ourselves physically as well as spiritually. God made us...why shouldn't we be happy with ourselves? In order to find yourself...you must BE yourself. Don't be scared to take risks; life is all about trial and error. It's okay to fail. It's okay to be different and unique. No matter how different you think you are, someone will always relate. It's funny how everyone wants to fit in and stand out at the same time, while all we can really do is be ourselves. It's okay to have problems. You may feel alone when you have problems but think about this: "What makes you so DAMN special to be the only one with problems?" There are 7 gifts of the Holy Spirit. What's your strongest? What's your weakest? There is a cycle to knowledge and love. LEARN => KNOW => PRACTICE => TEACH. When we are taught things, we learn them. When we learn them, we practice and apply what we learn. If we practice something well enough, we can teach it others may learn and the cycle continues. We must know our gifts, but why are there so many gifts of the Holy Spirit? There are many different people. That's why. We are all different people which makes us all different parts of the body of Christ. We are called to spread the light of God to others. As we spread the fire of life, it will eventually come back and thats when you know you have succeeded. Know yourself. Know your gift. Light the world on fire with it. Love and accept yourself and others will love and accept you. Don't judge others. If you see someone else struggling to find themselves...just be there for them. The spirit lives in you only if you let it.

There's more but that's only between me and those who have heard my talk.

I came as a guest. I left as a friend. Thank you to all of the people who coordinated the retreat. Everyone did an exceptional job. I needed it. Thank you for allowing me to express myself to the confirmandi. Thank you to all who got something out of my talk. Thank you God for filling me with such inspiration and love for others.

You just had to be there to know what it was like to feel the spirit of God. If you weren't then you'd have no idea what everyone was talking about.

I'm sure no one left empty-handed. I didn't. I left with a lighter heart and many new friends and experiences.

Retreat was what I needed. More details later.

Happy Birthday EO/Florido/Reggie!!!

...whatever the hell your name is...haha. jm

Today was pretty mundane. heh. It was a slow blog day so I'll just blog some random thoughts so you don't leave empty handed. hahaha.

1) Randy has such a nice house. CONGRATS on the purchase!
2) Nino's visiting! I hope I see him while he's here.
3) Friggin EO! I got him something for his birthday and he wasn't even at confirmation. FOOK!
4) Leo and I hung out again before confirmation.
5) I need a haircut...I need MONEY for a haircut.
6) RETREAT IS THIS WEEKEND!

Okay, time to get some sleep. Tomorrow is the last day of class before SPRING BREAK! WHOOOOOOOOO!!!

You are my hero. I'll get this for him. As his uncle, Lei gave me the permission to spoil him. hee hee.

I refuse to believe that my presence in other people's lives was all in vein...

I want to thank eveyone that has crossed my path, whether it was short-lived or for the rest of my lifetime...thank you. I have been lucky enough to be molded in such a way that I have the heart and ability to think past myself and serve others around me. I am grateful that I can make myself look like a complete idiot and have enough patience, tolerance, self-respect, and confidence not to care what those around me think. I need NO ONE to validate my words, thoughts, beliefs, or actions. The only thing that I need from others is respect. Everyone is entitled to be respected. Remember that no one has the right to bring you down. No one has the right to tell you what to do, think, or say. Love yourself and those around you.

I did something I haven't done for a while. I prayed the rosary last night and simply meditated. I've never really done that on my own before but it really calmed my nerves and centered my being. I thought deeply about myself and prayed for all those involved in my life. Prayer is VERY powerful...

I'd like to go on and on about all this but I'm sure most of you haven't read the super long entry last night. heh. I know how lazy some of my readers can be so I'll give you some time to digest it. I hope you read it. I think it's pretty good stuff, darn it. In the meantime, I'm going to read some blogs and possibly comment on them.

Sometimes I need to crawl out of that dark hole I've made for myself and see what I've been missing...

I missed out on a lot since I was gone...

I didn't listen to the radio at all in the car. It would have hindered my concentration. I was in no mood for music. Instead, I prayed. I prayed for myself, my family & friends, my life, for those whom I have wronged and those who have wronged me. For the past few days I've been contemplating about a lot of things. I've fucked up a lot of things and people have died in my life, both physically and spiritually. I wanted to focus on God, since that's where my strength has been coming from. I thought about wise words people have said to me...

Gail always says, "As leaders we must solve problems with love. There are right ways and wrong ways of dealing with situations and people." I've been low on patience...but my love for others would never go away. No matter what shit life hands to me, I have to move on. I know that I am loved by others. Gail showed me that no matter how much I fuck up, no matter how much I let her down, she's there for me no matter what. She's there to give me brute honesty. She's there to give me advice. She's there to just keep me company. Honest to God, I don't know what makes me so deserving to have a friend like her. I love her to death.

Leo...He's been there to listen to me piss and moan about everything. He's there to serve his community. He's there to serve his group. He's my little bro and he has gone above and beyond his call of servanthood. He knows the best way to keep me motivated and to smack some sense into me when I babble. His energy and generosity brings so much to my life.

Jay, I won't turn my back on you. I won't stop you from living your life either. I know that we don't see eye to eye, but I'll pray for you...I always do. I'm sorry.

My lolo...one of the biggest inspirations in my life. I was taught patience, respect, and love for others. He lived a full and meaningful life. He was a devoted, father, brother, husband and most of all...a loving grandfather. He raised my brother and I to love each other and our family. He constructed an unbreakable bond with me and my cousins. There's no appropriate way to thank him for that. I wish I told him that I loved him before he had to go...

After last weekend, I realized that life isn't so bad. There's more to life than dealing with problems. Sometimes we have to take the time to appreciate the things that deserve our time. Last weekend was a reminder of how much my brother and sister in-law love me and care for my well-being. Lei said to me, "Funny how a baby can bring a family closer together." It's true. Just holding Scott in my arms and singing to him filled me with an overwhelming sense of peace. A baby, with no advice, with no knowledge of my existence until yesterday, solved all my problems. Scott...a new love in my life. Just sitting down and talking to Si and Lei lightened my burdens. They reassured me that they love me and would do anything for me."You'd make a great dad." "You're gonna be somebody..." Lei told me. I never really tell them that I love them...but I do...with all my being.

There are so many other people I thought about while I had my moments of solitude. I will continue to pray for peace...peace of mind and for the rest of the world. If you're reading this, all I ask is a little prayer from you too.

I'm hanging in there...



"Well it's just my imagination...running away with me..."
Welcome to our world, Scott. You are loved more than you will ever know...

It wasn't sending bad vibes. You were.

I fell in love with a cute guy today.

His name is Scott.

I've known him for almost 2 weeks now.

He's 8 pounds and 20 inches tall.

Just seeing my nephew today made my heart melt and my troubles fade away. I'm so glad that my brother and my sister in law drove him all the way out here to visit. It made my week. It was also nice to finally sit and talk with them after for so long. I think we're all on the same page now. I needed to see them. Scott is so beautiful. God sent him down to Simon and Lei. All of us are blessed to have a new start to a new generation in this family.

Things are finally looking up...

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Meanwhile...in the back of the mind:

I don't get some people. "There's nothing to talk about" isn't exactly a reason to stop communicating with someone...or not even saying hi. There's always something to say. Look, I have other (not better) things to worry about. I'm not going to lose sleep over something you created in your head. Get it straight. You don't exist to them. According to you, I don't exist in your life either. Ask yourself, "Is this the person they would be attracted to?" For that matter, are you the person who confided in me in your time of need? I don't know anymore. As the saying goes, "You don't know what you had until you lose it." Well, my friend...you officially lost it. I left the ball in your court. With all things considered, I'll never turn my back on you. No one deserves that. Not even you. Friends? That's for you to decide.

Don't talk about people you don't know. You didn't to do anything for them...they don't know you. They don't always "make things better." Wake up. Listen to yourself...you sound so naive and maybe even dellusional.

I'm not stupid. There's something wrong. How sad...after all things I've done for you. I was there to help you. I carried your cross with you. I pushed you to fix your other relationships, now there's no one to push you to save ours. To you, all the things I've done for you doesn't count for anything anymore. Why? I don't know. You tell me. Oh, I forgot. There's nothing left to talk about...

Angry? No.

Sad? No.

Disspointed? Yes...very.

I'll be down here waiting for you to come crashing down to reality...

It just keeps on truckin...GREAT.

I had a fucked up day at work...and I have another shift at 6:30. I need a nap or I'll completely break down at work.

I'm ROYALLY pissed off now.

I wouldn't have decided to go to EO's tonight but he inisisted that I go. I will. Maybe that will finally get me to unwind.

Damn, I am SO fucked up right now. I hate everything.

I can't sleep again...

Can someone PLEASE save me from myself?! Someone just fucking smack me already. My heart is still weighing me down...

I am SO fucking selfish. If I wasn't being so stupid and letting my crap get to me...I would have done a better job at Soup Supper tonght. The only thing I did well was piss some people off and embarass myself. I was an embarassment to myself. I was an embarassment to the team. I made so many fucking amateur mistakes. I am so fucking irresponsible. Grow up, Mark. I couldn't even be responsible enough to facilitate the students. Fuck. I have no excuse for not taking the initiative and making sure things were getting done. Not only did I let down the other people responsible. I let myself down. Fuck. Okay, maybe this wasn't the perfect night for me to take on more responsibility, but that's not an excuse. I was entrusted to handle a task and I failed. This whole experience didn't really help me at all. It's my own fault though.

My patience is GONE. No. I'm not happy. No. I'm not satisfied. No. I don't want to talk about it. All you people need to know is that I'm hurting inside. I'm ashamed of my irresponsibility. I'm selfish. I'm just lost...

I want to leave. I want to get away. I want to feel whole. I want some answers. I want to make it all up somehow. I want to be happy again.

You had every right to repremand me. You had every right to be annoyed with me. I'm sure I caused that headache more than anyone. I didn't take responsibility. I didn't think. Fuck. I was so embarassed I couldn't even bring myself to say goodbye. I know I fucked up your night. Me...of all people. I'm sorry.

I was finally given more responsibility and I fucked it up. Story of my life...

I want space. I want time. I want to be alone...
Leave me alone...just leave me alone. At least I can manage to get that right.

So far the week hasn't really improved for me. I don't know what to think. I want to leave. I want to just let go.

I don't remember the last time I cried myself to sleep. I have no patience anymore...none whatsoever. Everything just came crashing down last night. Everything finally caught up with me. I ruined a lot of things. Nothing made sense anymore. All I did was wept to God last night. I don't know how late I slept. It didn't matter. Nothing matters to me nowadays. I have no hope for anything. I'm not looking forward to anything. I'm not even going to try to figure things out...they just keep getting more complicated. My anger and frustration seemed so trivial at the beginning of the week. Now it grew into a very depressing and empty week. Nothing has been going my way. Nothing is what it seems. Nothing...is what my life is right now. I want things to be normal...and I couldn't even get that. Peace of mind...IS THAT TOO MUCH TO ASK FOR?

Fine...I'll take your advice. I'll shut up. I'll leave you alone. I don't know what's going on. All I know is that I'm dead to you. I had a lot of firsts since the year started...I hope this isn't going to be the first time I gave up on someone. There's something that I don't know about and that's how I'm going to have to leave it. You made my week worse. I'm speaking out of anger again...

I'm not stupid, but I can take a hint.

If any of you see me around...humor me and pretend that I'm happy. I don't need anyone's pity. I don't need anyone's feigned interest. All I need is time...

What else can go wrong?

Everyone just leave me the fuck alone...

2 more links...

# 50 Catherine
# 51 Monette

wow...im a geek.

Crap I gotta get to class...This week really SUCKS for me. =\

Dissed...

Jay, what's going on? Talk to me man...

Life isn't being so kind to me lately...I hope things aren't so bad tomorrow. I have no patience left.

I suppose people will never know what they have until they lose it...

Kristine really inspried me to write a poem. haha. I've never written poety before...so be nice. Oddly enough, we had the same muse to inspire our poems.

The Things I Do...

I accept you for who you are.
I take you for who you're not.
Even if you stray too far,
I will follow and not stop.
Every time you hurt me,
I will easily forgive.
For you I'd give my life up,
just so you can live.
If you're gonna dream,
Go ahead and dream great.
I will always be there for you,
To relieve you of the weight.
I'd lift you up so high just so you can reach.
Yet I would be humble enough to listen if you teach.
We understand each other in ways no others can.
We know each other's darkest secrets and our simplest demands.
There are so many inside jokes that I can easily recall.
Lilo and Stitch, "don't look down", and "peeing" on my wall.
We seem so different yet we are the same.
I know where you are going,
because from there was where I came.
I won't forget the good times, nor forget the bad.
Nor will I forget how strong you always want to stand.
I and many people,
simply love you for you...
and not how you imitate what other people do.
Even if you find it a disgrace,
Please try to be yourself.
It's what we all embrace.
Don't sell yourself short, you're worth more than you know.
No matter who you are or what you do.
You're still my little bro.
Just don't forget who’s walking behind you...
Not just me or just your friends
but if you have faith,
God will guide you till the end.
He crossed our paths for reasons I don't understand.
But no matter what they are,
I'm sure He has something planned.

The things I do...are not just for you...
But maybe a little bit of it
was meant for me too.

Today was much better.

I'm LYING.

I'm SO royally pissed off. I even had a rough day NOT doing anything. WHAT THE FUCK IS UP?! Go away and don't ask me anything...people annoy me right now and I just need to breathe. FUCK!

The karma gods owe me BIG time. Damn I'm just so frustrated with so much!

I added three more links...hmmm ONE MORE AND I HAVE 50! yay.

Trich
Ashley
Monica

UNF!

Maybe I should clear out some links that don't really belong here. heh.

This is just FUCK-tabulously SHIT-tastic...Crappy start to a crappy day. muh.

1) I hate my car.
2) Dad is getting on my nerves.
3) I hate driving the big ass Mercedes.
4) I can't figure out why people are just hating on me.
5) I'm broke.
6) I'm hungry.
7) I don't think I'll pass this quiz.
8) I have class at 4:00
9) I have work tomorrow at that God foresaken restaurant.
10) I need a shower.

I just want this day to end. Where you are people?!

DAMN! I forgot to add Ashley and Trich to my links.Man...this crappy day better be just one big April Fool's joke...