God Exists

The sun is beaming brightly, and a slight comforting breeze follows me where ever I go. However, today wasn't really an ideal day at school. My apparel certainly reflects my current mood. I look like I'm headed to to the gym and I don't look remotely decent.

I was NOT feeling the project I had turned in. I told my professor that I was anything but inspired and had a hard time with the project. After talking to him about my project, I felt a little better since I had a new and better direction.

I had a two hour break today, since a class got cancelled. I wasn't really in the best of moods. I bought a light, healthy lunch and sat on a shady bench. As I ate, I prayed and listened to see if God had anything to say to me. I popped in my headphones and I meditated a bit. "God please assure me that I'm going to be okay." I asked. Just then "Ordinary people" by John Legend was running towards its end. "Take it slow..." he repeated. A strong gust embraced me. I smiled to myself and thought, "The only way I can change my course is to just DO IT. Take it slow."

Arnell always tells me to take one thing at a time. I needed him and I missed him as I ate my lunch alone.

I think I'll take one day at a time and be better. I need to be able to look back on my day and see at least one thing I did that made a difference in my life.

God exists.

Love Actually

I suppose it has been a while since you saw me last.

My life has been nothing to write a blog about. Although, there HAS been daily moments I thought about sharing.

The only thing on my mind as of late (beside's someone's birthday) has been...well... love. A friend asked me, "How do you keep that spark alive? I would think that the big romantic things stop eventually and you just get 'comfortable' with each other."

I told her that the longer you're with someone, the more you realize that it's the small things that are the most important. I don't always have to indulge in expensive things or meals. I mean, they're really fun, but it's not necessary to do it ALL the time.

I know he loves me when he calls me from work "just because."
I know he loves me when he sneaks into my bed before he gets ready for work.
I know he loves me when he makes fun of me.
I know he loves me when he makes funny faces.

I know he loves me. Period.

It would be easy to blog about what I've done during the day. But, I think that it's more interesting to know what's actually in my head rather what I had for lunch. So yes. Love has been a common theme and frankly the only idea I thought was worth writing about.

I'm a big fan of love...of all kinds.

As he snores, I think about what he's done for me today. That's what makes me sleep easy.

Now, I just have to get some homework done.

DG = Damn Good

Look what came in the mail today. I'm happy. It was a tad impulsive to buy sunglasses, but hey they're for CABO.

Playing Catch Up

I finally feel like I'm just about caught up with school. I can use this weekend to try to get more things done and hopefully get ahead. I've been out of wack lately and I need to get my schedules down cold.

I can't really say that there's anything really wrong with my life. I guess I just need time to recollect myself and look at the big picture. Though I'm a tad uninspired, I just need to crank it out and go for it.

Next week is gonna be an interesting week. I have lots of hours to work and i have 2 midterms to study for.

I really should enjoy my retreat this weekend. I need it.

Meh.

I made my choice.

These or these???






I cant decide between the two. I like them both.

The Dolce & Gabbana is a current model as the Chanels are a 2005 model.

The Chanels are smaller and isn't as loud as the D&G pair.

D&G is about $100 cheaper.

DAMMIT! I need to decide soon.

Would You Sign My Yearbook?



Last night, a friend of mine sent me a picture message. It was a picture of my senior portrait in the ERHS class of 2000 yearbook.

I never wanted a yearbook as an underclassman. I wanted the excitement of getting one for my senior year.

Getting that picture message made me kind of sad. Back then, my parents were not able afford my senior portraits, let alone my yearbook. We barely had enough for me and Sim's senior dues. When I finally scraped up enough money, I was denied a yearbook. The school had run out by the time I got there. I was too late.

To this day, I still want my senior yearbook. I've always wanted it...and I'm sad that I may never have a copy of it.

There are few things in life that I truly and passionately wanted. I know it sounds lame, but I was denied that milestone item. I never got to ask someone to sign my yearbook.

High school wasn't an easy part of my life...but in the end, I grew because of it. Now, I take so much pride of what I have done back then. I guess people take that kind of stuff for granted.

Seven years later, I'm still left wanting...