Well, Ariel just got back from taking a random old lady home. What a nice guy.

Am I the only one that doesn't have a problem with Cingular? I really like my phone, but honestly I have been considering (or pushed into) the Nextel bandwagon...

I've been having stages with my hair, like in a Justin Timberlake-ish kind of way. I end up with different hair phases and I guess everyone seems to live with them. I used to have a short pompador thing going on...then I ended up getting a buzz on the sides and slicked everything back. I had a few bald phases here and there. In my senior year I went for the Schimmer look...you know...the hair that points forward. heh. After that, I went to messy, GQ boy type thing. I had another bald phase and ended up to where I am now...a big fat fro thing. That typical Asian spiked head. Personally, I'm torn on what to think of it. I don't even know what to do with it, but whatever it is, I think it grew on me. The next phase is in the near future. Highlights? Elijah style? HA..I still don't know what to with this thing on my head. I really need to think of a new style and quick. I have to go to a Junior Prom and I can't walk into a high school dance looking like every other Asian thug reject in the house. Any suggestions? e-mail me. Oh, Aiyah and Nicole, if you're reading this...maybe you guys can highlight me...hahaha.

Well I think I bombed my Math test today. I had a long day and I really didn't feel like going to class. I went to school though...I studied for that test. Heh...at least it was a high fail. =P

I think I just found my motivation...

I don't get it...I was so tired and went to sleep after that last post. Now, I'm in front of my computer trying to tire myself out.

Maybe blogging will get me to go to sleep...

There's been a few issues looming. There's nothing bad. I guess I'll just materialize these thoughts for a sec. Forgive the jumps from one idea to another...

It's funny how I haven't seen some of my friends. They all deserve my attention. I feel bad just not being able to spend time with some of them. I really miss Aileen too. I know that she's doing her thing at school and I hope that she is doing well. Alex, Donna & Elvira...gosh I miss them so much. Those guys really knew how to make me laugh. I really miss Charles and DJ. Hmmm I really should give them a call and just hang out. I miss my RC crew so so much. They were the best group to wreak havoc since we were such a large group. I miss a lot of people. I have so many names in my phone book that go unused. Sad huh?

I also noticed that my world changed dramatically. I remember a time where talking about sex was taboo among my friends. Funny thing though...I talked to a good friend of mine about sex. Nothing trivial. Nothing perverted. It surprised me that we were able to just talk about it in that manner. I guess you had to be there to know what I mean.

I hate the fact that the most undeserving people get the things that YOU would want. I won't get into the details on this one but I really wanted a chance to relieve myself of my life for a few days. The chance was presented to me but it was taken by someone who had to be the worst candidate. I'm sorry but whoever made that call was totally misinformed.

HA! That's the story of my life. I strive hard and what happens? An undeserving person gets the gold. There are so many things that I am involved in and it always seems that some gets the piece of the pie that I've been working for.

I feel so undermotivated. I feel like I need an incentive for living. There are a lot things that I want but there's little or no drive to acheive it. I'm so unhappy with myself on so many levels. It kills me to know that I can be SOOO much better than I am now. "There's always room for improvement" In my case there's a lot of it.

Oh, I never mentioned what Adolfo got me from Mexico. It's a bow and arrow. Pretty cool huh? I don't know where to put it though. He asked me what I wanted from Mexico, and I told him, "...as long as I can hang it in my room then it's cool." I could hang it...but where?

I hate staying up this late. I really want to get back to sleep...

Again, sorry for the randomness in thoughts...

Today was a fun and unproductive day. Thanks Gail! Oh, Gary...good luck. That's all I got to say.

**Sorry I was ready to give all of these juicy details but I've been so tired lately.**

First, Nicole and I stayed in line for tickets at the buttcrack of dawn...good times


and then a whole lot of nothing happened...

then we went to the show...saw Jon Stewart, Apolo Anton Ohno, and Ryan Adams...good people


finally, we went to islands for a well deserved meal...good eats


I think I needed some good times, good people, and good eats. Thanks a lot guys I had buttloads of fun.

**Listen carefully when Apolo sits down. You might hear the three of us yelling "OOOOOOHNOOOOOO!"** =P

Shar, Nicole...I had the greatest time at Leno's today! Whoo Hoo! Price is right here we come!!!

I'm going to be on the Tonight Show taping today. I still have one extra ticket. I haven't found a kasama... haha. Well whoever wants to go better call me before 2:30 today.

Guess what I'm doing tomorrow night! I'll tell you later. To those who know...don't TELL! =)

Crap. My chapped lips cracked and now I'm bleeding. I'm gonna go fix this and maybe a nap. Hmmm some sleep sounds good about now since I spent my 8 hours tossing and turning rather than sleeping.

Hey Gail, I'm up for a game.

It's official. These past 17 days have been a real trip. It's time to bid farewell to the 19th 2002 Winter Olympics. It struck me odd to notice that some people didn't really care about the games as much as I did. In the wake of recent times, I'd like to think that for the world to unite for a common dream and one flag would be the best thing to do. Witnessing to the triumph and agony has been something that will stay with me for a while. The pride in the country I live in has grown. My faith in people...resotred. My inspiration...driven. My wallet...burned. heh heh. I really wanted to sport the gear this year. I've never taken this much interest into any Olympics, but now I think I have something to look forward to in the summer of 2004. These past 2 weeks shattered dreams and granted wishes. We've all experienced that in one time or another but, either way all of us are called to light the fire within; not only in ourselves but in the lives of others. I should be the best that I can be; satisfy my expectations. Some day my hopes & dreams will come true...some day.

"We are not given the power to dream without the power to make it true."

Red and I had this pretty down to earth conversation last night. I'm no position to discuss what we talked about but to be honest, it reminded me why I don't really call the people I work with my co-workers, but my friends. I know I bitch and moan about my job at least once a week, but honest to God. I love working at Islands.I mean, the tips may suck and I don't really like the job persay, but I LOVE the people I work with. Don't get me wrong, once another gravy train hits town, I'm jumping on...NO DOUBT. It kills me to have so many of my friends leaving that restaurant. They all know who they are. Now that the ones I'm so close to are leaving...I'm not really sure how to handle it.

Meanwhile, back at the ranch:

I haven't received word of my Olympic gear being shipped yet. I'm guessing that it's going to take a couple of weeks. Damn, I really want to sport that bad boy already. hahahaha the sad thing is that there has been a warming trend lately. Maybe the retreat will provide some cold weather for it's debut. HA...I'm a geek, I know.

Well, I guess that's all that was dwelling for now. I didn't think I actually had anything worth mentioning earlier today.

Have you noticed I haven't had any long entries lately? Hmmm...I'm wondering what happened too. I'm off to run some errands. To those who wish to stalk me, I'll be around Glendale for an hour or two.

Work was pretty good tonight. I went out to some late night breakfast with Red tonight and finally got to catch up. I love my co-workers...

Oh, I forgot to mention that the three of of us went bowling...haha

I know it's early. I went out with Adolfo and Lara tonight. I think I really needed the good company. It's about time I went out with you guys. Thanks =)

I just respected Jay Leno a little less...

That Korean skater was mad wasn't he? I heard he kicked his dog then ate him.

Thanks ate I think I needed that...

hey Mark... where do you get the USA 2002 baret's? my poppa wants one. and to response to your posts for today... You really are a great guy and a great cousin. I'm glad to see that things are going good with you even though you're overwhelmingly busy.

Not feeling too good about myself lately. I haven't felt like blogging for a while...still don't

I'm off to study the stars.

You know what? Work changed my schedule again. I have to work Friday nights, but I don't know how that's going to go considering I want to help at all of the Soup Suppers at SDYM. On the other hand, this is the opportunity I've been waiting for. I've been waiting for this change so I can finally make some decent money. I really need to pay my bills. Shit, what should I do? hmmm...A good friend once told me that sometimes you have to say "no" once in a while and do what I need to do. I really need this money and I've been doing this service as far back as I can remember. *sigh* I'm stuck between a rock and a hard place.

If you notice, something small is missing. I decided to take out that little border thing in the side. I hate it when the layer blocks the links.

I've been out of touch with a lot of my friends lately. It bothers me a lot. I haven't seen Nicole, Selle, Aileen, & Ian, Kenny, Kris, "MarJen", Janet, Adolfo, & Michelle in a while. I feel like I'm taking them for granted. I mean I never initiate an IM conversation. I don't call as often as I used to. I don't e-mail anyone either. It's not like I don't want to keep in touch. It's just that I'm so busy dealing with my shit that I can't find time to share with the people who really matter in my life. I hope they don't think I'm drifting. I think about so many of my friends every waking moment.

What's with the sudden remorse?

A good friend of mine just caught my attention. He's planning to join a fraternity and he asked me to keep him sane in the process. All I can really do is keep an open mind and an open ear. Good luck and I'm here whenever you need me.

In a totally unrelated story, I was informed that I was a good guy. I didn't think that I'd be the topic in anyone's conversation. But, I was told that I'm just a good guy. It kinda made my day a little better. I've been real overwhelmed with everything and I haven't been able to just marinate and share my time.

Shit, I know it's late and I need to deposit my paycheck so I can fax my order for my Olympic gear. hahaha I told you I was a fan of the 2002 games. My phone even has the Olympic Fanfare as a ringtone. There's just something about these games that really caught my attention. It's been the most (indirectly) inspiring 2 weeks of my life. I am sure to have a memorable 2002 ahead.

Light the fire within

Oh, in other news, I'm planning to buy the USA 2002 beret. hahaha I've been such a groupie to these games.

Where have I been for the past couple of days? heh heh. Well, I've been procrastinating a paper that's actually due in this class. It's the first draft so it's not like the quality is going to matter as much. Anyway, yesterday's shift proved to be fruitful for me. I actually got my 15%. I walked with about $90 on a monday morning. That's unheard of. Especially because the customers in Glendale have a real reputation for being cheap. Thankfully, I'm not one of them.

I finally got to see some people I've been wanting to see for a while. I went out on a study night with Selle, but we didn't really study much. Unless watching a video is considered studying. Hey, we had some catching up to do.

Sadly, there hasn't been anything worth mentioning lately. I guess I don't want to dissapoint my readers. hahaha. I sound like I'm popular. Enough of this pretense. I gotta get back to class. It's about to start if it hasn't already.

I couldn't help but notice that there are all of these people looking at my page and no one is really signing my guestbook. The number of entries certainly don't match the average of hits that I get per day. WHO ARE YOU PEOPLE?

curiouser and curiouser...

I just noticed that i didn't blog about Youth Day the other day. I have so many pictures with that but I guess things have been pretty hectic lately. I hope I can get all of the HW done. -_-;

I got up from a VERY pleasant 15 hour sleep to start a VERY irritating day.

The first thing I heard was my sister telling me that my dad wasn't home. I had to get to work by noon and he was no where to be found. Right before I had to leave for work, his whereabouts were still unknown. We soon found out that he went to play tennis with his buddies and he didn't tell anyone. (a side note: WTF do my parents get mad if i don't tell them where I'm going? freaking hypocrite) So I ended up leaving the house a little later than I usually do and had to haul ass to get my sister to my lola's house. I ended up getting to work and was 10 minutes late. Once I got to work, I get to the office and get funny looks. I go to the front and tell the hosts that I'm ready to work. "Um...you're not scheduled." I totally thought that I was working since I work every Friday morning. I storm to the back and check my schedule and it turns out that I was scheduled at night. I get home and saw my dad. That fool tried to blame me for the fact that he wasn't home. What the fuck is that? I got so mad at him. So, I end up going to Saint Dominic's totally pissed off and try to do something for our soup supper. Things were all well and good until I ended up having to stir the soup for 45 minutes while everyone else ran errands. I was stirring soup by myself in complete silence. Great. After that whole scene, I went to work. There were a few cars lined up in front of me at a stop light and this dumb bitch in front of me just HAD to talk to her dumbass friend in the other lane. I would have made that light if that dumb bitch shut her face. I got to work on time. In fact, I was an hour early. It turns out that the "in-time" was changed. Work wasn't all that pleasant either, but it had its moments. With the exception of a few tables, tips were 10% all night. I should have made $90+ but walked about with about $65. I got home and tried to blog and the website wouldn't load for like 20 minutes. Right when I when I tried to reload, AOL decides to log me off. I am SO irritated...

On a positive note:
Gail gave me a cheese roll.
I worked with Adolfo & Michelle and caught up with them a little bit.
During my break, some "cool guys" went in today and I treated them to some cheddar fries.

Wait, I lied...

I just remembered how the CANADIANS GOT ROBBED! I think that was totally wrong. I watched that happen. That was a terrible thing. Personally, I thought that the Canadians had a better program techinically. C'mon, I didn't see them stumble once. The Russians on the other hand stumbled at LEAST twice. I mean obviously they didn't fall but their performance was inferior. Ugh, someone had to get their ass kicked for that. The entire world thought that the Russians won the silver. The public poll results were 96% to 4%. Guess which percentage is for the Candians? Yeah, I thought so.

Shame on the judges for not abinding by the Olympic Oath.

I have nothing to say. I have to get up real soon...heh heh

Funny how things turned out after school today.

I decided to visit my good ol' Alma Mater today. I wanted to see some old faces and just hamg out. Unfortunately it was a half day for them. Great. I finally have the chance to visit them and they're all at home. After that whole scene, I ended up falling asleep. Just when I finally settled into bed, the whole world decides to call me; texting, voicemails...the works!

I guess today wasn't the day to take naps.

The professor is just trying to teach us about search engines. Frankly, this bores me.

I'm supposed to be looking for some stuff online for the class. It's kind of cool to have internet access in the classroom. I can check on the Phorum and I can update my blog too. Well, if (and only if) I don't have a big assignment to do in class, I can screw around in class. I have to prioritize this semester, you know.

I'm not sure why, but I feel really bad for not making it to half of my classes today. I know that I won't be able to go to classes on Thursday either. Hmmm, remorse...Maybe I am improving on my studies.

Okay, she's coming and class is about to start. Hey, at least I'm not late for this class. =P

Good one, Mark.

I thought it would be a good idea to take a small nap before I had to leave for school. (I'm sure you should know where this is going to lead...) I neglected to set the alarm and ended up waking up at about 11:20. I figured that my professors in my first 2 classes weren't going to notice that I was actually absent. So I ended up deciding to just go to my English class since attendance matters.

I'm thinking about not going to my Math Class either. I need to polish off that talk anyway. I can get the notes from someone else.

(Heh...look at me trying to rationalize everything...)

You know what? I've been going to proms since my junior year in high school.

1999 = Junior Dinner Dance (c/o 2000)
2000 = Junior Dinner Dance (c/o 2001) & Senior Prom (c/o 2000)
2001 = Senior Prom @ Long Beach Poly (c/o 2001)
2002 = Junior Dinner Dance (c/o 2003)

Am I an escort service? Did no one tell me?

When the work day was over a co-worker said to me, "I'll see you later alligator." We all know this dated phrase. Nonetheless, it reminded me of younger days. As I kid, I used to call my mom's office after school to say hi and told her that I loved her. At the end of every conversation my mom would always say that phrase..."I'll see you later alligator" and I would respond "In a while crocodile." It always managed to put a smile on my face no matter how I was feeling.

It's funny how little things are so meaningful to other people.

In other news, Valentine's is coming up. I have no plans nor do I have any intention of making any. It's all hype to me this year. No no no...don't think I'm bitter. I'm not. I'm not whimpering about loneliness either. I just wanted everyone to know my standpoint. I don't think it matters to you but whatever...

Work was slow, but ended on a high note. It was pretty nice to have Gail and Andrew be my last table for the night. The night went quite slow and the tips were pretty good.

Marianella (a co-worker) and I had some good eats after work. We caught ourselves watching the games at the bar. Again, I love the games. I love the excitement, drama, and the triumph. It's all about the human spirit and the drive of the human heart. "Light the fire within" is the theme for this year's games and I can't think of a theme more appropriate.

I love it when the Olymipics hit the small screen. There's always something worth watching. They can't be reruns. No one can ruin the endings for you. It's great.

In other news, I have work and I have no plans for the night. Anyone need a kasama? hee hee

heh heh no Philippines...go fig... =P

I've always wanted to watch the opening ceremonies, whether it be summer or winter. I've never seen one fully before. I would always be in awe when I'd see clips from the news. Now I'm actually watching the Parade of Nations. It's cool to finally get to see an opening ceremony for once. I wonder who's going to light the flame...

There's someting about this whole Olympics thing. I don't really know what it is but it looks the games undoubtedly brings the world together. Nowadays, I guess we can use a positive way to unite everyone.

I'm so sorry Nicole. I still have your CD's! I'll get them to you ASAP. =\

Hey by the way, Kenny...your hair looks the same to me. The hat's cool...

I've had a productive night with Ariel and Ting. I went to Tony Roma's for the first time. I was finally able to give Ting her Christmas gift. The funny thing is that after our meal, we wanted her to open her present while we ordered desert. It turns out that the waiter thought that it was a birthday and sang for us. That was cool. I wasn't about to say that it was a mistake. Hey...it's a free desert, right? We didn't lie...we never mentioned a birthday was on the table. After that whole fiasco, we went to the mall and swore that we were JUST going to Structure since Ariel needed something. I ended up falling into the Gap and bought myself a little something. Trust me, it was little. $3.18 was the total. I ended up going to Abercrombie and got myself a nice turtleneck. Crap. We all walked out of there with something. heh heh...

It was nice seeing Ting again. I missed her so much. =)

Good times...

The car outside is driving me NUTS. The alarm keeps going off and everytime it stops, it immediately starts all over again. I tried to study. I gave up. Now, I'm trying to get some sleep but that incessant beeping is permeating through the silence. I swear, if I see that moron tomorrow morning, pleasantries will not be leaving my mouth. It's been honking for almost 3 hours.

Okay, dammit...

Someone out there doesn't want me to blog. I've been kicked off AOL twice now. Conveniently, it kicks me off right before i hit the "Post & Publish" button. WTF?! I don't want retype everything. Fuck it...

I totally owe you, Gail. Thanks so much for all of your help.

Now that I'm done with my in class assignment, I have nothing better to do than just add another entry. I'm sitting here in my English class wondering where my excitment went. Oh crap...never mind. She's talking again. =\

I'll change the currents later.

I'm in my English class and I'm only doing this for the sake of blogging. BORED! I gotta go before I get caught...

A Walk to Remember ceratinly surprised me. I thought that it was a pretty good movie. Thanks to Gail and her "battling the elements", we were able to see it tonight. Gail, Kookie and I enjoyed our impromptu night out. Thanks guys. It was nice to reinforce my good vibes.

Today, I went to Hollywood. I didn't go to sightsee or to club. Not this time. I went to St. Ambrose to help feed the homeless with some of the confirmation students. That was certainly an experience. Sincerity was totally redefined. "God bless you..." That phrase was always accompanied with a sense of comfort and genuine gratitude. I was humbled and was grateful for being so fortunate. I'm convinced that I saw God in the faces of these people. Nuts to the Super Bowl...I had much more productive things to do.

"Damn, who cut the cheese?"

"I did. Wanna lick the knife?"

The obvious lack of thought in the last post just proved that I was on something. Hey, I had a good time and I'm not going to deny it. I got shitfaced for the first time and maaaaaaaan was I dizzy as hell. I wouldn't have done something like that without trusting the crowd there. I knew that if something were to happen to me then they could have taken care of me. You all should know that I'm not that big on drinking.

I know I haven't been blogging much lately. I'm still trying to situate myself now that I'm back in school. I have lots to live up to this semester.

Oh, and Bobby, I seriously appreciate your apology. It means a lot that you care enough about our friendship to want to that behind us.

I'm having a great time here at Gail's house. Whoooo...I won't lie. I'm pretty buzzed right now and I'm having some good times with somle good friends. Work sucked but who cares...There's no more drama in the house and I'm doing oooooookay =). Okay, I gotta go, there's some people waiting for me downstairs. Oh, I got a new shirt! Shit, I really should stop shopping for myself.