First Day of the New Semester

Today was the worst first day of school...EVER.

First of all, I woke up on the wrong side of the bed to begin with. I'm not sure why, but I just woke up in a bad mood. Well, maybe I do know. Anyway, I hate driving in the rain. It doesn't feel safe. Anyway, I started the day taking Gen to school. It's pretty routine, but why were there stupid ass drivers the ENTIRE way? People were suddenly stopping, tailgating, turning without signaling, parking in the MIDDLE of the road...well there are dumbasses everymorning, but it was WAAAAY more that usual.

I couldn't find my necklace so that REALLY pissed me off this morning. I had breakfast and I left the house 20 minutes earlier than I usually would to get to school. It was raining and it being the first week would make things much harder. For starters, my stupid transpod wouldn't cooperate with me so I just left it alone... I ended up driving in silence. I was in NO mood for mindless morning radio babble. I get to Northridge at about 9:15 or so...no thanks to the student traffic. To make matters worse, I didn't have a campus parking pass. I can't afford one just yet. It wouldn't have mattered anyway. Every fucking lot was full. The traffic cops scattered throughout campus "kindly" notified me and sent me on a detour. At about 10:00am, I end up parking in a residential area. I had to walk about 10 minutes JUST to get to campus. Keep in mind my class started at 9:30. I finally find my room to find that the door was still open. I creep into the class hoping to make the least amount of noise...AND I KNOCKED OVER THE TRASH CAN. Nice. So among the snickering and stares, I managed to find a seat. Not only was I embarassed that I was over 30 minutes late, but now I'm the dumbass who ran into a trash can. Great.

The rest of the day was just sort of mundane and a few things made the day a little better. I discovered the Topanga Mall with April too...so that was nice. heh.

I get home and just SLEEP it off.

I really hope that the rest of the school week doesn't SUCK.

I don't ask for much, but I guess sometimes I look too hard.

I wanted to kickoff the new semester with a little fun. I haven't seen my boyfriend all weekend. Naturally it was all with good reason. He had some family in town.

Chriselle and I tore up the town for a while. It was good to see her and just fart around for no good reason. I was glad to have a Saturday like that. Unfortunately, Sunday wasn't so exciting. A miscommunication really killed my buzz. I really felt left out. No one called me back. Boyfriend wasn't timely enough to inform me of his whereabouts. I just felt like no one cared enough to call me back. After calming down, I understand the situation better, but I'm still not feeling super happy about missing out.

So now, my first day of school is in about 10 hours and I feel cheated. I wanted to blow it out...go clubbing, get drunk...just go nuts...

Alas, I'm still feenin for excitement (and cash).

Whatever. I think I'll matters into my own hands if I have to.

I impulsively bought a bluetooth headset.

Oddly enough, it's been exactly a month since I got the Sidekick. ha.

These past couple of days was certainly interesting. I got to reconnect with old friends after almost 10 years.

I felt a myriad of emotions these past couple of days. I was asked to be a pallbearer for Lolo Ben last Wednesday. As we walked out of St. Augustine's after mass, just seeing the faces of everyone in the pews was so overwhelming. I would always see those faces full of life. I had a hard time seeing everyone so sad...even my parents. Hearing Lola and my aunties cry as I carried the casket was overwhelming. Seeing my cousins weeping was a sight I hope to never get used to. I was honored to carry him to his final resting place.

I learned a lot about Lolo Ben. I learned that he was a trailblazer. I learned that if it weren't for Filipinos like him, I wouldn't have the opportunities I have today. He was a tough man with a heart of gold. You know, he's the link between my family and my family up north.

Thanks Lolo Ben.

OH EM GEE...

My Cuzzo's PREGNANT!!! yay!

CONGRATS KIM!

Whatttawannabe

I recently caught an epiode of DANCELIFE on MTV and it made me feel kind of weird. First of all, it all takes place at the Millenium Dance Complex in North Hollywood. I used to go there years ago. In fact, the first time I went was on October 8, 2002 (Yeah it's here on my blogger somwhere...). I really miss difficult dancing. I miss feeling empowered by catching and executing a fast routine. Granted, I could never be a pro, it sure was fun...and a GREAT workout.

Part of me wants to go back...but another part of me thinks that I'm probably wanting to bite off more than I can chew.

I'm old.
I'm fat.
I'm broke.
I'm so outta their league.

I just wanna perform.

Debtor

I really feel bad about him taking me out so much lately. We're both broke. I owe him a lot. I feel REALLY bad...but I'm grateful for everything he's done for me.

I don't deserve him. Thanks beb. =\

FutureSex/LoveHimSoMuch

Tonight, Arnell and I decided to just try to get some tickets to the SOLD OUT to Justin Timberlake's FutureSex/LoveShow 2007 World Tour. I wasn't expecting to get in...especially after we saw the long line at the box office. I figured it would be an adventure to stay and Arnell was pretty adamant about being able to get tickets. After a couple of ignorant, homophobic bitches, and about an hour later, we get to the front of the line. Arnell asks the attendant what the best available seats are. It turns out we were 16th row and that DEFINATELY beats the kind of seats I've had before. I couldn't believe we got in.




These were taken with my Sidekick because we got caught with a camera...twice. heh. It was worth a shot. WHO CARES?! We were still early enough to catch Pink's opening. We even got some goodies after the show. He got me the tour jacket while he got a really cute backpack. ha.

I had a super great time. I was totally happy. Thanks beb. Happy Early Valentine's. haha.

So much for spontenaiety right?

Celebrate Life

Rest in peace Lolo Ben. You were certainly the true example of being young at heart. I really wish I came to visit before God called.

My cousins have been asking me to visit for so long. I'm happy to see them and I'm sad about the circumstances that brought us together.

Well, he was always happy to see all of us together... He's smiling on us. I know he is.

I love him...

That's all.

Enjoy.


SDYM Confirmation Year 1 Retreat





That was a great retreat with great leaders. I had a blast with this group and I hope that everyone continues to grow.

ello my lovahs....goobye my freeeeeends

Recap

Retreat was awesome.
I love my new Sidekick.
I got REALLY sick.
The Lion King was AWESOME and so was the Limo.
Work is work.
Night at the Museum was surprisingly entertaining.
I'm broke.
I'm happy.

Now leave me alone...unless you're here to preserve the happy.

Dear Rnerr...

Happy birthday!

I love you. I miss you...

I hope you like your gift. It's not much but I squeezed every last cent to get it.

Love,
Bub

It's my boyfriends birthday today and even though I'm still kinda mad at him I wanted to get him something. I'm so pissed that I can't find ANY of my gift cards. I don't have any money so I was going to use one to get him a gift. FUCK! I'm so mad!

Right now...I hate 2007.

Happy(?) New Year

Okay, so now don't think that I'm a total ingrate for being with my family (well most of them) at midnight...but well...this whole night was pretty anticlimactic.

No. I don't feel very happy. As soon as we finished our toasts, kisses and greetings...a huge vibe of negativity came over me. I felt a little empty and, frankly, pretty damn sad. I'm feeling alone.

Maybe it's the fact that my man is out of town. That's a given.

Maybe it's because I've been cleaning and realizing what kind of a pathetic slob I've become.

Maybe it's the fact that my wallet has $1 left and I won't be getting paid until Friday. I'm scrounging every dollar and living on gift cards.

Maybe it's the fact that it seems like everyone else has something fun to do to ring in 2007.

I'm not liking how 2007 has started. Now, I need to shut up and just finish cleaning.

whoopie.