What an interesting thought...

I'm not surprised that there had to be some sort of scandal during the holidays. Like I was telling my cousin, I had a feeling the family would start to deteriorate after Lolo died. Relatives have beef over money and over some unknown situation. On my side of the gate, there's another piece of scandal that's been floating around. Apparantly the whole family knows I'm gay and they seem to walk over eggshells while I'm around. Aunts are gossiping over me like I was some fobby celebrity...ugh. typical hens. They don't even have the nerve to talk to me about it...and I'm sure they'll offend me with an overly sarcastic quip. Stop fucking whispering and forget about it. It's not like I'm a different person.

What the fuck is the big deal anyway? What makes my sexuality such an "interesting" topic for conversation? Is it because they have no real life of their own and so they have to knitpick at mine? I'm pretty sure they don't understand and most of them never will.

I feared the family finding out...but after seeing this reaction. I fear only for my reputation. Apparantly being gay changes the light on me completely. I wonder what ignorant thoughts they are going to gossip over. I wonder what kind of dellusional ideas they have about me. I wonder if they even think of me as the same Mark as I was 3 years ago.

You know what? Fuck em. I already have haters in my own family. Why should this phase me? The fact of the matter is that my parents are supporting me and still love me no matter what. Fuck the rest. I feel sorry for those who can't let it go. I'm not gonna mention names. They know who they are.

Why can't my titas get a life and look at themselves for a change. Who the fuck do they think they are looking at me the way they do?

"Oh did you hear he has a boyfriend?" "Oh did you hear he's a gay?"

Stop whispering bitches. I came out of the closet. Why won't you?

I'm not angry...just offended and frustrated.

Happy fucking ham day.