I think I just realized something during mass tonight. It wasn't the music. It wasn't the people. It wasn't even the homily. It was something that Lei said that got me thinking. It's Scott's first Christmas. Shouldn't I, of all people, bring that magic to him? Shouldn't I egg on his curiousity towards Christmas? Just because I've been pretty jaded this time around doesn't mean I should take away from someone else...let alone my nephew. When Simon passed him to me during mass. All I did was smile and hold him tight. It actually felt like Christmas to me.

In other news, Lei got me playing Roulette last weekend. I ended up winning over $100. hahaha. Vegas rocks. I'm leaving again tomorrow.

Jason, you were right. I should appreciate what I do have... After all, things could be much worse.

I hope you all have a great Christmas...