I'm back.

It's always good to take time out for yourself. I needed time to just stop and think things over for myself. I didn't need people screaming in my ear. I didn't need more outside opinions to confuse or bias my thought process.

So what did I come out with? Apparently, I come off arrogant. That's fine. I can be a real bitch sometimes. I can be real critical of a lot of things. I can stand for what I believe in and be confident about it. No matter what I do or how I appear doing it...I don't mean to hurt people. It's not something I do. Why should it bug me that someone pointed out my supposed arrogance?

I've been told that someone who gets knocked down a lot should be able to assert himself.

I've been told that someone who is confident can be quite intimidating to others.

I've been told that I have the attitude and mentality of an artist.

I've been told that I'm anal retentive.

...but no matter what I've been told, I know who I am. Only I dictate who I am. No one has the right to compromise my character. I know what I stand for. I understand the complexities of my nature. Besides God, no one else does. So why should I beat myself up over people who cannot embrace the good and the bad in me? Why should I have to question my ideals, morals, beliefs, opinions, or actions?

Everyone can be arrogant to some extent. It's all relative. Each of us take pride in different things and people.

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Not everything in my world is fixed. I still hurt inside. I have pieces missing inside. There are still questions unanswered and there are still wounds that I need to tend to. I'm back up on my feet, but I still need to reach my pace again.

Thank you to those who have helped me through these rough days. Thank you to those who expressed their concern and for their patience. I'm not always an easy person to deal with, but if you truly knew me...I'm really not as bad as I lead some people to believe.

Things won't be the same anymore...but then again, change is inevitable.