Wow the previous post was my 1,234th post! (Okay that was SOOO trivial...hahaha)

Back to my entry for the night...

Change.

It's something that we can't change. There has been a lot of shifts in my comfort zone lately, but I think I'm all settled and ready to keep moving. I'm not saying that all of the changes were negative, they're just all fact of the matter. That's all. Negativity only paves the way to positive vibes if you allow it.

My outlook on myself has definately changed. I've tried to a better friend, brother, uncle, and mentor after embracing my "shift." It was something that I needed to take and work with it. My new outlook at the moment is: "If you can't hide it...decorate it." There are parts of me that aren't so desiratble so I guess I'm just gonna have to make the most of my circumstances.

My outlook with certain people and colleagues have changed as well. I think that I'm more comfortable with my place and with my role as a friend. Honesty is hard to give as it is to receive. That's all I have to say about that.

My outlook on men has changed as well. I'm not in that "fuck em. I don't care anymore." kind of mode. I'm just going to accept that I am single; plain and simple. Why should a "caller" have to suffer because of past guys who didn't work out? Every case is different... I'm not gonna expect someone to just walk in my workplace and just ask me out for coffee. It doesn't happen that way. Yeah, I may have some void inside that a boyfriend could fill...but I guess right now, it's not really a priority. Besides, with downe friends like mine, I feel wanted and loved already. Love is meant to be taken slowly and sometimes with a grain of salt. I should stop taking myself so seriously sometimes.

To my new friends who "found each other"

First off...THANKS FOR TELLING ME ASSES! Someone else had to tell me! Sheesh. I feel out of the loop! haha. jk.

I hope that things work out for you. You guys are both good friends of mine and I'm there for you guys. =)

Okay, it's getting late and I have to wake up tomorrow...eventually. haha. It's vacation time and I'm off...sleeping in is a MUST. Thanks for sticking through this entry...my posts have been pretty hefty lately.

G O O D N I G H T.